TheComfortCorner | V.8

[sinensys]

love being useless, really makes my day :)))))

[lutz]

Why am I so mean??! I need to learn how to express my bad feelings through something other than being cold and rude and awful. It’s so overwhelming to be surrounded by things that I can’t understand and people that don’t understand me. I’m too sensitive for my own good. I need to learn how to be nice to people that aren’t just the ones I feel especially drawn to. I wish there was a way to tell people how scared and upset I am all the time and I wish I could apologize for expressing all those bad feelings by being mean to them. I need to think before I say all those things that I say. It’s so hard not to rely on being mean. It’s so hard for me to realize what I’m doing and I want to learn how to stop but I don’t know how. I make so many people upset just because I have a brain that processes everything so differently. I really wish my brain wasn’t like this, but I can’t change it. I try to be nice but it’s so confusing and I never know if I come off the way I want to. I can only ever be nice for a little while, and then my stupid overwhelming sensitivity takes over and says “No!!!!! Bad!!!! The world is bad I don’t understand this so I am going to be a little IDIOT and be rude to everyone because I’m scared!!!!!!!!”. I wish I knew how to be kind and how to connect with other people. I want to be kind. Why am I like this??????!!!

[Requiem;]

I don't know how to be a functioning human. I don't know how to be consistent. I don't know how to maintain relationships. Heck, I don't know how to even be normal on my on birthday. Its no wonder I'm so depressed and isolated the only thing I'm good at is putting distance between me and the people I care about and I don't know how to stop.

I don't have it in me to be the person I want to be and it really shows. I can't even fake being a functional adult anymore.

My family is forced to pity me if it only means they won't be disappointed and I know they don't mean to but I know I've failed tham and I can't believe I have to put them through my never-ending problems because I can't seem to stop and I just want to not be a burden.

But I won't. And the cycle continues.

[Rocketsnail]

waves to Fink in appreciation, well said and kudos to such a beautiful retrospective, it's so good to read you can say you made it through, so others can grab on some hopeful ray of sunshine, i am glad for you

[troye]

and I’m back. I kinda hoped it wouldn’t come down to venting on this thread or even this website again because it’s almost...sad. the fact that I have to vent on a kids website about my life when I’m almost legally an adult.

I just feel absolutely pointless. Like a waste of space completely. My mom didn’t want me and I wish I wasn’t just handed to her anyway because she didn’t do anything to take care of me or prepare me for. anything.

I feel completely alone more often than not. my brain is so messed up and confusing and hard to keep up with that most people just don’t wanna deal with it or end up disliking me when the bad side of my mental illness comes out.

I don’t know how to drive, I’ve never had a real job which is obviously entirely my fault (I know that), and I have no money or preparation for anything. because I just assumed for the last four years I wouldn’t have to deal with it by now. being as vague as possible there.

And now I sound like I’m just swimming in my own self pity and I just. I don’t even know what else to say. I just had to vent.

[symbols]

Paranoia attack

[sleep token]

i feel like my bestie doesn’t want to be friends anymore and that makes me ———————————

[v1s10ns]

hell, just writing this makes me feel a lot better as a person and like I've actually grown and changed for the better. hooray for improvement!

i don't know you but from internet stranger to internet stranger, im proud of your progress! <3

[Bastiodon]

I can’t believe how the simplest things turn into arguments. I can’t take all of this stress anymore, the yelling and name calling. I just wanted a simple thing downloaded on my computer, I didn’t understand what the website was saying so I ask for help and of course it turns into this. I’m sorry that I cry so easily, I can’t take the arguing and screaming, I try to talk nicely I try to stay calm but nothing matters, once I start crying I’m all to blame, I’m a crybaby, I don’t deny that I cry too easily but ridiculing me for doing so? I don’t understand. I just want to have a normal life without this stress. I don’t want to talk to my family or ask them for help if it just turns into this. I can’t believe it.

[Sploosh]

I hate opening my phone and only seeing twitter and twitch notifications :c