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[Jessuki]

epilepsy hurts.
i don't like it.
i've been facing memory loss, and i hate it. i hate it so much :c
i was hanging out with my best friend. we had an amazing day, and he was so kind to me when i had headaches and sleepiness.
however, now that i'm laying in my bed with my laptop typing this i'm having a bit of trouble remembering the good times i've had with my best friend a few days ago, and i'm even beginning to forget what happened this morning.

it's so frustrating!

i stopped texting my best friend an hour ago, although i can tell he's worried, i just don't want to talk about what a fun day we've had together when i can't even remember some parts of it.
i don't know what to do, i don't want to let anybody else suffer from my epilepsy. my period of depression will eventually be bothersome to my family, my friends.. i just know it.

my mom got me this journal, a diary i guess. so i can write down every single thing that has happened in case i forget. it'll be helpful, but it'll also be tiresome for me since i have to write every little thing down.. at least it'll help me ;_; my mom has been so kind, so helpful which i'm so grateful about considering my dad passed away a month ago. its probably not even epilepsy that causes my memory loss, but the meds i take. :c

sometimes things just vanish from my brain - poof! - and i won't even realize it until something comes up, like if my mom asks me about it and i just then realize that i don't remember.

i feel so bad. i'm sorry. i just needed to vent, to let someone else hear what i've been feeling about this.

[BlingBling]

I just realized something... There's only one person who ever talks to me anymore on this site. I remember when I had 20+ friends to lean on and chat with, and that really helped my confidence and social skills. But now, I can hardly reply to pms out of fear I might say something idiotic. What I'm trying to rant about is just that nostalgia really stinks sometimes, you know? ;n;

[۵Ʋиιтʏ۵]

Thanks for the support guys.
It's just, he's the nicest person I've ever met. I know I've done something to hurt him, I just can't figure out what. He didn't really say what I had done earlier.

I should've known something was up when his friends were giving me looks and stopped talking to me, when he distanced himself from me

But I was too concerned with my own feelings that I didn't bother to pay attention to his

He really is right. I'm a selfish person

I'm so confused

Your not Selfish it wasn't your fault that you didn't know anything was wrong and sometimes its hard to understand a situation but that is not your fault its perfectly natural and he should have told you something was wrong as a relationships depends on communication I'm sure he will regret what he said and perhaps start talking again once he has calmed down

[fish sticks]

epilepsy hurts.
i don't like it.
i've been facing memory loss, and i hate it. i hate it so much :c
i was hanging out with my best friend. we had an amazing day, and he was so kind to me when i had headaches and sleepiness.
however, now that i'm laying in my bed with my laptop typing this i'm having a bit of trouble remembering the good times i've had with my best friend a few days ago, and i'm even beginning to forget what happened this morning.

it's so frustrating!

i stopped texting my best friend an hour ago, although i can tell he's worried, i just don't want to talk about what a fun day we've had together when i can't even remember some parts of it.
i don't know what to do, i don't want to let anybody else suffer from my epilepsy. my period of depression will eventually be bothersome to my family, my friends.. i just know it.

my mom got me this journal, a diary i guess. so i can write down every single thing that has happened in case i forget. it'll be helpful, but it'll also be tiresome for me since i have to write every little thing down.. at least it'll help me ;_; my mom has been so kind, so helpful which i'm so grateful about considering my dad passed away a month ago. its probably not even epilepsy that causes my memory loss, but the meds i take. :c

i feel so bad. i'm sorry. i just needed to vent, to let someone else hear what i've been feeling about this.

I can't really say I understand fully since I don't have epilepsy, but I can understand partly. I have pretty bad memory due to some problems I have, and I know it can be tough. My parents get made because I lose everything. I don't lose it technically I just put it down and forget where I put it. It's hard forgetting things, I know. And if you don't like the idea of writing it down then try and use Google Docs, that's where I type my journal. And about your friend, try talking to them. It's not going to help to avoid people who can probably talk to you about it. *hugs*

[fish sticks]

I just realized something... There's only one person who ever talks to me anymore on this site. I remember when I had 20+ friends to lean on and chat with, and that really helped my confidence and social skills. But now, I can hardly reply to pms out of fear I might say something idiotic. What I'm trying to rant about is just that nostalgia really stinks sometimes, you know? ;n;

I hate to double post, but it's for helping people. As you get older, not many friends stay. Either they change or you change, which is okay. When it comes down to it, maybe having one friend is better, and you'll get more as you go through life. If you ever need help with anything at all, pm me. Don't worry about messing up or anything, I'm usually saying something stupid a lot of times. I'll even be your friend. *hugs*

[Jessuki]

epilepsy hurts.
i don't like it.
i've been facing memory loss, and i hate it. i hate it so much :c
i was hanging out with my best friend. we had an amazing day, and he was so kind to me when i had headaches and sleepiness.
however, now that i'm laying in my bed with my laptop typing this i'm having a bit of trouble remembering the good times i've had with my best friend a few days ago, and i'm even beginning to forget what happened this morning.

it's so frustrating!

i stopped texting my best friend an hour ago, although i can tell he's worried, i just don't want to talk about what a fun day we've had together when i can't even remember some parts of it.
i don't know what to do, i don't want to let anybody else suffer from my epilepsy. my period of depression will eventually be bothersome to my family, my friends.. i just know it.

my mom got me this journal, a diary i guess. so i can write down every single thing that has happened in case i forget. it'll be helpful, but it'll also be tiresome for me since i have to write every little thing down.. at least it'll help me ;_; my mom has been so kind, so helpful which i'm so grateful about considering my dad passed away a month ago. its probably not even epilepsy that causes my memory loss, but the meds i take. :c

i feel so bad. i'm sorry. i just needed to vent, to let someone else hear what i've been feeling about this.

I can't really say I understand fully since I don't have epilepsy, but I can understand partly. I have pretty bad memory due to some problems I have, and I know it can be tough. My parents get made because I lose everything. I don't lose it technically I just put it down and forget where I put it. It's hard forgetting things, I know. And if you don't like the idea of writing it down then try and use Google Docs, that's where I type my journal. And about your friend, try talking to them. It's not going to help to avoid people who can probably talk to you about it. *hugs*

thank you, that helped a lot. yeah, i think google docs would be a good idea unless i forget my password or something but i'll try it <3

thank you, for helping me. this made me feel better. i'll try to talk to him, but this whole situation makes me feel emotional so i hope not to cry in front of him, although i know he would just comfort me and not care about the fact that i was crying. i just don't want to drag him into this if he doesn't want to.. i feel so horrible and selfish knowing that everybody around me is focusing on me to make me get better. what if i never do? ;^; they're all trying to help me remember things, i just feel bad..
ha, i feel so selfish. i'm sorry.

[fish sticks]

epilepsy hurts.
i don't like it.
i've been facing memory loss, and i hate it. i hate it so much :c
i was hanging out with my best friend. we had an amazing day, and he was so kind to me when i had headaches and sleepiness.
however, now that i'm laying in my bed with my laptop typing this i'm having a bit of trouble remembering the good times i've had with my best friend a few days ago, and i'm even beginning to forget what happened this morning.

it's so frustrating!

i stopped texting my best friend an hour ago, although i can tell he's worried, i just don't want to talk about what a fun day we've had together when i can't even remember some parts of it.
i don't know what to do, i don't want to let anybody else suffer from my epilepsy. my period of depression will eventually be bothersome to my family, my friends.. i just know it.

my mom got me this journal, a diary i guess. so i can write down every single thing that has happened in case i forget. it'll be helpful, but it'll also be tiresome for me since i have to write every little thing down.. at least it'll help me ;_; my mom has been so kind, so helpful which i'm so grateful about considering my dad passed away a month ago. its probably not even epilepsy that causes my memory loss, but the meds i take. :c

i feel so bad. i'm sorry. i just needed to vent, to let someone else hear what i've been feeling about this.

I can't really say I understand fully since I don't have epilepsy, but I can understand partly. I have pretty bad memory due to some problems I have, and I know it can be tough. My parents get made because I lose everything. I don't lose it technically I just put it down and forget where I put it. It's hard forgetting things, I know. And if you don't like the idea of writing it down then try and use Google Docs, that's where I type my journal. And about your friend, try talking to them. It's not going to help to avoid people who can probably talk to you about it. *hugs*

thank you, that helped a lot. yeah, i think google docs would be a good idea unless i forget my password or something but i'll try it <3

thank you, for helping me. this made me feel better. i'll try to talk to him, but this whole situation makes me feel emotional so i hope not to cry in front of him, although i know he would just comfort me and not care about the fact that i was crying. i just don't want to drag him into this if he doesn't want to.. i feel so horrible and selfish knowing that everybody around me is focusing on me to make me get better. what if i never do? ;^; they're all trying to help me remember things, i just feel bad..
ha, i feel so selfish. i'm sorry.

I'm glad I can help. and maybe you could write the password and username on a notecard? You can tape the notecard somewhere you visit everyday. Like a bathroom mirror or the door to you room. I usually do that when I need to remember to take something with me somewhere.

You should never have to face something alone. Having your friend there would help in my opinion since facing something alone can be scary. If friends are there to help you, then you'll never have to face the troubles of being alone. Who knows, you could even remember things. Even if you don't, I'm sure you friends will be there to support you, and I'll be supporting you as well.

[iaan]

I don't want you to leave again
Why do you have to go back? Why can't you stay??
I'm going to miss you so much, I'm already crying and you haven't even left
this is the first time I've seen you in two years - and before that I hadn't even met you
but I imagined you as a hero - fighting for our county on the battlefield
Please don't leave again

[۵Ʋиιтʏ۵]

I don't want you to leave again
Why do you have to go back? Why can't you stay??
I'm going to miss you so much, I'm already crying and you haven't even left
this is the first time I've seen you in two years - and before that I hadn't even met you
but I imagined you as a hero - fighting for our county on the battlefield
Please don't leave again

I know it can be hard to part with a loved one but even if they are not with you they are still with you in your heart and mind and that is what is important you hold there story within you and that is more than they could ever ask and they would never want to see you like this try to stay strong for them because they do love you and always will no matter what happens sso keep smiling for them to make them proud and don't give up on them its the least they could ever ask for your a fantastic and amazing individual and you deserve the wolrrd truly and if you would like to talk about it my pm box is always open I hope this helps *hugs*

[*-Ari-*]

I just realized something... There's only one person who ever talks to me anymore on this site. I remember when I had 20+ friends to lean on and chat with, and that really helped my confidence and social skills. But now, I can hardly reply to pms out of fear I might say something idiotic. What I'm trying to rant about is just that nostalgia really stinks sometimes, you know? ;n;

whatever you say IS right. Dont worry if you say something wrong... belive in what you say... and.. if you EVER need ANYONE to talk to, PM me. If you need anything.. really... tell me