TheComfortCorner | V.10

[scottermite]

its been so bad for so long and its gonna get worse
seven years :,^) thats terrible

[scxr]

i feel this hole in my chest that just won't go away. i need to say my thoughts aloud; i have no one in my real life to talk to about this, because i've pushed them all away. i've hurt them all in some way, and the guilt is gnawing away at me, persistent and unrelenting. this forum is my only friend.

i am a terrible person. i have done many things i regret and am reminded of every single day. i look at the people i love, and i feel immense, crushing guilt. i look at myself in the mirror and i despise my reflection. i look at my hands and arms and don't recognize them as mine. i brush my hair, put on my makeup, change my clothes, and still see a grotesque marionette of a human being. i am ugly, inside and out. i am a monster. i feel completely irredeemable.

i got into a fight with my brother the other day, and i haven't been able to sleep since then. the most crushing feeling in the world is having your most self-critical thoughts confirmed by someone so trusted. he said things to me i'll never forget; not only because they hurt, but because they're true. there is no one in my life who is better off for having known me. i am poison. the truth hurts, i guess.

i am difficult, i have a short temper, i am self-destructive. i am aware of these negative qualities. however, all is forgotten when my emotions take over and i mess up, and it's too late to backpedal. i end up raging, then crying myself to sleep, only to wake up and repeat the cycle the next day. my anger is a cry for help, but all it does is push me further and further away from what i need.

i'm tired of living like this. i am tired of hating myself, then lashing out and destroying myself because of it. i am tired of being a slave to my own brain. i want to love. i want to be loved, but how can i be loved when i am so vile?

i miss who i was when i was small, when i was still kind. i fear i will never be kind again. i fear i will never love myself. i fear i will never be loved. i am scared of myself. i hate who i've become. i am completely and utterly alone in this battle, and i have no one to blame but me.

[♥ mizu]

very uncomfortable rn

[RaeOfHope<3]

I have never felt so decimated, so hopeless… I try my best to be a good mum but I feel so lost and hopeless.. what do you do as a parent when your almost positive they would be better off living somewhere else 💔

[marciplier]

kinda defeated and questioning what im even doing with my life

[Otter.]

im done with life rn. i been sick as a dog the past 3 days, my partner just got what ive had so i have to play mommy for him, and we have a 850 rent we probably wont make and we already ask for a little more time. my partner is the only one working (8 shifts, 40hr a week) because I got screwed over when moving, i was supposed to transfer but im pretty sure my old boss just wanted to say one last screw you since i did have to call health services CUS WE HAD RATS IN A BAKERY dept. the place has i was supposed to transfer to keeps saying call back and we'll have you talk to blah blah and its just a cycle. i moved states for my partner we did a long distance relationship for 10 months and i moved in 2 months ago. the place were staying is in a house that the people sell the rooms out to people. my rent is 500 and my partner is 850. the reason his is more is we basically have a studio apt. in the attic. I have a small room that use to be a food storage/boiler room. my partner already missed 3 days last week from him hurting his back and now he had to call out today. and it took me 3 days to even feel decent and my partner is kinda a baby about being sick (I get it, men normally are when their ill). but now we're stressed out. we normally donate plasma for extra cash but i been so sick i have not been able to. so its just been hard. also waking up this morning on here to relax and do trade and 15 declined trade. LOVE MY LIFE SOOOOOOO MUCH.

[gamer]

My stomach was really hurting all day yesterday so I couldn't eat. I waited a whole day and when I woke up tried my luck, thought I was safe... nope. My stomach still hurts :(

[Bee_Bovine]

I was told I have 6 months and I have to go. I don’t have rent, a car, or anything else for that matter, not credit, I have a cheap place in mind, but have no idea how I’m gonna make this work. I don’t wanna be homeless, I could try college, but if I don’t make it in? Then what? I’m outta luck? I can’t sleep because of this, it’s been getting bad. My therapist hasn’t called me back either.

[LittleMaple]

I really want to cry I worked my tail off doing the coloring for this commission and I was literally done like. All that I needed was optional shading I kid you the hell not. And I go to text my brother because I would never leave him hanging and it resets the whole thing. Back to line art. I want to cuss so much rn.

[Soy Sauce]

love is stupid