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by cornspurrd. » Mon Jan 08, 2018 3:48 pm
I try so hard to help everybody
with whatever they need, And I always feel so
worthless because they never respond, And then
I just ruined their day I probably made them mad..
So Again I was talking to a friend trying to make
them feel better but I just made them mad and
they blocked me.
So I don't know what to do anymore
I just ruin everything.
If i ever bothered you.
I'm sorry.
On another note if you ever need
anything you can pm me, I'll answer pretty
fast And I try..
Smile and wave...
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by kakkyoin » Mon Jan 08, 2018 4:11 pm
I feel heavy.. I feel pressured.. I can't even stand up properly.. It hurts.. I feel useless.. I'm scared. The pain my eyes conflict on my body makes me feel helpless and want to pass out and wake up in a hospital. I feel lonely. I feel sad. I feel like the moon which nobody notices and goes to sleep when they see it instead of embracing it.. My red eyes glanced around the room as I heard people speak. I don't know why. But I fear the human eyes. They look weird.. And for some reason, I love writing these things.. It makes me feel better about my writing skills at some point.
Mood change. . .
Now my stomach hurts.. I'm hungry.. I don't want to get up.. I'll get up only to see someone scary standing in front of me.. Image It hurts.. I wanted to cry when I saw that.. I can't stop looking back.. The pain.. My eyes started to get watery and blurry. I have always feared that. Sometimes I hear noises in the dark, and when I'm alone I always look back. I don't want to sleep but it hurts.. All of the beds in the house are currently taken because my sister would not sleep in her bed room..
Mood change. . .
I just heard 2 sounds. I am crying now. Once again my body always decides to look back. The noise it wont stop. It keeps going. I'm scared. I want this to get out of my head. I have been to therapy before but it didnt work. My heart is beating its quick i cant stop typing i dont want to it makes me feel better but i have to i cant stop. I want to sob but I cant. I feel like something scary is about to pop up..
Mood change. . .
My body keeps looking back. I always have to insert my glasses in order to see what is there. I keep crying. I feel weak. I cant stop it hurts.. it really does.. My heart hurts.. I do not know if this is mental or insane but it just pops up. My back hurts. I try to bend it but my-- Oh. My. God. Someone just came in.
I like to draw.
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by Avisowl » Mon Jan 08, 2018 4:36 pm
WhiteVixen. wrote:Petty?
Jealous?
Both. You were being both.
You could've made yourself have a fun time, but you didnt.
You had to sit there in silence and watch everyone else have fun.
All the while staring at what they had. All of them taking breaks and being on brand new iphones and ipads.
Making yourself go into a state of gloominess and having the only other person out of the two you knew there constantly asking if you were okay.
Only to throw it off with a yes and laugh.
Truth was you were feeling a state of loneliness while taking in how you didnt have anything to make you 'cool'.
Also constantly asking yourself if the present was good enough since you didnt give her money/gift card or something nice(er). She did like it, but it still feels like my gift wasnt good enough.
It's not your fault your family is poor. It's not their fault either.
It still doesnt make it any better.
I wish we were rich. I wish I could have nice things that werent hand-me downs or used,etc.
You have to get into college and get a good financial job...but...
I'm just going to stop talking now...
Everything about life and it's expectations is crashing in..
Being a child will be over soon..
No more fun for me.
StarFish. wrote:I hate myself.
I hate Myself.
I really hate myself.
May you see sunshine where others see shadows, and opportunities where others see obstacles.
Zig Ziglar
We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope.
Martin Luther King
Once you choose hope, anything’s possible.
Christopher Reeve
Please remember you guys...there is a light at the end of the darkest hallway.
┏xxxxxxx┓
just
a
girl
who
thinks
she's
an
owl
┖xxxxxxx┚
┏xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx┓I'm a night owl, and
luckily my profession
supports that. The
best ideas come to
me in the dead of
night.xxx❄ ❄ ❄ ❄┖xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx┚
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by cribunni » Mon Jan 08, 2018 4:44 pm
sometimes.. I feel like such a jerk for asking for help. Like reaching for an outstretched hand instantly makes me a criminal. Everyone else does it. They ask me for help all of the time. And I’m happy to do it, happy to help. But sometimes I envy them. With what ease they take to asking for a shoulder to lean on. Or a hand to hold. It’s not that I’m too proud, no. I’ve never had the energy to be ‘proud’, not of myself or anything I’ve ever done. I’ve just always been the strong one, y’know? Everybody looks up to me in this way, and that seems to be the only way I can get people to believe in my at all. So to ask for help.. would be close to impossible for me. I’ve always been raised to be the strong one. To be independent and powerful. To NOT ask for help. And in this way I hate the way I was raised, because it carved this set of rules into my mind, a reminder that I, a ‘strong’ person, could never ask for help;
1. Keep your head up
2. Make jokes so they don’t ever question your happiness
3. Tell them you’re alright, even if you’re not
4. Detach yourself, so they don’t have a chance to see your weakness
I tell myself I should rid myself of this constant feeling of guilt when I so much as think to ask for help. It’s wrong... but.. I can’t. So, I guess I’ll just sit back, and smile.
“I’m fine”
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