I'm getting spinal surgery on August 8th to fix my scoliosis. I cant tell if I am nervous about it or my mind is just covering it up and ignoring the fact that my skin and muscles are going to be ripped away from my spine, the facet joints an spinous processes will be cut out, screws be drilled into the vertebrae, and metal rods attached to the screws. I feel indifferent about it, like it's in the future. My mind doesn't actually realize it's only a month away. It doesn't help that one of my close friends literally rolls her eyes and scoffs at me whenever i try to talk about it. like im sorry, im only having spinal surgery. Im sorry that i took 1 minute of your precious time to talk about a scary event that's going to happen to me. No, we can only talk about you and what you are going through. I'm tired of burning myself out on people who don't care about me and don't put any effort into being my friend.
sorry I know i probably sound like a total wuss. i'm sure lots of people have worse problems than me.
I realize i brought up 2 different things, sorry if it's hard to understand