TheComfortCorner | V.7

[- ; bonk!]

so I guess things are over with my dad now.

[jellybutter]

i can't stand this anymore. i cant act happy anymore. i dont feel motivated to do anything anymore. so i have a friend group- consisting of five people, if you include me. we have all been friends since the fourth grade. im surprised we made it this long- second year of our friendship my closest friend, whom i shall call pitbull, had to send an email telling them that we need to stay together, since we were going to middle school. so there's this girl who came here just this year. we'll call her a for the simplicity and so i dont say her real name. anyways, a was an enthusiastic girl, but only in one of my classes, my third period class that alternates depending if it's an "A" day or a "B" day. but recently she's been sitting with us at lunch. she's swedish, and so is my other friend in our group, which we shall call r. well, they apparently have been bonding about their ethnicity kind of behind our backs, in the classes where we arent with them. so there was one day, the first day where a joined us for lunch because none of her friends were at school. nobody cared but me and pitbull. next thing you know, another girl in my group, f, says, "you know, you guys look so alike! you could be twins!" and that's what started all the drama. a and r both said, "really?" obviously convinced that this was true. since then, a had been sitting gradually with us more. it started when her friends were gone at lunch. then to when her friends were there, but she would come twice a week. then to not at all. and everything was great when she stopped. i felt myself again. but she came back. every day at lunch. then every day at recess and lunch. and i feel miserable. to this day she is still doing this stuff and im so depressed. making friends is fine. but she split our group up into three. everyone faces different ways. a and r talk to only eachother. f and n only talk to eachother, leaving me and pitbull to talk with eachother. it seems like only yesterday we were playing winkmurderer and telephone at lunch, laughing our butts off. now we all just talk seperately. and i want to leave this group with pitbull, since we both have the same views- but i dont want to leave my friends and hurt their feelings. she needs to quit her stupid acts, im sick of a's bullcrap. i just want everything to be normal. n, f, r, and a all live in their own fantasy worlds where everything is happy. but mine and pitbull's? grayed out, fading, and the remnants of good memories. please pm me if you are replying





to make it easier for you, here's the codes:
a - new girl taking over group
r - girl who is in our friend group, inviting 'a' into our group
f - girl who bonds with 'n', in our group, provoked the mess
n - girl who bonds with 'f', in our group
pitbull - close friend

[ELDER]

my god dude why must my sister be like this. what right does it give her to act all 'condescending' to me. she might be older but is it really necessary to make me feel like im lesser than her and everyone else. i honestly feel like she has something against me or is trying to bc she sees me as unlikable idk. but its odd since on some days she's chill with me and the next she tells me i have an "attitude" or like if i say something to her that might tick her off the slightest bit im on her "i dont like you right now so im just going to do petty things to you just to prove a point" list. for example, since our parents were out and we didnt have anything to make in the fridge, she offered to buy food online for my two other little sisters. well prior to this decision, i cant remember what i said but i said something to her that make her angry, so again, following this she offered to buy food. well, guess who wasn't getting anything.

anyway when the food came, i just sat on the couch just going on my phone trying to ignore them when all of a sudden she tries to offer me food. at this point i felt very very bitter. it really felt like she was trying to play with my emotions because i knew if i got up and tried to eat w/ them, she'd be like "so you are hungry -_- ?" and the way she says it just?? it just makes me feel so humiliated . i ended up not eating whatever they bought, i just waited for my parents.

and even today just about an hour ago- i was in the living room on my laptop at like 11:30 pm. because my sister doesnt have her own room she sleeps in the living room. anyway so im on my laptop and out of nowhere she just demands me to "go take your laptop and go upstairs" (where i sleep). ugh i cant even remember what happened but i said something along the lines of "wait, im still playing", but a few seconds after she just gets up, walks up to the light switch and turns it off, so the only source of light is my laptop screen. i start to get really ticked off because i mean are you serious? did she not hear what i had just said? i get up and turn on the light switch, and then she gives me a stern look and then starts to throw insults at me just to worsen the situation/bc she's angry at me for not doing what she wants. i kind of got really furious and said, "dude quit trying to boss me around" and im not even joking this is one of the things she said "this is why no one likes you at school". i just responded with "whatever" because i really didnt want to even talk to her anymore. and i guess the stupid thing is, is that she goes to a different high school than me.

idk if this really matters but shes a senior and i just feel as if she should be more mature because telling someone else that no one likes them is a pretty low thing to say to anyone. like i know i shouldnt even care but her words are still in my head and it really just hurts me even if im trying to ignore it. sorry for this unorganized confusing ramble i just needed to write something and it helped relieve some stress.

[deaf]

the world feels like garbage sometimes, though i know i should say "it gets better". i know sometimes it doesn't, and it's a coin toss in some scenarios. everyone here asks for love and it's rare to receive it.

i'm scared of what's happening. whoever gave me this mind should be fired for the error. i can't keep up, i can't stay current, and i can't compare. there's nothing i can dedicate my life to and nothing ever stays the way it is. things resurface and it's so difficult to deal with them, and they just kind of stick.

i'm sick of the encouragements i receive. they do nothing - no amount of "you can do it"s and "i believe in you"s will fix this. something is wrong and it's going to stay wrong.

[M0rute]

Any tips on how to go to sleep/stay up the entire night during school because of anxiety
I'm good with either just shoot me a pm

[griefowo]

Ergh . Didn’t like my post

[Monomares]

Small warning, my post mentions suicide. I do not go into details or anything serious but please be aware if you are sensitive to that kinda stuff, even if it is just a simple mention. If you are uncomfortable with this post, PM me to edit it or PM a mod to delete it, please, I'd hate to cause a stir.

I really don't know how to feel.

Apparently, someone from my school took their own life yesterday. I missed most of the announcement, but caught a name and heard the part about grief help. I assumed the worst, and just a few minutes ago my suspicions were confirmed. I didn't really know the guy, aside from seeing him in the halls, but I can feel the grief in the halls. Even though I can tell everyone is acting normal, I can assume they all feel it, too. I've always heard about this kinda stuff, and assumed that the hallways would be somber, with people crying and stuff, but it feels so normal, too normal. Someone took their own life, and the world doesn't even blink. It's scary to think that the world will continue without us, and eventually we will be forgotten.

Rest in Peace, Michael :( I never had the chance to know you, but I've heard great things about you. And I apologize if I spelled your name wrong :')
Edit: god, why do I feel so horrible? I never even knew the guy! I'm seriously on the verge of tears after my mom texted me a prayer to think. It's been a long time since I've felt like this. I need advice, if anyone could shoot me a pm I'd be grateful.

[Seasonal]

So im offically fat.

221 lbs at -removed-

I really dont know how to feel about this. I just want to crawl into a hole and never come out....

[kököchin]

is it weird i don't feel some emotions anymore? as life goes on -- my new, unwanted life -- i find that its easier to not care for others, besides the necessity of family members, who i truly love. relationships seem unwanted -- more like not needed. no one comforts me anymore and when they do i get angry ;; i don't know why.... i think they don't understand but what do i know? i don't know what they're going through ;; it used to be so hard to push away others but why is it all of a sudden so easy. why is it so easy to tell them i am not fine. and all the same no one believes in me. even though i have my parents they get more frustrated these days when i can't perform like they want me to do so ;; they say things like 'i don't care,' but i do ;;


responses are not necessary but know they would make my day and spread some light into my life ;; thank you all for being there for not just me but for others, especially when there are not others that can help me in my everyday life ;

[v1s10ns]

Small warning, my post mentions suicide. I do not go into details or anything serious but please be aware if you are sensitive to that kinda stuff, even if it is just a simple mention. If you are uncomfortable with this post, PM me to edit it or PM a mod to delete it, please, I'd hate to cause a stir.

I really don't know how to feel.

Apparently, someone from my school took their own life yesterday. I missed most of the announcement, but caught a name and heard the part about grief help. I assumed the worst, and just a few minutes ago my suspicions were confirmed. I didn't really know the guy, aside from seeing him in the halls, but I can feel the grief in the halls. Even though I can tell everyone is acting normal, I can assume they all feel it, too. I've always heard about this kinda stuff, and assumed that the hallways would be somber, with people crying and stuff, but it feels so normal, too normal. Someone took their own life, and the world doesn't even blink. It's scary to think that the world will continue without us, and eventually we will be forgotten.

Rest in Peace, Michael I never had the chance to know you, but I've heard great things about you. And I apologize if I spelled your name wrong :')
Edit: god, why do I feel so horrible? I never even knew the guy! I'm seriously on the verge of tears after my mom texted me a prayer to think. It's been a long time since I've felt like this. I need advice, if anyone could shoot me a pm I'd be grateful.

I know roght? It’s like nobody seems to notice. This happened in my school a few months ago. My heart goes out to you!