TheComfortCorner | v.6

[cainhurst]

if i ask you not to touch me, and then duck away or flinch when you do it anyway, don't be mad at me
the fact that you're my parents really doesn't matter whatsoever, i just can't deal with physical contact today
stop saying you respect me as an adult if you ignore my wishes like not touching me or not constantly coming into my room anyway
it's not like i never want to be around you, i just can't deal with anyone right now

[bowiee]

haha don't you hate it when
you're laying in bed and your
brain says "hey, remember
that thing you did like five
years ago? that was really
stupid. you shouldn't have
done that. oh- and that
thing last month? you
should have kept quiet.
and now, we're going to
talk about all the things
you did wrong today." or
i can just be casually sitting
and doing nothing or whatever
aND THEN the same thing
happens. like, i'll be really
relaxed and bAM. sometimes
i can feel really guilty about
not studying all the time, and
it make want to put everything
down and aside to do that task.

or, or im having a conversation
with someone and i can be v
paranoid about myself, and it
goes alright and when it's done
there's something in the back of
my brain convincing me it went
horribly. why am i like this? ugh.

[seventh scripture]

I just did 60 crunches and 20 pull-ups and i still feel gross
i feel like i just can't loose weight .

[Korriander]

I just did 60 crunches and 20 pull-ups and i still feel gross
i feel like i just can't loose weight .

You can do so many more pull-ups than I can! You must workout a bunch!

Don't worry about losing weight. Having a low weight does not always equal being healthy. Obviously, you've been building some muscle, and muscle does weigh more than fat. Just focus on being healthy, and you will feel better. Sometimes it can be something you ate earlier in the day or even something hormonal that makes you feel gross. I'm sure that you are doing fine. You already are taking good steps by exercising!

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Restating this so that others can read it if they need help.

I just did 60 crunches and 20 pull-ups and i still feel gross
i feel like i just can't loose weight .

Losing weight doesn't come instantly. Keep at it and make sure your diet and exercise routine is optimal to what you want to improve. Doing some crunches for one day will not get rid of any weight from you. It takes time to lose it and it's not just exercise, either; a good balance of exercise, healthy food, and a schedule that absolutely minimises stress as much as possible is key to a healthy body.

It will take time, and is a gradual process, but if you stick to it and stay determined you will eventually be able to do it. Exercising for one morning isn't going to magically remove everything extra that you don't like, you need to stick to your routine and keep your chin up and battle through it. There are so many better ways to go about it. Feel that ache after a heavy workout? Rest, cool off, get some sleep. Your body needs time to recover and after each ache and each workout, you will eventually notice change. It won't be noticeable until you persevere and kick life's arse and get yourself into a good place with work and courage, and look back on that when you feel satisfied with what you've made for yourself. This kind of thing doesn't happen overnight.

[diana prince]

nobody cares about me at all. nobody. they say that they do and they dont. they stab me in the back. they ALL do. they all leave. what did i ever do? TELL ME WHAT THE HELL I DID IM DONE PLAYING YOUR GAMES. i just want one person,, one person who favors me more than anyone in the world.. but why would they care about me. its only me. i only have myself to rely on and that has to be enough but it's not. i cant take this anymore

dont pm me telling me you care, because lets be honest. you just found my post and you think you could help me. you cant and you really dont care. so just stay away.

[seventh scripture]

Restating this so that others can read it if they need help.

I just did 60 crunches and 20 pull-ups and i still feel gross
i feel like i just can't loose weight .

Losing weight doesn't come instantly. Keep at it and make sure your diet and exercise routine is optimal to what you want to improve. Doing some crunches for one day will not get rid of any weight from you. It takes time to lose it and it's not just exercise, either; a good balance of exercise, healthy food, and a schedule that absolutely minimises stress as much as possible is key to a healthy body.

It will take time, and is a gradual process, but if you stick to it and stay determined you will eventually be able to do it. Exercising for one morning isn't going to magically remove everything extra that you don't like, you need to stick to your routine and keep your chin up and battle through it. There are so many better ways to go about it. Feel that ache after a heavy workout? Rest, cool off, get some sleep. Your body needs time to recover and after each ache and each workout, you will eventually notice change. It won't be noticeable until you persevere and kick life's arse and get yourself into a good place with work and courage, and look back on that when you feel satisfied with what you've made for yourself. This kind of thing doesn't happen overnight.

thank you so much. This made me smile. I've been doing this routine for about a month now, 2 months ago I did Track (getting back into it this spring) and in a few days i'm going Snowboarding, so i'm happy to become more active. I've been jump roping a lot recently which is the best cardio exercise (I can do 800, though I stop and rest every 100 I do) I'm determined and I won't stop till i'm finally happy and I can look in the mirror and smile (:

[Planet Karma]

Sick. As. A. Dog.

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thank you so much. This made me smile. I've been doing this routine for about a month now, 2 months ago I did Track (getting back into it this spring) and in a few days i'm going Snowboarding, so i'm happy to become more active. I've been jump roping a lot recently which is the best cardio exercise (I can do 800, though I stop and rest every 100 I do) I'm determined and I won't stop till i'm finally happy and I can look in the mirror and smile (:

I hope it did! It sounds like a decent routine, and variety always helps to challenge yourself and your body. If you carry it on, you'll notice definite differences within around a year or two if you really go for it. I believe in you!

Sick. As. A. Dog.

Saaame. I think a lot of us have been struggling with that kind of thing right now. Best thing to do is get off your technology (barring your phone for this if you've not got a radio or anything of the like) and throwing on some music to listen to- or TV for the background noise- and just trying to sleep it off. Don't push yourself to do anything until you feel like you can, and take the recovery in small steps. Plenty of water and hot drinks, an equal dose of warmth and fresh air (helps to have hot waterbottles or something in bed whilst having the window wide open, depending on if you've got pets prone to jumping out), and plain but healthy food that isn't going to disturb or worsen your system. There are plenty of other things that I probably can't remember now, but the key is just to rest.

[caf.]

i'm just venting, i don't know.
sorry for posting here so much, it's just a really, really bad time of year for me.
more and more today i just feel like literal garbage - emotionally and physically. everything about today just feels so...fuzzy. dull. i honestly almost blacked out earlier because getting out of bed after lying there for 4+ hours in the middle of the day was too much for my body. i've just had such a depression day and it honestly, absolutely sucks.
i've gotten very close with an internet buddy, and i couldn't be more grateful for him if i tried. even though we haven't known each other for very long, he's been through much the same things i have, been hurt by similar people, suffers from similar disorders. we talk every day, share photos, it's nice. and yet, as with everyone else, the conversations are getting shorter. enough to make me miss him even though he's done nothing to imply that he doesn't want to be around me anymore. i know he still loves me, he's as enthusiastic and affectionate as ever, but no matter how hard i try to get into one of the long, sleepy middle-of-the night conversations we used to have he never wants to engage me, it seems. it's hard - i keep wanting to tell him things but even though i know better my mind keeps telling me he doesn't need or want me - nor does anyone. this is so stupid, we met less than four months ago and it's the holidays and he's probably just busy, i'm just so overly attached and desperate for love i latch on to anyone who will give it to me. i just don't understand anymore.
it really doesn't help that it's the anniversary of one of my more traumatizing life events. i kinda feel sick to my stomach, honestly. lately i've been feeling like such a burden and a blemish on everyone around me. i keep trying to tell myself that's not true, but that's a difficult concept at this point. my parents don't want me to be happy, they just want me to be successful. my irl best friend is starting to keep things from me because she doesn't think i can handle it in my state. one of the people i thought i could trust turned out to be incredibly toxic and hurtful. my specialty group doesn't actually like me as a person, they just think i'm talented. i'm a robot to them, a singing, dancing robot. realistically, the only person who i feel like actually likes me for who i am is, well, the person i mentioned above. he's the only one i've trusted to date with everything that's going on. but even he has so many people he probably likes better than me, so many other friends to fall back on. i don't have anyone else.
it's 12:07 AM, i'm probably getting sick because my mother is. i just can't go to sleep, not feeling like this. there's such a knot in my stomach, the same knot that's been there since last christmas. i've been recovering lately, really, honestly processing all that's happened to me and finally starting to let it go and move on. i hate feeling like i'm stepping right back to where i was.
i always say i'm a serial homebody, that i'd never move, but that's not true. i ache to run away and never stop. i just know if i did i'd never, ever come back.

as if things weren't bad enough :^)
had an absolutely awful ride today that's making me wonder if i'm really cut out to be working with horses at all. my mental illness makes me such a volatile and unpredictable person...i don't even know if i'm even meant to be around people, at this point.
i thought sleeping would make it better but i didn't sleep at all. at this point i don't know how else to escape how everything's affecting me so fully and so violently right now.