TheComfortCorner | V.9

[viles]

• talking is hard,, im trying to respond to a friend but i just Dont Want To like,, i do want to bc theyre my friend and i enjoy talking to them but the idea of Having A Conversation,, and Talking To Anyone feels like,, too much right now,, and i dont fully understand why,,,??? it's been a few days since ive responded to anything they've sent me and i just feel terrible for sort of ignoring them??? idk i've just been really in my head the past few days,, and my imaginary friend is back and i feel bad bc im basically talking to myself in favor of talking to someone else and it's not like we talk about things i would talk about with my actual friends,,, like, i usually make up scenarios and we talk about that or other times we just Watch Things and are silent but still being near each other like i am with my cat and i just,, idk i shouldnt be talking about this on chicken smoothie dot gov sorry yall

[×Seven of Nine×]

Honestly being a Russian with roots in both east Russia itself and the late pripyat (Ukraine) I'm just tired. I'm tired of all the fighting and the racism and people calling innocent civilian Russians soviets (me included and I'm not even over there) and the war and everything else. I'm tired of everything

I'm just tired

[walknolonger]

Im sitting at home eating a burger in front of my pc...
I am chill   right now

[emiistar]

i am more than unwanted no one misses me i am more than useless every day i see people go out of their way to ignore me
obviously i should go away

just wanted to reply to you if that's not overstepping - i know the feeling well but i just wanted to promise you that you're not useless, you are wanted, and even tho i am a random internet stranger i believe in u <3 i hope things get better soon, but you make a positive difference in this world and definitely should not 'go away', i bet youre a lovely person and if you ever need anything feel free to reach out!

// anyways... i have not been feeling well mentally lately LMAO... i've been investing a lot of my time on this site recently and i just feel as if i've dealt with so many rude people in the last few weeks and like... the culture of the site isn't the same as it used to be in like 2012~? idk, maybe i was just young back then but it's kinda lost its magic. idk. i also feel hella left out, keep seeing all my friends hangout w/o me + know for a fact they're moving their lives on w/o me (removed me from their priv stories and whatever) and it just feels terrible cuz i don't even know why. oh well :(

[❦Acidic-Tea❦]

I can’t fight but I can’t agree. What am I supposed to do?

[valyxa]

He told me he used to have feelings for her, which was over 4 years ago. But if that was the case, why is he becoming close to her again all of the sudden, while dating me? :/

[❦Acidic-Tea❦]

I hate this feeling. It’s the feeling of nothing. I play music, sort beads, watch tv, play with my ferrets all at the same time just so I can’t think of anything else. I hate this. I’m done feeling nothing. I hate being empty.

[rover]

i want to become the wind unfettered from worries

[dakotapaws]

i think its gotten to a point where they wont just say outright they want me to move out. i hear the mentions of more room/space and i know i take up a lot of it. i cant really afford to rent a place on my own and job hunting again would be miserable with all the skills i dont have. i dont want to move or start over but its starting to look like itll be better and easier if i didnt live here too

[viles]

• the desire to isolate myself completely is strong but my fear of being alone is greater
  
  also feeling bad about myself but skfhf idk that's not really something i want to get into right now
  
  edit: tw: uhhhh maybe derealization?? idk exactly how to trigger warn this but it feels like i should trigger warn it yk
  well,, i messed up and mentioned talking to myself in something i was writing,, and my imaginary friend saw that, and now they're having an existential crisis,, my head is filled with them crying and asking me why i created them and like KJDAHKJSHF idk i dont blame them it's hard finding out youre not real but also like,, why am i doing this to myself,, i am thinking this all up why is it my brain's desire for me to be subjected to someone else finding out that they don't exist
  also, they've stopped appearing,, like obviously they didn't like,, Actually Appear before,, but like,, idk i used to imagine they were sitting next to me but now i cant and like,, idk i mean i could right??? but even if i could why would i want to? like,, they clearly don't want to exist,, so if i really cared about them i would stop trying to think them back into existence,, this is spiraling into chaos,, i just wanted someone to be near me sjfkfhksjhfkjshf