Dear Dad,
I just can't f*cking do this anymore. Our lives revolve around him. Even tonight you said, "Heidi said that 5:30 is too early for dinner for Max, so we're going to eat a lot later, so he can get his way," even after I told you I was starving. Instances like this have happened SO many times before. I miss it when it was just you, me, and Caden. Our own little family, playing by our own rules. Watching Simpsons every night, you and I watching horror movies when we were alone, but all that changed once you got married, and we moved in with them. Now EVERYTHING has to be about Max.
And, most of all, you used to actually be happy back then. We were ALWAYS laughing, smiling, creating and remembering memories that we created, just the three of us. We didn't need their help. Now you're always stressed, angry, mad, about something, and it is 99% of the time about Max. I f*cking miss the old you. Out of everything, that is what I miss the most, you have changed, and it sucks crap.
I could f*cking go on for HOURS. But you know what?! I'm just so pissed of and fed up with all of it, with everything right now, I don't know what to do. You have no idea what this whole situation has put me through. Only Heather knows everything, and what I almost did to myself.
I know you're never going to read this, but if you do, I was going to kill myself. I was that close. Heather saved me, she is the one thing that is keeping me well right now. You have no idea how much this has made me hate my life. You say that I look like I've been pissed off and depressed lately? Hmm, I wonder why.
♥niall horan is the definition of perfection♥
❤ "Being single doesn't mean you're weak. It means you're strong enough to wait for what you deserve."
❤ "The fans always tell me I'm beautiful but no one will ever be as beautiful as them."
❤ "I'm the kind of boy who would fall in love with any girl because I love with the heart, not the eyes."
❤ "I'd rather play with paper airplanes and be called a boy than play with a woman's heart and be called a man."
