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[syl;]

i feel like a failure...

why?

Don't feel like that!
You aren't a failure, everyone will make a mistake in their lifetime.
If you need to talk, PM me.

❤

[GlitchyMoon]

Idk
It's just
Life hasn't been very good for me lately
And the fact that I have anxiety makes all of these things going on seem much worse to me
So my mom just recently got back together with her boyfriend who constantly abuses her mentally
Even though she said that she was done with him
I hate him so much tbh, I just wish that he'd leave me and my mom alone
Speaking of my mom, she keeps getting mad at me for constantly being stressed and lonely
I just wish she would understand what I'm going through right now
I also only happen to have one true friend, whom I also happen to have a crush on
And I'm pretty sure she doesn't even like me back in that way
Hopefully the rest of the year will go better, it's just been really hard for me to even be happy lately

[my sweet piano]

I just want to sleep

[Requiem;]

Wow. I was just hit with a sudden and severe wave of depression. This is literally borderline crippling.
I feel like my entire body is being pulled down. I can hardly even stand up.
I don't even understand why, I had a pretty good night.

[CircleFox]

I woke up from a horrid and graphic dream at around 2:30am yesterday and I have been feeling extremely anxious ever since. When I woke up from it, I immediately contacted my best friend and told him about the whole thing. I thought I was very lucky that he was awake to comfort me, but it turned out that he didn't know what to do with the information I had given him. I've felt as if I have a huge hole in my heart that bleeds sorrow and sadness. I haven't told anybody but him and I'm afraid of telling my mom because I don't want my doctor to mess with my psych meds because they are working out great for once. So many things hurt and scare me, including my visual and auditory hallucinations, but I refuse to show it out of fear of looking weak and showing that I'm just as vulnerable as the rest of the world; I just really need some one to run to and have a shoulder to cry on. I'm only human; I can't always be strong. I sometimes envy the perseverance and humbleness that children with terminal illnesses have and I wish I could be that strong for other people and myself. I know it's awful to envy a dying child, but I really do. I don't envy that they're dying, I envy their strength, humbleness, courage, and hope.

I guess that's the end of my spill, my issue isn't as bad as everybody else's but I still just want to get it out somehow.

[Boxie]

I feel like some beast that lashes out and destroys everything little thing they touch has taken over my person completely. Its getting really hard to control said beast because my bouts of depressions are becoming more frequent and more severe and its even started to appear in my mania episodes. I am very much a control freak so the fact I can no longer control my emotions is practically eating me alive. It feels like I am drowning in an ocean of anxiety, anger, and sadness. And I can't stand oceans. I went to a doctor about it but they did nothing but give me prescription Benadryl despite telling them that I had no problems going to sleep since I am normally exhausted anyways. And it doesn't help that the person that I love most is breaking my heart without even realizing it. And it isn't even their fault and that makes me feel even worse. I am so mean to them. I really want someone to talk to but it feels like everyone has forgotten me because something more interesting came up. I don't know what to do anymore.

[cherubim]

why do I have to be such a freaking

ugh
No words in the English dictionary can describe
my absolute loathing I have for myself.
Nothing is right anymore. I was getting better!
Everything was looking up. And now... it's back
to the start.
I'm scared to ask for help, even if I really need it
I've been told I'm an attention seeker. I hope that
isn't true. I try so hard not to be that person.

I've given up on myself. I don't think I'm worthy
of help anymore. I try to help others, but I can't
even do that! I'm a disappointment. I don't want
pity, I just want genuine care and affection.
But I don't think I deserve it.

I don't know what to do anymore. My life is a
void. Again.
I know I need professional help. I just... I'm scared
to ask.

Please, I would love a hug right now. Anything,
even some reassuring words.

[breadstick]

Just give me a hug please...
Thanks, have a happy new year c:

//virtual hugs//
i really hope things improve for you, whatever is wrong, and happy New Year to you too <3

i feel like a failure...

why?

the brain is a cruel thing. you are not a failure, you can count on that now, because there is no such thing as failing. it can feel like it, and you're not alone on that thought, but it's nothing to worry about it. <3

Idk
It's just
Life hasn't been very good for me lately
And the fact that I have anxiety makes all of these things going on seem much worse to me
So my mom just recently got back together with her boyfriend who constantly abuses her mentally
Even though she said that she was done with him
I hate him so much tbh, I just wish that he'd leave me and my mom alone
Speaking of my mom, she keeps getting mad at me for constantly being stressed and lonely
I just wish she would understand what I'm going through right now
I also only happen to have one true friend, whom I also happen to have a crush on
And I'm pretty sure she doesn't even like me back in that way
Hopefully the rest of the year will go better, it's just been really hard for me to even be happy lately

have you tried talking to your mother about her boyfriend and try to confront him in some way...? that will be hard and I understand how you're feeling. about your friend: if they won't like you back, if you know that for a fact (but then, there is always a small chance <3) then there will always be someone else who will walk into your life later on that will make you even happier than the thought of being with your friend could ever have made you. best of luck <3

I just want to sleep

have you tried white noise? i appreciate that it doesn't always work for some people, but it can help to block out distractions and calm your mind. i have no doubt that you've tried counting your breaths, and such. It's difficult for me to understand this so it won't be top notch advice and I'm sorry about that. <3

Wow. I was just hit with a sudden and severe wave of depression. This is literally borderline crippling.
I feel like my entire body is being pulled down. I can hardly even stand up.
I don't even understand why, I had a pretty good night.

depression is a tricky thing. it can come in waves, in varying strengths. the thing to do is keep yourself busy, even if it isn't what you want to do and it's the exact opposite that you want to do, keep your mind occupied: draw, write, listen to music and hum to the beat. if it's daytime where you are and you are able to, try and go for a walk and take a few breaths of fresh air. that always helps for me ;v;

I woke up from a horrid and graphic dream at around 2:30am yesterday and I have been feeling extremely anxious ever since. When I woke up from it, I immediately contacted my best friend and told him about the whole thing. I thought I was very lucky that he was awake to comfort me, but it turned out that he didn't know what to do with the information I had given him. I've felt as if I have a huge hole in my heart that bleeds sorrow and sadness. I haven't told anybody but him and I'm afraid of telling my mom because I don't want my doctor to mess with my psych meds because they are working out great for once. So many things hurt and scare me, including my visual and auditory hallucinations, but I refuse to show it out of fear of looking weak and showing that I'm just as vulnerable as the rest of the world; I just really need some one to run to and have a shoulder to cry on. I'm only human; I can't always be strong. I sometimes envy the perseverance and humbleness that children with terminal illnesses have and I wish I could be that strong for other people and myself. I know it's awful to envy a dying child, but I really do. I don't envy that they're dying, I envy their strength, humbleness, courage, and hope.

I guess that's the end of my spill, my issue isn't as bad as everybody else's but I still just want to get it out somehow.

the most important thing to remember is that dreams are not real: they may shake you for a while, but they are only a figure of your imagination. it doesn't matter that your problem is less important than anyone else's: dreams are awful. although you could tell your mother, you could assure her that it's nothing that you want to take to the doctor, because the meds you're on right now are going great and you're improving. i wish the best for you ;u;

I feel like some beast that lashes out and destroys everything little thing they touch has taken over my person completely. Its getting really hard to control said beast because my bouts of depressions are becoming more frequent and more severe and its even started to appear in my mania episodes. I am very much a control freak so the fact I can no longer control my emotions is practically eating me alive. It feels like I am drowning in an ocean of anxiety, anger, and sadness. And I can't stand oceans. I went to a doctor about it but they did nothing but give me prescription Benadryl despite telling them that I had no problems going to sleep since I am normally exhausted anyways. And it doesn't help that the person that I love most is breaking my heart without even realizing it. And it isn't even their fault and that makes me feel even worse. I am so mean to them. I really want someone to talk to but it feels like everyone has forgotten me because something more interesting came up. I don't know what to do anymore.

nobody has forgotten you, for a start. people just don't realise how much they need you and appreciate you, even if something 'more interesting' has come up. if this medication is not working and they hadn't even prescribed the right thing, it would be a good idea to go back and talk to them again. you are not a beast, and just remember that this is only one small part in your life: you have a whole lifetime ahead of you and this will not last for the entirety of that. <3

why do I have to be such a freaking

ugh
No words in the English dictionary can describe
my absolute loathing I have for myself.
Nothing is right anymore. I was getting better!
Everything was looking up. And now... it's back
to the start.
I'm scared to ask for help, even if I really need it
I've been told I'm an attention seeker. I hope that
isn't true. I try so hard not to be that person.

I've given up on myself. I don't think I'm worthy
of help anymore. I try to help others, but I can't
even do that! I'm a disappointment. I don't want
pity, I just want genuine care and affection.
But I don't think I deserve it.

I don't know what to do anymore. My life is a
void. Again.
I know I need professional help. I just... I'm scared
to ask.

Please, I would love a hug right now. Anything,
even some reassuring words.

i understand what you're going through because self loathing is something that strikes me a lot. you are not an attention seeker for wanting to be treated like an equal, to be treated with genuine care and affection. you matter, don't ever forget that. my inbox is always open if you need a hug or anything else of the sorts. //hugs// <3 asking for professional help is the best course of action, and you will be seen as brave for asking for it, because you will have plucked up the courage to come forward and acknowledge that you think you need help. best of luck ;v; <3

[fika.]

hello everyone!

i will sadly not be around on the comfort corner today, as i have this long ten hour car trip today. but if you ever need to talk, you can always PM me and I will try to get back to you as quick as possible!

I hope you're doing okay, and good luck everyone <3

[amaoretto]

that's cool...
just been crying myself to sleep for the past 2 nights. no one can hear me... I lie. I tell everyone I'm fine. I'm not.

im just being washed over with a huge wave of forgotten memories. memories of me being last priority, or bring forgotten by my own mother... since the first and last born are more important than me.