Εschaton wrote:he doesn't listen.. any time I even try talking to him he turns everything into my fault
and I don't even have a room to myself. I share a room with my brother, and it's basically a "living room" anyway, so everyone uses it every day...
- are you able to stay with a friend for a weekend?
maybe just for a get away/break?
good luck <3
.normal.human. wrote:So a while back my guyfriend told me that he liked me, but I didn't really share the feelings.
Even though I didn't share the feelings I was still happy to be able to tell myself that someone liked me. Whenever I was feeling down I could tell myself that someone actually like-liked me.
Then, on our school trip, he spills his guts to me talking about how he was depressed and stuff like that. Then (I don't remember word for word but it was) "I said that I liked you to help get out of my depression, and I am really happy that I did because we became really good friends and you helped me out of my depression" (That very night he confessed his love to my friend and we stopped hanging out)
But I was totally angry, in my mind he just said "I didn't actually like you, I just said that so we could become friends and I could get out of my depression." And after we don't hang out. He just used me for his own purposes then didn't even interact after I had "fulfilled my use." It made me want to cry. Was that what I was to him? A tool to get out of depression?
So today at my school we played this dumb game where we throw one of our shoes in this big pile and randomly get a different shoe and try to return it to the owner, then start a small conversation. So I am really bored and I chuck my shoe in the middle and I pick up a boot. Then, I see my crush hold up my shoe, I didn't know what to do, I decided to just ignore it and find the owner of the boot. I find the owner (a girl a couple years younger than me) and we start a small chat. Then I feel something his my back, hard, and my shoe on the ground next to me. I turn around and see my friend yelling "sorry" from the other end of the auditorium, with my crush awkwardly standing there. I was so embarrassed I had a hot flash. I quickly put my shoe on and went to my other friend, she told me (throwing shoe)friend had just taken the shoe from my crush, tried to call to me, (but, being on the other side of a crowded auditorium, I didn't hear her), then threw it at me. I was, again, embarrassed and got another hot flash, got another hot flash from this.
I don't really like some of my 'friends'...
- you certainly was not a tool <3
perhaps he actually liked you
but hey, at least you helped him get out of deprssion
it's a hard thing to do.
as for your crush, just talk to him and joke
around about what happened hahah.
good luck <3
✧ Lᴜᴄɪғᴇʀ ✧ wrote:An employment agency sent me some job info today. This year is my last year of high school, so I obviously need to find something I can do afterwards. So the agency sent me a media design related job today, something I actually would like to do. However, the problem is partially what I've done with my life so far, and my own self-esteem. I don't have a "fancy" education - I don't think I'll ever be able to go to college, or something like that. Mainly because I'm an utter failure at math, no matter how hard I try to understand it, and math is naturally an obligatory subject. I also don't have any work samples, nor do I have a lot of knowledge when it comes to the programs they use. Why? First of, I lack the money to actually afford the things companies work with, and I also lacked/still don't have the time to practice due to school. And then, of course, there's me being horribly self-conscious and overly critical of everything I do. I know that I should apply - the worst they can say is no, but that's what I'm afraid of. I'm already so afraid of the future and, to be honest, I've cried a lot because of it as of late. Especially since I can't motivate myself to get a job I don't actually want to do, you know? Being denied to do one of the two careers that I actually want to pursue (the second one being more or less impossible due to my current education) would probably just tear me down even more. I have nothing to lose, but at the same time it feels as though I have a whole lot to lose, if that makes any sense? I also wouldn't know what to put into my application, anyway, so that's also a problem. I mean, we learned how to do them at school, but filling them out for real is much harder, especially if you have very few qualities that could persuade the ones choosing the candidates for job interviews to even give me a chance. And the job interview itself? Don't even get me started on that.
So that' that. More or less just "adult problems" and a lot of anxiety.
- you're still so young
my dad never went to college/uni, but now he's one of the highest
ranks in his job.
just keep working hard!
work as much as you can
it's okay to feel stressed.
and everyone has a weak subject,
and yours happens to be math.
just take your time on problems,
and don't get too stressed over it.
good luck boo <3
mr.robot wrote:@ blink
oh he's not toxic at all. this is actually the healthiest relationship I've ever been in, but I've put my foot down and told him this has hurt me and weakened my trust in him, which was already unstable because I have paranoia. We'll get through it but it'll just take time I think. Not quite sure how I've ended up feeling so much hatred toward myself over it though.
- ahh okay, that's good to hear.
just sit tight in the relationship then,
good luck <3
yikes! wrote:
i miss my ex really badly, even if it's been months
like he hurt me so bad and i have someone new now but,,
i want him back
i want to be loved again.
he told me nobody else could love me
not the way he loved me
guess he was right
i hate him so much but i want him back in my life
i don't know how or what to feel
hhhh
- talk to someone you know about it,
explain how you feel.
maybe your family or a therapist
people are there to listen to you,
don't be afraid to tell someone.
i hope it all works out for you <3
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