TheComfortCorner | V.7

[critter]

I am furious right now.

So I started thinking about my friend, lets call her M. M was a good replacement, I admit. M was only my friend to replace the ones I lost, and she was a good distraction. She did have her ups and downs.

But lets focus on the negative so I can get it out of my system.
She was a liar, drama queen, hypocrite, and self centered, spoiled rotten kid. She would dump her problems onto me endlessly and when I would try and confine in her about something that has been killing me, she tells me "Stop telling my that kind of stuff, it makes me worry and I don't like it." Dude, you dump allll of your problems on me on a daily basis. I called her out on that when it happened and she got quiet. She would constantly tell me to shut up and be quiet. She hated it when I would hang out with her when she was over at my house. She only ever wanted to do was watch her shows, use my stuff, call her ex, and mess with my stuff. I hate her.
She kept making me feel even worse on my worst days. She made my depressive episodes last longer. M loved to take my stuff and use them, she would pull the paper of my paper lanterns, she loved to wear my fox tail(after I told her is was very fragile and I didn't want anyone to wear it). She hated when I would tell her no, she would whine until I gave in. She made me really anxious whenever she was over(every weekend) and I wouldn't complaint about her because she was all I had. And it pisses me off because she made my life a living hell and I hated her guts. I have a friend that told me I shouldn't hang out with her and I really should have listened. Because of me being such a push over I let her do whatever she wanted. I hate it.

She tried to set me up with her friend and so we went trick-or-treating. Me, M, Her friend, and M's boyfriend. So were walked a few miles in the snow to get candy and we didn't get a lot, so we went home. On our way home, her and her boyfriend walked away from us and to her house where- ugh. I don't even want to talk about that.
It was so awkward with this girl because I didn't know her, and I already have social anxiety so it was terrible.
She was a terrible friend and there is so much more I could whine about but I wont because this last part take the absolute friggin' cake.


Before our friendship ended, she whined about her medication changes, her medical issues all the time, like she was fluanting them.
I was mad her for that but I wouldn't say anything, no. She doesn't even know about being diagnosed at age nine with clinical depression. She thinks her life was the worst and she wanted it all to end. She cried that "she was losing her friends" and was going to go mute. When she told me she was going to go mute I felt sick because I was mute in 7th grade for a short while. She then,
a few weeks later, out of the blue, make a huge group chat of all her friends and tells us off and says that were terrible and we should stop talk to her. Completely.

I hate her so so much.
I might break something.
ugh.

[♡Chocolate♡]

one friend. maybe- just one? im so lonely.

[diana prince]

my hyperhidrosis makes me feel more alone than anything in the world & it makes me worry because i don’t think my life will ever be normal & i don’t think any of my goals and dreams can happen and i wish somebody actually understood and knew what i went through .

[SarahAnimalLuvr]

Omg *bookmarks thread*
So I hate it when people do are you my twin challenges and their first question is DOGS OR CATS. BOTH, I REFUSE TO CHOOSE EITHER, THEY ARE BOTH AMAZING N Yeah thats why I never find my twin lol

[autumnsoundtrack]

I keep getting all these backwards compliments on my newly dyed hair and it's taking a toll on me mentally.

Why do I hate myself so much.

[skyline]

i really need to stop letting this bother me so much. i really wish it didn't but how
could it not? i guess it just makes me feel better to vent about it when it's bothering
me like it is right now. god i don't know what my issue is, i don't know why i'm treated..
oh yeah there's the word i've been looking for, unfairly. we have a group of friends, w/
about 7-8 people. this includes my friend from fourth grade. i'll call her A. just back in
may july even, we would talk to each other, have fun with it. talk about the stuff
we liked. from feb to june she'd invite me over every weekend. and it all of a sudden
dropped along with her interest in su. i get it man people change, but it's not that part
entirely, you don't wanna enjoy the show anymore? dude go right ahead i don't care.

just don't treat me less when i even bring it up in the slightest. i still enjoy it to the fullest
in fact i'm just as obsessed with it as ever. but the reason why i'm even bringing it up is
because it seemed to drop with me at the same time her interest in steven universe did.
this whole thing started around august. at least it got really bad around august. after the
release of splatoon 2 things went downhill because it kind of separated her from the show.
which resulted in her separating from me. as now when we're in a chat with even her and
my friend S, which i met through her, they tease me without any sensitiveness to it at all??
and i can tell you this for sure, it's not me being "sensitive" dude i enjoy rude jokes, i think
they're hilarious even when they're about me, just don't abuse them so much.

the only reason it's even bothering me is because they don't treat anyone else in the group
the way they treat me. it's like they're always serious about the overly rude stuff they say
it's not even a joke most of the time. they just pick on me, and not in a haha funny rude
way, it's almost like bullying in a sense. not that i'm overly sensitive to that either, i just
wish i could fully consider them friends instead of having to put on a mask whenever i talk
to them, actually mainly just A. as sort of this is what it's focused on. i'm sad to say she's
probably the main antagonist to all this. like i lay awake in bed at night thinking about this
constantly. and i wish it was simple enough to just tell them like "dude can you just like
stop being so rude to me and treat me like the human being with feelings i am? thanks."

the sad part is too i don't think they understand how much it bothers me, and like i said
i can't just go up and talk to them about it because it's just them i can't fully explain
it, and even if they did/do for that matter, they wouldn't care because once again, it's
them. overall i guess A herself takes everything too seriously, i mean god i get teased
for using a certain weapon in my damn squid game like i constantly want to say to
things she overly judges me about just dude why do you care it doesn't even matter?? like
who cares..?. but A will be A, and this hell will continue for however long i allow it to.
because things are just going to keep on getting worse as my personal experience proves.

i just wish i had a friend that i could invite over to my house, or that would invite me over
to their house, and we could talk about the stuff we like openly. kind of like how it USED
to be with A and i. a friend's shoulder i could cry on without feeling out of place or awkward
about it. which also reminds me of a friend i used to have that left me to go be a typical
14-17 year old school female. and do the unspeakable, just to forget you even exist, even
though you were friends with her for almost eight years. hahahaha but enough about her.
people who still have that over the age of 15 are very lucky, and should appreciate it. not
make the mistake to take it for granted like i did. now i'm without that, and hopefully one
day, i'll find a friend that i can start over with again. the friend i literally have dreams of
having.

i do have a friend though. a really really good friend. but she lives in a different state and
something happened, something in which her strict parents found out about, so now they
aren't even letting us talk anymore. so i have nobody to talk to at the moment. her parents
said they'd consider us talking in a month, and it's been about two weeks. so i suppose we'll
see how that goes. god i wish she could just move here. and her parents be a bit more
forgiving. so that i'd have someone to actually talk to through all this garbage. ugh what
happened to my life a year ago. i miss my friends so much. all of them

[sillies]

I really wish this pain would go away ya know

[Vixem]

I’m feeling kind of restless and fidgety today, I honestly don’t
know why. My anxiety and stress aren’t bad today, which I’m
really thankful for.

I’ve been playing with slime, stress balls, fidget spinners, rubix
cubes and I’ve been listening to music, going for walks, having
cool showers. Absolutely nothing is working.

This day feels like it’s been going on forever and I just want go
to sleep and pretend I don’t exist. I feel so hurt, I saw my ex
boyfriend post a photo on Instagram with his new girlfriend.

I want to cry so badly but I’m staying strong because I have work
tonight and my manager cannot give a damn about my personal
life. Also, a good find of mine, Hayes, is coming over to give me
some company and advice on coping with my trash life which is
really sweet.

[winged-backpack]

So it's mock exam week this week at school and I am dreading it. I know the content, im not worried about getting the grades or anything.

It's just I have misophonia which means that everyone in my year (and the year below) who have colds right now are going to make me want to rip my own face off. Literally the sound of people sniffling, or even breathing too loudly, makes me so angry that I can barely stop myself from trembling. I hate that I'm like this, but I've looked it up and there's basically no cure for it. I'm going to be trapped in rooms with these people for 2-2 1/2 hours at a time all week and it's going to take such a toll on my mental capacity...

I'm constantly on the verge of a mental breakdown from all this, to the point where I'm seriously considering getting a note from a doctor or a therapist so that I can do my summer exams in a room away from everyone else because it's so taxing on my mental health. Of course I'd actually have to get up the courage to go to a therapist before I could do that...

And to top it all off, the ceiling in the sixth form common room has leaked over my revision. Twice. I'm just so done and ready for this week to be over.

[Kisiel]

I'm on a mission to clean and organise my house a bit better this year and make it feel like my home again but it's just so difficult to do on my own. I wish my mum was here, she would know where to start