Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[Lostfairy]

Dear D,
I know I shouldn’t linger on that comment you made yesterday but I am. It hurt me. And it still does.
Why’d you say I’m not humble? I don’t even understand said that. It hurts and I’m confused. Do you actually believe I’m, what, arrogant? Proud? I’m not. Are you kidding me? I’m insecure and sensitive and how do you actually think I’m “proud?” You don’t know me then.
I know you tried to play it off as a joke but everyone knows jokes come from a seed of truth. It hurts even more than it should because I strive to be humble, it’s one of my life mottos. But now I’m doubting everything.
It makes me mad. It makes me sad. But mostly, it haunts me and now I’m even more insecure because does everyone think I’m not humble?? Do I come across as totally rude and proud?
But I’m still mad and here’s what I wish I had said back to you:
“That’s rich, especially coming from you.”
-K

P.S. I’m serious. This might contradict what I said but you’re less humble than me. Every story has to be about you you you. And if we talk about other stuff, you visibly shut down or get angry. I’m sorry but please stop being a big baby and grow up. And I’m sick of you’re jabs and jokes because they’re not funny, they hurt me every time.

[harrington]

dear j,

there’s nothing i wouldn’t do to see you.
i feel like a mess now - constantly longing for a piece of myself that i finally realize i’ve been missing for so long - i feel stupid; that thought is pathetic, or outlandish, or probably both. it’d probably confuse you if you ever knew, but part of me also believes you’d find it endearing.
i don’t know what to do. i dive into my work, my silly little pet adoption sites, i constantly try to fill the spaces in between with human interaction so i can’t drift back to you. it’s so hard. i want nothing more than to just spend time with you every hour of the day.
i know i can’t, and i know i’ll never get to truly see you.


my musings will forever go unheard.
- steve

[PrinceOfTheAliens]

Dear 🌺
You're a good friend. Or at least, you try to be. I think. I hope. I know you are going through a hard time right now, but your comments still hurt. You come into my house every morning to pick me up for school and you just sit there. You sit there on your phone, occasionally saying some random comment about how I "chew too loudly" or when you insult my clothes. Maybe I don't choose to spend time looking for the perfect outfit, but that's because I try not to let myself change who I am just to please others. We never used to care about our outfits. About how wether or not our clothes were "cool enough" or if they would make us more popular. No one did. What happened to that? And I won't lie to myself, I feel the need to dress in a way that others would like. But I dont. I don't let them control me like that. I know you care about that stuff, and that's fine. But just because I don't care if others like my clothes, that doesn't mean I am unable to feel your rude comments. It does not mean they don't hurt. And you hardly ever talk to me anymore. You always seem to be upset about something. I still like to believe we are friends. We still have fun times together. But I can feel us drifting apart, and I hope it hurts you as much as it hurts me.

[tea rose]

dear you,
i'm doing so much better without you. i know who i am. i cut my hair. i completely changed my wardrobe. i'm confident in myself. i figured out my real sexuality. i'm a better artist and writer. i'm independent. i go outside and talk to others without second guessing myself. i started reading again. i have plans for the future. you rarely cross my mind, and i hope my healing makes you feel sick.

[rover]

☆,
it's time to depart.
- your Angel

[paevent]

T

[XXDEATH13]

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Love, Nick.

[Espresso. ༺]

Eugh

Putting this memory behind me.

[theia]

to a,

stop being so damn wishy-washy with me. i'm trying to be kind to you, but it's extremely annoying when you're saying one thing, then another, and then going back to the original thing. we had a deal the first time. then you back out. then you find out i have another one and want to get it. i'm like okay, this can work. but now it's this whole thing of going back and forth. it's getting frustrating and causing me way more stress than i need. i'm about to cut all ties with you at this point, i'm that fed up. but considering my situation, i haven't done so yet.

to y,

you suck.

to k,

i really am too kind, because everyone i talk to is saying i shouldn't have agreed to what you wanted to do. well, i'm going to do what i want and think is best, and if you get butthurt over not getting anything out of it, it's your own fault for not holding up your end of the original agreement. in fact, you haven't even lost anything except for the money you spent yourself (which was your own decision to do so). you aren't the one getting hurt the most. i'm trying not to snap at you and hurt your feelings, because by god i know you've been through a lot recently, but i'm losing my patience.

- x

[paevent]

I can’t sleep knowing you’re over there
I knew I was going to be like this but I want you to be happy. I trust you but I’m so damn insecure and jealous anyway. She’s so much more pretty than me. You two have more in common. She’s not lazy like me.
I know you said you didn’t mean it but I always thought it was true. You’re only with me because she was gone for a while. You’re only with me because the distance kept you two apart. I made mistakes. She didn’t.
You said it. You did. Even if it was out of stress you said it. And it’s been repeating over and over in my head. You’d rather be with her than me, and you didn’t mean that.
Sure. I want to trust you I do. But all these thoughts circle in my head and I can’t get it out.
It really is the only reason I’m with you. I want you to tell me that’s not true. But I can’t ask you right now because then I’m bothering you and preventing you from hanging out with a friend. Of an opposite gender sleeping over at her house. When you could be with me. That sucks. It really does..