TheComfortCorner | V.9

[crabodile]

on sundays i work at a restaurant. its my only day, because they never need me anymore since they got their second busser. she has taken priority, i guess. anyways. yesterday my head was swimming so bad that i was afraid to sleep, so i called off - my only day, which means im down a paycheck. i should have waited until this morning. i'm up at 10am for gods sake. my second job doesnt start until the 20th, at the earliest, and i wont be able to get anyone presents. i'm supposed to be paid for all this training i am doing for the second job, too, but i dont know when i will get anything. being unable to buy what i planned makes me feel sad, because i am not really into birthdays. christmas is my big shebang, you know? its just nasty. i want to get everyone what i planned but i am just not sure. ugh.

[❦Acidic-Tea❦]

Why can’t we both be ok at the same time. Why can’t we just both be happy. I’ve been taking the fall for everyone for so many years. I’ve been unhappy, I’ve been disfunctional, I’ve had all the worst problems just so everyone else could be happy. They could look at me and say “at least I’m not as bad as that!” But the one time I want to be happy everyone comes crashing down. Fine I’ll just do what I’ve always done. Can’t even believe I wanted this year to be the last unhappy one. I should’ve known I don’t deserve it.

[iHolli]

i've cried way too much over how ai art is becoming more and more present.
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{hope it's okay to quote your post because wow am I feeling this. People keep insisting "AI will never replace real artists" and yet I'm sitting here watching exactly that happen in real time. I'm already regularly so depressed about my art and now this. What's the point? I genuinely never want to pick up the pen again. Our work is just taken for granted, stolen for someone to destroy in minutes, all so they can tell us our time and effort and love means nothing and is worth nothing and we "complain too much." I'm exhausted. As a kid I always wanted to draw and share my art because I thought it would make people happy. Now I wish I could tell her my parents and everyone else was right to tell her "you can't make it as an artist, you should do something else." It would've saved us so much pain.}

.Holli.

[×Seven of Nine×]

Nevermind. You're allowed to hurt me too. I was attempting to explain myself, but it's pointless.

I hurt you. I hurt everyone. I don't deserve to feel anything but pain.

[Soy Sauce]

all i wanted was an “i love you too” im so tired. Thats all i wanted to hear. All i want to hear is your voice.

[pandaa]

I feel so gross, and I’m stuck like this,,

[❦Acidic-Tea❦]

Why can’t we both be ok at the same time. Why can’t we just both be happy. I’ve been taking the fall for everyone for so many years. I’ve been unhappy, I’ve been disfunctional, I’ve had all the worst problems just so everyone else could be happy. They could look at me and say “at least I’m not as bad as that!” But the one time I want to be happy everyone comes crashing down. Fine I’ll just do what I’ve always done. Can’t even believe I wanted this year to be the last unhappy one. I should’ve known I don’t deserve it.

I just want you to love me but not because you didn’t get love. I don’t want you to love me because I’m here. I don’t want you to love me because you think no one else will. I want you to love me just to love me. Please

[kal!]

all in 1 post as to not spam

im overreacting. not replying does not mean he hates me. its fine.

man, im feeling so burnt out. i feel like the last school year was so much better. my friends, my art, my grades, everything. now i dont feel anything. i dont know why :( its really disappointing and upsetting to me. i’ve had such a large art block since summer and its so annoying. i want to draw but i cant i dont have anything to draw and it just really sucks :(( makes me so sad

[skylasha]

Had a panic attack. Called parent for help. Got yelled at and argued with before the person hung up on me. They texted me that I'm "Getting nothing for Christmas" and not coming over. Now I feel even more anxious and depressed.

[viles]

• it's as if he thinks that him loving me should be enough to make me love me too

  
  i just...ugh this is making me think of People i do not like it like,, idk HKSDJFH i just people that don't understand that my insecurities will not vanish just bc they say positive words about me make me so Frustrated,, i hav ebeen dealing with these issues my whole life,, they're not just gonna magically poof away when someone compliments me,, external validation can be helpful for some people and if that works for them great!! i'm really happy for them but also like idk i dont understand why they dont get it when it doesnt work for me,, i dont love myself and that's not gonna change any time soon and especially not bc A Totally Random Unnamed Person said they thought i was a nice person to be aorund
  
  also there's a situation going on and it still hasnt been dealt with and im v anxious and i just sdkjhdf my friend is saying its not a big deal but it feels like a big deal and im just,, aaaa i hate myself why do i ever do anything i shouldnt have caused this
  
  edit: the thing is still there and i just,, no one cares right??? but i care and i just jksdhsjhjfsh i need to sleep but i keep thinking about it im tryign to post to take my mind off of it but i keep reminding myself of it and i just,,, jshkjshfjkhs my brain is a mess i hope this is Dealt With:tm: soon