TheComfortCorner | V.9

[cainhurst]

tw: war stuff

went to take a nap and woke up to news claiming that russian bombs fell in poland. nothing is confirmed yet and it supposedly took place very close to the ukrainian border, but. i'm terrified. and each day i grow a little more terrified of the simple fact that things could escalate at any given time. sure, if this is indeed true, it may have "just" been two stray bombs and two innocents dead this time. an accident. but maybe, someday, it won't be an accident. and maybe it won't be a regular old bomb. and it won't "only" be two casualties.

this world feels like it's going to hell and i'm finding it increasingly hard to love it. i'm going back to bed before my brain eats itself alive over this

[Sullivan Maurus]

I only exist when I'm a convenience.

[crabodile]

haircuts are hard for me.

i know. i know. im an adult and i cant even tell my stylist what i want to do with my hair.

i showed him pictures and its longer than i wanted by a longshot but maybe it would look similar if i styled it. and i tried. god knows i tried. but i just cant make it look good. its puffy. i hate the bangs (which i did not ask for). i look like my aunt. i dont like it. i dont like it.

im too much of a coward to go back and ask him to fix it, and this was literally all my money i spent on this ugly haircut. at this point i am going to take the scissors to my hair myself. a botched job would be better than whatever i have now.

it barely goes up into a pony. its that awkward stage between short and long. i hate it. its going to look awful at work when i put it up. it looks awful now.

people say it looks good but i genuinely dont care because i hate it. its not for them, anyway. this was supposed to make me feel good. i don't care what other people think of it just because they see it more than i will. my hair is how i express myself and this is not how i want to express. its making me genuinely dysmorphic.

i really dont want to walk around with this until i get paid. im going to cut it myself at this point. its more stress than i can handle right now.

[tricerahttps]

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[bubbaberriboo]

no one can replace you. trust me, i tried. as much as i hated it, i tried to find someone who even came close, but all it did was make me miss you more. it doesn’t feel the same. i haven’t gone a single day without worrying about you. no matter how much i tell myself that you are fine and better off without me, i just worry and miss you. it’s constant. everything reminds me of you. and i cry. i cry over the littlest things. everyone thinks i’ve moved on, but i am a liar. it’s been eating me alive

[paevent]

My eyes hurt.
He told me I was a replacement
He told me she’s a better fit

And now he’s saying we can work things out

No we can’t
He made that clear
After all the chances
And options I gave him

Can’t work things out..waited alll this time just for him to end it
This is my first break up

I want to get rid of everything
He has to make a huge change for me to even think about it

[Soy Sauce]

My aunt told me i dont do enough. That im not trying hard enough for her. Maybe my mom was right? Maybe im useless. She says shes glad i left. She told me i dont deserve to be loved. She told me no one could love me. I hate her. Shes the only person whos supposed to love me. Shes my mom. Shes not supposed like to say these things. Why am i not enough for her?

[❦Acidic-Tea❦]

I don’t know what I keep doing wrong but I hate that I know. I hate that I know you’re ignoring my messages. I hate that I know you’re mad at me. I hate that I know when you sideswipe my messages. I wish I could’ve stayed oblivious.

Edit cause I hate making two posts after eachother: I feel like I’m losing my best friend. We’ve been friends for six years and she means the world to me. She was there for me when no one else was and I know that sounds like “oh well blah blah everyone has someone like that” but it was different. She always knew when something wasn’t right and she was the first person to call me and tell me to stop being stupid. She’s stuck with me when no one else ever has. She’s sat through and endured the bpd fits and the anger issues and the depression. She’s been there for all of it. I trust her with my whole life and she knows everything about me. I used to know everything about her too. I don’t know why but I feel like we’ve been drifting apart. She’s been the light of my life for so long and she’s always stayed with me no matter what I did. We used to tell each other everything and we always used to talk for hours. Lately it’s a lucky day if we even say hi to each other during school. Whenever I confront her about how she hasn’t told me soemthing major she always says “I guess I just forgot to tell you” which hurts. A lot. I’m trying to stay involved and show her that I’m there but it feels like we’re walking in opposite directions. I really don’t want to lose her. She’s been with me my whole life. She’d come over every weekend, she’d pretend to like my exs cause I did, she’d hangout with me even though all her friends hated me, she’d stand up for me against anyone, she was my whole world. I don’t know what to do because I know I can’t stop her leaving but I really wish I could.

[mcr]

my little friend might not have much time left
it's making me so stressed it's the worst thing to watch happen right in front of you

[FNAF]

cried so hard i nearly threw up ‏‏‎ ‎‎I am so normal!!!!!
the Slightest hint of being abandoned makes me feel this way. im sorry you have to deal with me, im so sorry

i am so selfish and disgusting