TheComfortCorner | V.9

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[paevent]

I need advice, or some input of some kind.

This new girl my boyfriend has feelings for had such a hard life and said he’s her only way out of not losing anything anymore. I offered she could live with us and be our friend but she refuses. She has to have him and has to have me out of his life. He can’t even choose by himself. We had such amazing times together but he can’t even decide to choose me without thinking it’d be a mistake. I don’t want him to lose anything anymore and he’s going to lose a friend. I asked him if he would still talk to me if I moved onto someone else and he said no. So he’s losing a friend either way. Do I let him save her life? Or save our relationship? I’m being wronged either way and it hurts. She hates me and lied to me multiple times, and he can’t even decide if he wants me.

[iHolli]

{all I really wanted to do today was put on some favorite movies and draw. but even just the thought of drawing just reminds me that everyone does it better. it's effortless for everyone else. their stuff is loved endlessly by thousands of people. they can turn out whole pieces in no time at all. It takes me hours, sometimes days for the smallest things, and they barely get a couple of likes. "Just draw for yourself" doesn't make it hurt less. I try so hard only to be reminded that I'm a failure in yet another thing I should enjoy. I've hardly drawn for ages now.}
{I'm tired and sad and I have so many things I would like to do but just getting out of bed for the minimal daily effort is so hard. Just existing is exhausting. I wish I could feel better. I wish I didn't feel like a failure all the time.}
{and, of course, the ONE week I finally buy something for myself, there's no work and I'm going to end up short for bills after I was supposed to have a little extra. Another on my stack of failures. I am so tired.}
{worst time to be endlessly hungry. I don't want to eat at all. I've been physically struggling to do some things and I know it's because of my weight. I'm trying to get it off but it's hard now without the resources to go back to my good diet...I just want to be okay and feel okay for a little while. Why is that so much to ask...}

.Holli.

[shinx.]

sick and tired of everything atp

[×Seven of Nine×]

I'm fine.

[NightScape]

It's been a long year. I lost my job, but figured I'd just get another one. (I'm divorced, single parenting full time all along). Well, no jobs. I kept getting to the point I should find out, nothing. Anyhow, I found out recently that when I went back to my maiden name, unwittingly I went to a name of someone else in the town with a really really bad reputation. Now, I have to change my name. But, this time, it's to something completely different from anything. Plus, I'll have to change it at all prior work places, too. It's just a lot of stress, plus it' going to take months before everything is changed in a way that works (have to give job history, etc, or not get hired because of a working gap).

[.destiny]

it seems that i cannot, in fact, gaslight myself into being okay and i will only get worse from here

[Arrikanez]

I am stagnant and stagnating, and I hate it.
I feel like I'm incapable of doing anything worthwhile.

[Lanayru]

We all know why you're back. We all know what you did. You're a creep.

[Captain. A. Stark.]

i want a friend
i have so many but.. i just want a friend that'll care about me like i care about them
someone that'll make me look forward to going to school everyday
someone i can go get icecream with
someone who'll talk to me when they can
someone who wants to spend their weekends with me
someone who wants my comfort like i need theirs
someone who knows me inside out, everything
and someone who i don't have to pretend around

i just need someone who's genuine. my ex warned me about this; that if i got too wrapped up in my life online, i'd start missing my real life. he was right. when i was pursuing my interests on the internet and wasting time, my friends were out together, creating the relationships i only wish i had with people.

i feel so bogged down and depressed anytime i think about it because i don't want to admit it but man,, i'm really lonely.