TheComfortCorner | V.8

[APH Italy]

I've been horribly lonely lately. My life has so much garbage I'm trying to pull my way out of that even if I could find a significant other, I doubt I would be able to give 100% right now

But at the same time....

So frustrating

[farewell]

I'm actually... okay for once? My vacation for August is planned, I sorted out my dog situation for when we go away, and I have a consultation for my surgery in early August and then the actual surgery will be done in September/October... It feels so nice to have everything going as planned but I can't help but feel like things are going to crash and burn soon because nothing good ever lasts very long.

[Anza]

gah I just took a massive L on my physics homework, I got 14/20 but considering the class average was a 16/20 I don't feel too bad about myself?? I'm just super frustrated because I hate theoretical physics, the material is dry and not very engaging...as a biology/history major I could care less about some of the concepts we learn (labratory and experimental physics on the other hand is super facinating to me)

But I spent the whole day from 12 am to 12 pm trying to work through the weeks homework and chapter readings...I felt so bad about myself for leaving it until the last day but I had a lot of exams during the week and I didn't feel like working on my least favorite class instead of studying

Also I can't sleep. My brain is constantly buzzing about the assignemnts I gotta finish before I can relax...I feel guilty getting a good nights sleep you guys! I end up working super late and then refusing to get up unil 10am. As a super morning person (6 am is my favorite time) this has been super hard on me because no matter what, I can't seem to wake up feeling refreshed. I need to get one of those sleeping/meditation/calming apps on my phone...

[a small animal]

was listening to music and feeling kinda sad and wondering why

and then it hit me

Oh my god

I’m going to die alone, aren’t I

I’m going to die never having had a relationship with anyone, not even the jokey kind of relationship that little kids have, no first kiss, nobody saying they love me, nothing

Interpret this how you want, tell me I’m exaggerating, give me an ‘inspirational’ quote that there’s someone for everyone but honest to god if you knew me you would know what I’m getting at

life is not hearts and flowers

there is nobody out there for me and I need to accept it before I go mad

[replicant]

x

[sillies]

i get it grandma... im less than you and lower than you... you don’t need to rub it in every waking day of my life

[goobi the sociable]

i'm just feeling sad today

[Radiation King]

I was so excited to get an A in a difficult class and I just fell short of it.
1.26 points. I worked my butt off to miss it by 1.26 points.
I think what’s more frustrating is that the dead only reason I missed it is the class has a tougher grading scale, so a 92 is an A (compared to any other class I’ve taken at the same university, where a 90 is an A). In any other class it’d fly.

I’m still proud of myself for getting that close, I was just hoping to end up with straight As this semester 😂

[Spearow]

Just a bunch of small things putting me off today...

Have a little over 20 minutes before I have to clock into work, my head is pounding. The manager that hates me is the one that will be closing with me and a few other people tonight, I really don't want to see her today. There's no one here that likes me today.

I was gone from cs for a while and now that I've come back I don't feel like part of the community. Only one of my friends is active. Makes me sad

Bad internal pains today I don't know whats wrong but every time I go to the doctor and they ask me if I'm having any pain I say no because I get anxious, lol I'm a mess

[petrikov]

ughgh
at this point i honestly just need a hug