TheComfortCorner | V.8

[molotov]

they said it would get easier. it’s not.
never in my life have i felt so hated
unwanted and alone, i am a pest here.
and the funniest part? i’m trying more
than i ever have to make a connection,
to make a friend. but it doesn’t matter.
nothing about me matters to anyone
here. - what i wouldn’t give to get at
least one smile, some sort of indication
that someone sees me, that someone
here cares about me. i want to matter.

[オオタチ]

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[sniper tf2]

hnnng I hate coming to this thread, but whatever, I have some pent up feelings that I need to let go of before I go crazy.

you know you're exhausting, right?
i know you don't mean to be the way you are, I know you mean well, but it's just... gotten sour over the past few weeks.
i love you, sincerely, I adore you and wish to spend all of my time with you. I love talking to you and every time I get something from you it makes my day. i don't say that just for show, my day is considerably worse without you.

you don't seem to feel the same way though.
at least, it doesn't seem like it.
I know you love me, at least, that's what you say to me. but sometimes I find it hard to believe.
apparently, we're in a relationship.
girlfriends, huh? how exciting. my first attempt at a relationship. even if I was hesitant, and I still am, you still managed to convince me to let you use that title.
seems like it wouldn't have mattered if I said yes or no though, because nothing changed.
even the things I hoped would change.
like, you know how most of the times, people say their relationship was ruined due to a lack of communication?
im afraid by the way things are going, we'll probably be like all of those people.
it was always fine at first, we were only friends after all. even if you were my only and best friend at the time, I still excused your absence, all of those days I find myself sharing things to the void, only for you to come back with 'back!' or just come back and act as if you hadn't been gone for 3 days.
then that's the last thing you send before you go missing for another three days.
it's an endless loop


ramble time.
a note to you.
you know who you are.

I feel so many things about you.
a big stew of feelings and emotions that bubbles in my brain and overfills my skull.
I hate how much I think about you.
how many times I go back to ig to try and scroll up through our old messages, in your old account, the ones from months ago you've already forgotten about.
but I haven't.
I always try to scroll all the way up to the top, so I can read all of those wonderful things we sent to each other all those years ago.
those wonderful stories and characters that I still hold oh so dear to my heart.
I never make it far, I get distracted and end up reading the things at the very bottom.
and in satisfied with that, even if I read the same thing just an hour earlier, and the hour before that, and the hour before that.
It never gets old when you genuinely enjoy the role that you were given and the story you managed to tell.

I just wrote two texts about you.
you just overwhelm me so much
I have so much to say
even when you sometimes fo so little.

I don't know how to word how much I miss you and how sick I am of waiting for you.
I'm so tired of editing for you all of the damn time.
when have I went away for multiple days without telling you anything?
when have I just disappeared abruptly only to not explain by sudden absence?
when have I not prioritized you over everything else?!
i love you.
you're always first.
im always there for you.
i always tell you when I'll leave for more than 20 minutes.
i'll always apologize if I take too long.
i always do what you want to do.

an I greedy for wanting that back?

[sillies]

i cant post anywhere anymore without getting harassed offsite. especially on cs linked discord servers. i dont feel safe on them anymore but there are some i like a lot and dont want to leave but is it worth the offsite stuff . . ..

[autumnsoundtrack]

Number 6 on the waitlist? More like number 'you're too late there's too many people ahead of you to get in now' on the waitlist. :c

Great. If I don't get this class, I have to go for another quarter.

[symbols]

Panicked. College has went downhill again.

[viles]

• wow, life sucks. i have no friends. i've tried talking to people, but they won't remember me. every time i join in the conversation, everyone just forgets i'm there. i'm eternally a third wheel, except for instead of third, i'm in the one hundred and seventy-seventh place. oh wait, no. billy bob joe, who's a HOBO OFF THE STREET AND NO ONE KNOWS made more of an impact with these people than me. of course, there's other people, but i don't fit in with them. they either don't like me, or we have nothing to talk about, or i'm just too damn awkward to fulfill one of my most basic necessities.
  you know, i'm so damn tired of being the weird girl with no friends who tries and tries and tries to click with people. i have nothing in life that i want right now besides to just talk to someone, and i can't even do that. i should just give up now.

[the folly of man]

i
hate
anxiety



why can't you just let me spend time with my family
or anyone for that matter
why can't you let me just help with chores and stuff
why??

[ufoparty]

jesus christ when do I shut up??
I won’t stop talking, I know nobody cares but I just won’t shut up.
I know they’re annoyed, I know I bother them.

[Wolfumus]

How could you do this to him. Everyone deserves to be happy and fall in love, and you took that from him. I want him to be happy. He isn't happy.