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[houndoom]

can i stop existing for a few days

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oh snap, I forgot to go to the pharmacy to pick up the medicine I was supposed to start taking today
panicpanicpanic

[threezeum]

I just really wish I have at least ONE close friend.. one best friend that I can take selfies with, go out with, talk about boys and stuff with.. but I'm really that awkward fifth wheel in my group of friends. I'm starting high school in a new school the day after tomorrow,, and I'm so stressed out on making a good first impression and I'm really dreading talking to other kids and socializing.. but I know I have to make a friend or two or my high school life will be absolutely miserable.

on another note, I really wish I can just stop. I hate looking at food and instead of seeing just food, delicious and delectable, I see a bunch of numbers.. every bite of food I take is registered into my mind and a number. 60 calories, 80 calories.. I really don't know how to stop with it. I'm not starving myself anymore, and I've been trying really hard to eat the right amount of calories healthy for my age, build and height,, but the stress eating and emotional eating won't stop sometimes.

and I'm not really sure what's wrong with me lately. I've been crying more, and I really just want to run away from my life. away from this world, this earth, this whole galaxy,,,,, I want to just escape from reality and be able to live and laugh like other kids, not obsessing over how many calories I ate, how many I burned, how much the number reads on the scale, how I look,,,,, but I really can't..

and I binge watched 5 hours of 13 reasons why today.. ha..

[Valac]

Nervous because I'm starting a new school?? I've been to four schools in the past 3 years and haven't made a friend at one. With my anxiety more manageable i'm hoping this year will be my year.. guess we'll see ;w;

[acentric ♥]

i think my girlfriend is cheating on me
and i dont know what to do about it.

[breezey]

why is there, never a reason to answer
why is there, never a reason for you to be
why are you so confused and sad
how are you still feeling
where are we to live in a forbidding world
i’m hurt from people’s actions and it’s selfish i know
i don’t know what’s wrong with me
why is it me who feels this excruciating pain while people live their happy lives
am i cursed to feel nothing but anger and hurt
people may keep promises but there isn’t a way to stop them
if i was not here at the moment would life be never ending as it was yesterday, and the day before that too?

[Winstalgia]

I know she's doing what's best for me. But I feel like my Mom's making me do stuff I don't want to do and preventing me from doing what I want to do.

Last night I almost went off on her but once again I bottled up my anger and added it to more anger already stored in me. I even went to bed earlier than i usually do because I was mad, which is unusual. I do feel better now after sleeping. But I know that if I'm near her when I reach my boiling point I'm gonna go off on her for sure.

[zhongliswallettt]

i wish i could just forget what you did to me.
and her.
i had calmed down once i started to forget.
but i learned that you did the same thing to her.
now im furious.
i wont forgive you.

yeah, you may have texted me, "apologizing", but im not accepting it.
it was two damn years after you did the deed.
youre toxic and i wish to not know you any more.
just get out of my head.
leave me and my girlfriend alone.
i dont want to think about you.

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[lol]

i'm feeling really... torn up. i don't know why i do the things that i do and progressively think it's okay to act the way that i do. i wish i could wash myself away and stroke it upon a canvas like thinning water color. i just want to stop. i want a long hug that doesn't prolong moral ideals and consistent "are you okay's?". please,,, i just want a hug. i'm so, so, so alone and i feel like i can't trust anybody anymore
in short terms : i'm alone and i'm starting to break out again