TheComfortCorner | V.8

[mars]

really wishing I was someone else right now. if any demons are out here looking to make a deal with a mortal, you know where to find me,,,,,,,,,,😬

I ended up breaking down in front of my mom yesterday and idt she could care less! it was just a big embarrassment and she's just ignored everything I've tried to tell her. she probably wouldn't even noticed if I disappeared since she loves my brother so much and dotes on him constantly, even forgets about me sometimes.

after that, my friends irl were no where to be found as usual. they only care abt me listening to their problems when they need a shoulder to cry on and ignore me when I actually need them. if I make it through this, I think I'm gonna just,,,,,,,,,wipe the slate clean. I'll find all new friends. I don't want any of them in my life anymore. get all new social medias and start over. maybe even delete my account here so no one can find me.

maybe I'll get lucky and just,,,,,wake up as a different person with no recollection of this body? that would be incredible. I wouldn't have to think about difficult things anymore. I hate being a person with no viable future and I would give everything to just start over again. I don't want to be me anymore.

[kxLJM]

absolutely nothing is going right, im trying to explain things to my partner and he just has this relaxed, “I don’t care” attitude about everything, i am so extremely stressed and it’s like he doesn’t notice or just doesn’t care. he won’t even listen to me, all I get is I knows or okay, like he isn’t even listening but is yet can hop on his game everyday and all night to talk to his friends
but ig they’re more important bc at this point it seems like a chore for him to even pay attention to or talk to me

i don’t need a reply, if you read this, cheers
my life feels like it’s falling apart

[zhongliswallettt]

some people really b like:

admitting that what you've done is wrong and getting over it, moving on and showing that you will become a better person: *nah*

trying to make yourself seem like the victim and keep trying to get attention even though you're the one who did the wrong: *lol yes*

okay this describes my current situation so well
i couldnt relate more

[겨울 꽃]

I’m so pissed off.

We’re moving and I haven’t seen the house until today, which is the day
before we move into it and I’m so mad and upset.

My mother literally pointed to the smallest room in the house and said it
was mine. It smells like fricken cat urine, its positioned at the front of the
house and the closet isn’t even a meter long length wise. Like what the
actual heck..

And she just expects me to accept and like it and gets all sensitive when I
tell her I don’t like it?

I hate her so much.

[Keir;]

i hate this. i hate seeing my mom so upset. i hate hearing about my parents fighting. i hate hearing my mom and aunt fight. i hate hearing about how my uncle never even talks to my mom unless he wants something. it's always money, everything in this family is about money anymore. and my mom is the only one who seems to care about anyone besides herself, so she's the only one upset and stressed by it. my aunt doesn't care if she doesn't have food for her and her kid, or if her water gets shut off. she just makes some guilt tripping comment like "i guess we won't have water this month, we'll just come shower with your hose." none of her three adult kids will help her - two just won't help their mom, and the other doesn't have a job so he can't. my mom has paid her water bill pretty much every month for the past couple years, and buys close to a hundred dollars in groceries for them almost every month too. a couple months ago my aunt even lied about how much money she had to get my mom to buy something for her. she said she only had 70 cents when she really had 5 dollars - enough to get what she wanted. and she makes us feel guilty whenever we go out to eat or anything, so we have to be really careful not to mention that around her. and my uncle is homeless now because he refuses to get a job, so he and his girlfriend keep asking my mom for money or a place to stay. he hasn't had a job in close to two years now, and he won't let his girlfriend work because he's so possessive of her. my mom has gave them hundreds of dollars in groceries before too and caught them up on rent and vehicle payments a couple of times. at one point his girlfriend was on our phone plan with a phone my mom bought her, because he refused to get her a phone. and lately my dad has just been asking for so much, he's already gotten two new tattoos, a bunch of stuff for his motorcycle, and whatever other stuff he's ordered online without even telling her - knowing that she's the one who budgets everything and keeps up with the bills. he's also started going to sports games now because he gets discounts from this website for veterans, but it's still expensive. apparently they got into and argument this morning before i was up about him spending way too much and not caring. and then she got into another argument with my aunt on the phone a bit ago since she keeps asking for stuff too, even when my mom has told her that she literally does not have any money to give her because she has bills to pay too, and she can't let hers slip to pay someone else's. plus this past week we've had unexpected vet bills come up, our dog had to go in the other day to get new eye drops, and he's going to have to go back in a few days because he's started biting and digging at himself to the point of ripping fur out. and at some point, he's going to have to get surgery done on his eyelids - the eye drops are only a temporary solution until we can afford that. he also needs to get neutered still too. plus we've been looking into getting my braces which i actually need - i have problems eating and my jaw pops a lot because my overbite is so bad - and insurance only pays up to 50%. and her health hasn't been the greatest lately either, so that's affecting her too - her knee and back pain are getting so bad that she can barely walk some days, and she has breathing problems that her inhaler doesn't seem to be helping with anymore, and her next doctors appointment isn't for another month and a half. she almost never cries, at least not in front of anyone anyway, i've only seen her cry a few times in my entire life, but she started crying as soon as she got off the phone with my aunt earlier. and then she got even more upset when i went and hugged her, because she said she shouldn't be crying in front of her own child. and of course our dog came and started licking her because he could tell she was upset, and she got upset that he was worried about her too. she says she feels like me and the animals are the only ones who care and are the only ones who aren't stressing her out all the time. *sighs*

[ĸιттιe]

he has a girlfriend
why did I let this happen...

[cribunni]

she spoke to me. she really did.
when i receive compliments from other people, i often don't believe them; i smile because they were sweet, but i internally tell myself they are wrong.

but damn when she does it. i'm telling you, one compliment uttered from her lips could keep me going for months. but i find myself doubting it, again. i'm not beautiful, like i wish i was. i hope she doesn't mind, i guess. though we're not even friends, so i don't know why she'd even care at all. it was a compliment. i need to get over myself.

[food ☕️]

I’m empty. I don’t feel anything.

I don’t know whether I love myself or hate myself. Whether I’m unmotivated or creative. Whether I’m lonely or content. What do I want, who I am. My thoughts aren’t coherent, I’m not thinking things through to get my points across as I’d like them to.

I keep reaching out to people, listening to inspirational songs, just hoping the pinch will wake me up. But I’m left feeling nothing; unsatisfied. I guess you could say I’m frustrated at the inability to feel, an ironic take, but even that is diluted at best.

At this rate, I wouldn’t even mind sadness, at least when I’m down I actually am somewhat inspired to create new ideas. The numbness is exhausting, the desire to feel anything again is a conquest that depletes my energy. It’s like nothing matters, but also does so intensely yet I can’t seem to do anything about it.

I’ve hit the wall so many times over I’m surprised I haven’t fractured my skull or dented my car. Walking in limbo is a strange place. Disoriented and fuzzy behind the eyes. Hopefully I find my way out, it’s not like I haven’t been here before.

[SolsticeTheBanana]

I should remove myself from everyone's life. I'm not worth their time and I cant help anyone. All I ever do is make things worse. I'm too unstable myself to help all my friends also struggling. No one around me is ok.

[FNAF]

I can't believe how absolutely disgusting some people are. To go out of your way to do something so horrible, something that you KNOW will have consequences, yet you still decide to do it anyway. Do some people just not think about other's feelings? Because it really seems that way. To do something so absolutely horrible, then still try to make yourself seem like the victim? Why can't you just realize what you did was wrong? Is it really that hard to apologize and get over it?
And to see people just blatantly support them. It makes me sick.