|TheComfortCorner|

[seep5]

Sometimes, I do want Pity, cause I get none. Although, that's not excuse, No one really deserves Pity. I look at my life and Compare it to others, Though I know I shouldn't, How can you not? Sure, I've got food, a roof over my Head, seems great right? ..Not so much. I dont mean to complain, but, Here goes - My friends are at war with each other, Not just two, but, a few more. And I'm stuck in between. My brothers are always rude to me, Not nessarily in the way you think, They cuss, hit, and scream at me everyday, You may say "Oh that's how Brothers and Sisters always act!" Pfffffffh... Not from what I see. Sorry? >Just feeling abused Sorry< .. Next me and my Father dont really have a good relationship, and Its really awkward trying to talk to him sometimes. Also, My mom has a disease, as well as my only cousin that actually likes me. They are in Pain everyday and I see it and I can't do anything... Also, My mothers side of my Family hates me, My mom's mom {So my Grandmother}.. Doesn't even acknowledge that I exist. Sure, when she comes over {Like once every two years}, She'll hug me and everything. But ALL she talks about is her other Grandchildren. My other cousin, just because they do Football, and all this cool stuff. Its aggrivating, so I barely know my Mother's side of my family. And They know my younger cousin, Which she dresses exactly like me, copies my hair, etc. Its annoying. And When I'm with Them they will called me her name. >.<" Wt? Its annoying so My mothers side hates me, my friends are fighting, My parents have been fighting, I only enjoy school, Which is extremely hard to enjoy when The teachers hate you, and My family hates me, How fun.

Is there Hope..? For happiness..

*hugs*
smile there is always hope, focus on the bright things, get help, talk to your school counselor, you aren't alone ^^

at this point, i don't even know why i'm sad anymore.
i have pretty much no reason to be.

*hugs*
We are all sad sometimes for seemingly no reason, maybe try focusing on what makes you happy?
Happiness is not something you have it is something you decide. If you decide to focus on the things that make you happy or that inspire you, you will feel better c:

[oyakawa]

Sometimes, I do want Pity, cause I get none. Although, that's not excuse, No one really deserves Pity. I look at my life and Compare it to others, Though I know I shouldn't, How can you not? Sure, I've got food, a roof over my Head, seems great right? ..Not so much. I dont mean to complain, but, Here goes - My friends are at war with each other, Not just two, but, a few more. And I'm stuck in between. My brothers are always rude to me, Not nessarily in the way you think, They cuss, hit, and scream at me everyday, You may say "Oh that's how Brothers and Sisters always act!" Pfffffffh... Not from what I see. Sorry? >Just feeling abused Sorry< .. Next me and my Father dont really have a good relationship, and Its really awkward trying to talk to him sometimes. :| Also, My mom has a disease, as well as my only cousin that actually likes me. They are in Pain everyday and I see it and I can't do anything... Also, My mothers side of my Family hates me, My mom's mom {So my Grandmother}.. Doesn't even acknowledge that I exist. Sure, when she comes over {Like once every two years}, She'll hug me and everything. But ALL she talks about is her other Grandchildren. My other cousin, just because they do Football, and all this cool stuff. Its aggrivating, so I barely know my Mother's side of my family. And They know my younger cousin, Which she dresses exactly like me, copies my hair, etc. Its annoying. And When I'm with Them they will called me her name. >.<" Wt? Its annoying so My mothers side hates me, my friends are fighting, My parents have been fighting, I only enjoy school, Which is extremely hard to enjoy when The teachers hate you, and My family hates me, How fun. :|

Is there Hope..? For happiness..

*hugs*
smile there is always hope, focus on the bright things, get help, talk to your school counselor, you aren't alone ^^

Thanks c: *Hugs*

[c h r i s t m a s]

today i went to my conciler (i have to every week because of my past) i went down another 3 lbs... at this point before i was about to go into treatment my weight started to go down everyday. I cant do this anymore I dont want to eat anymore, at all. I barely have any emotion, im going back to my depression and I have really bad urges to hurt myself (and other stuff that i cant post) i just want to be gone.

[wicked;]

So much has happened in a year.

And to think, by tomorrow it will really be a year. Tomorrow is Pink Shirt day for my school. I'm usually so excited, so ready to see the bullies faces at the school assembly, but I don't think I'm excited anymore. I'm going to be seeing people who are bullies cheer to stop bullying, people who are bullied feel so worthless, and...I don't know.

It's just so much to put into one post. A one year story is too long..I really just want a hug right now. I've really turned into a complete different person. I hate it. I hate being so...insecure, and just different! I took a long look at myself today, and wondered what I could do to change myself again, but this time into something real.

Sighs...I know this is so confusing.

[sighcotic]

i'm not sure what to think anymore. i'm sad on the inside, for a reason not even i know why. i'm not even a sad person. sure, things have happened in my life but that's not what's throwing me down. it's something in the back of my mind that i can't put a finger on.

i can't control myself anymore, i can't tell myself to do the things i should, and that hurts me in the end. literally. there are things i can't talk about here.

this probably makes no sense at all, to be honest.

[seep5]

i'm not sure what to think anymore. i'm sad on the inside, for a reason not even i know why. i'm not even a sad person. sure, things have happened in my life but that's not what's throwing me down. it's something in the back of my mind that i can't put a finger on.

i can't control myself anymore, i can't tell myself to do the things i should, and that hurts me in the end. literally. there are things i can't talk about here.

this probably makes no sense at all, to be honest.

*hugs*
now PM me reckless. I can try to help, I really can c;

So much has happened in a year.

And to think, by tomorrow it will really be a year. Tomorrow is Pink Shirt day for my school. I'm usually so excited, so ready to see the bullies faces at the school assembly, but I don't think I'm excited anymore. I'm going to be seeing people who are bullies cheer to stop bullying, people who are bullied feel so worthless, and...I don't know.

It's just so much to put into one post. A one year story is too long..I really just want a hug right now. I've really turned into a complete different person. I hate it. I hate being so...insecure, and just different! I took a long look at myself today, and wondered what I could do to change myself again, but this time into something real.

Sighs...I know this is so confusing.

*hugs* *hugs* *hugs*
bullies often need just as much help as the people they bully, maybe try being their friend?

today i went to my conciler (i have to every week because of my past) i went down another 3 lbs... at this point before i was about to go into treatment my weight started to go down everyday. I cant do this anymore I dont want to eat anymore, at all. I barely have any emotion, im going back to my depression and I have really bad urges to hurt myself (and other stuff that i cant post) i just want to be gone.

*hugs*
Eat something and smile you still have so much life to live, don't waste it! Things go up and down you will find a light if you keep going c:
Focus on what you love, and on the small things for they are perfect and will amaze you.

[Lake Petal]

Life's horrible right now. I can't even describe the emotions I feel right now. One moment... Its so perfect. Next moment, I'm being provoked, annoyed...

I wish I could just.. Have a friend. Not a liar. Everyone is a lie. Pretty little lies...

[seep5]

Life's horrible right now. I can't even describe the emotions I feel right now. One moment... Its so perfect. Next moment, I'm being provoked, annoyed...

I wish I could just.. Have a friend. Not a liar. Everyone is a lie. Pretty little lies...

*hugs*
Focus on what is beautiful try to find the truth and what matters to you, the lies will only drag you down c:

[Lake Petal]

Life's horrible right now. I can't even describe the emotions I feel right now. One moment... Its so perfect. Next moment, I'm being provoked, annoyed...

I wish I could just.. Have a friend. Not a liar. Everyone is a lie. Pretty little lies...

*hugs*
Focus on what is beautiful try to find the truth and what matters to you, the lies will only drag you down c:

There is nothing beautiful. Everything is dark. Anything I valued before is lost in a void of something inhuman...

[seep5]

There is nothing beautiful. Everything is dark. Anything I valued before is lost in a void of something inhuman...

Oh, what about....
trees
flowers
music
art
youtube
technology
rain
blankets and pillows
toothbrushes
eyes
Chicken Smoothie
the universe
coffee and tea
food
colors
dreams....focus on those things....and maybe paint your wall