| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[Dylan Klebold]

there's a huge fire at a restaurant a mile or so from where i live

and the smoke got so bad that you literally can't walk outside without a respirator

[I r o n.]

i'd like to take this over trade-suggestions, (pms turned off) and I can rant about this.. thing, or whatever thats going on..

[bark!]

I.. play a game called star stable online, a virtual horse game with inplimented chat and friends features etc. Theres a club function, almost like a... sorority, if you will, only no hazing etc, and it's in my opinion, the club im in, is my virtual extended family. Anyway... I have, 3 best friends, online there. For now, we'll refer to them as Hazzy, Chessy, and Judie (not actual names, at all)

Hazzy and chessy are in my club, Chessy is above me in rank, In the club, and overrules me...

They had recently been in a fight over relationships and such between judie and hazzy, and chessy taking hazzies side, as they were in the club with me.

Judie, Contacted me, with some issues, and was... so upset to the point I recommended therapy, having gone through it myself a few times. She took it into effect, and... was getting better, and wanted to try and patch things up with her and hazzie, she loved him, without a doubt. Love is a... fragile thing.

She... tried to talk to him, through private chat, saying "Maybe... we could talk... about, us? or, just other things?" - He decided... to quote that, in public chat, for the club to see. To which chessy responded with "ew" and "The judith is talking to you?" ... I don't... Our number one rule in the club, is no bullying, or announcing private or personal chats for everyone in the club to see... He and chessy, broke it... And.... I reported them, to the owner. I feel they're going to be kicked out, of the family... and it'll hurt them... alot. I... told them, about me reporting them.... I told the friend I wasn't neccasarily defending, but the one they were talking about, this

That I found it innapropriate to be saying such things in the first place, and making it even worse when they were said in club chat for others to see. They'll.... hate me, but if they're going to do such things to one of my closest friends, I dont want to know them, or be friends with them any longer, honestly. I betrayed their trust, as it was wrong for them to assume trust would go farther than my loyalty to the club (as far as rules against bullying, talking about personal matters in club chat, and talking about other users to which they cannot defend themselves) As well as my loyalty to you, as one of the most amazing, kind, caring, and beautiful friends I've ever had. I reccommend putting them on your ignore list for a bit, if they try to contact you, as they might try to be stupid, and target you, instead, when their anger should be directed to me, instead. If they are so clouded with the grudge they might hold against me, to realize that reporting them had nothing to do with vengance against them, or anything of the sort, I don't have any interest in calling them my friends again.

And It... hurts, knowing I'm loosing two of my best friends... over this. No matter what I try to convince myself, it hurts, and I don't know what to do, with myself... anymore.

I just... Feel like someone talking some sense into me, no matter how harsh.. would be appreciated, so as to keep my depression from taking root again, as I'm finally getting over it a bit more.

[My Immortal]

Sudden realizations that you screwed up... Bad...
Today has not been a good day.
I had a seizure...
And then... Yea... Joy

Oh no! I'm so sorry. It'll get better soon sweetie. You can count on it!

Thank you. I appreciate the care.

[trip ♡]

found out someone who was part of an online community i have been in for 8 years and have talked to often passed away yesterday morning.

[My Immortal]

I.. play a game called star stable online, a virtual horse game with inplimented chat and friends features etc. Theres a club function, almost like a... sorority, if you will, only no hazing etc, and it's in my opinion, the club im in, is my virtual extended family. Anyway... I have, 3 best friends, online there. For now, we'll refer to them as Hazzy, Chessy, and Judie (not actual names, at all)

Hazzy and chessy are in my club, Chessy is above me in rank, In the club, and overrules me...

They had recently been in a fight over relationships and such between judie and hazzy, and chessy taking hazzies side, as they were in the club with me.

Judie, Contacted me, with some issues, and was... so upset to the point I recommended therapy, having gone through it myself a few times. She took it into effect, and... was getting better, and wanted to try and patch things up with her and hazzie, she loved him, without a doubt. Love is a... fragile thing.

She... tried to talk to him, through private chat, saying "Maybe... we could talk... about, us? or, just other things?" - He decided... to quote that, in public chat, for the club to see. To which chessy responded with "ew" and "The judith is talking to you?" ... I don't... Our number one rule in the club, is no bullying, or announcing private or personal chats for everyone in the club to see... He and chessy, broke it... And.... I reported them, to the owner. I feel they're going to be kicked out, of the family... and it'll hurt them... alot. I... told them, about me reporting them.... I told the friend I wasn't neccasarily defending, but the one they were talking about, this

That I found it innapropriate to be saying such things in the first place, and making it even worse when they were said in club chat for others to see. They'll.... hate me, but if they're going to do such things to one of my closest friends, I dont want to know them, or be friends with them any longer, honestly. I betrayed their trust, as it was wrong for them to assume trust would go farther than my loyalty to the club (as far as rules against bullying, talking about personal matters in club chat, and talking about other users to which they cannot defend themselves) As well as my loyalty to you, as one of the most amazing, kind, caring, and beautiful friends I've ever had. I reccommend putting them on your ignore list for a bit, if they try to contact you, as they might try to be stupid, and target you, instead, when their anger should be directed to me, instead. If they are so clouded with the grudge they might hold against me, to realize that reporting them had nothing to do with vengance against them, or anything of the sort, I don't have any interest in calling them my friends again.

And It... hurts, knowing I'm loosing two of my best friends... over this. No matter what I try to convince myself, it hurts, and I don't know what to do, with myself... anymore.

I just... Feel like someone talking some sense into me, no matter how harsh.. would be appreciated, so as to keep my depression from taking root again, as I'm finally getting over it a bit more.

*hugs*
You did the right thing. I promise. It's really hard, yes. But if the really care they will come to thier senses. I hope you are okay.

[Atomic Samurai]

I live a pointless life.
In a loveless house.
On a dreary street.
In a messed up town.

I know I have everything and more.
That's what I always hear at least.
I've stopped hearing now.

I have one day off.
You expect me to work all day.

I hate you so much.
I HATE YOU SO MUCH.

Now if you excuse me I'm going to go cry in the corner.
I can't tell them anything.

[Lyren]

I don't know why but this bugs me.
Me and some of my friends ship our one friend with a guy. Not like they need to get married but more of what would happen if they were dating. I mean I know my friend would be ticked if she found out, hence why we make sure she doesn't know but I'm afraid that somehow one of three things will happen:

1. Friend finds out, she'll be mad (she may get over it though)

2. Her friend finds out. She hates shipping and will make us look (and feel) worse then criminals and wouldn't give us a chance to defend ourselves.

3. Guidance counselor will find out. I think she hates me. I try to stand up for my self in a fight and she yells at me, 2 friends mentioned above were mad at me, yelled at me for trying to avoid them at lunch. They'll tell her and she sees them as little angels and me as a monster since I was bullied. (she told me that since my past was bad I hurt people)

I'm scared

[bark!]

they... left me. All 50 of them, the people I considered my closest friends... and extended online family. My depression added onto the guilt... I can't. It hurts... It hurts so much. I don't think I've ever felt this much pain in my life, and I'm falling apart. She... My supposed best friend... turned them all against me. They all hate me and I can't stop crying. I trusted them, and... now it's all gone. They were the best parts of me, the good parts... and now... it's all done. I... cant. I've been sobbing for hours, and I can barely see to type. They were my everything. Goodbye, my loves - Chessy, Hazzy, Judie, Night, Hawky, Del, Sal, Pia, Brit, Gray, Greeny, Holls, Cloudy, Rae, addie, sev... I'm sorry. So... sorry. Sorry that I can't contact you to tell you this, that I messed it all up... It's all my fault.

[My Immortal]

they... left me. All 50 of them, the people I considered my closest friends... and extended online family. My depression added onto the guilt... I can't. It hurts... It hurts so much. I don't think I've ever felt this much pain in my life, and I'm falling apart. She... My supposed best friend... turned them all against me. They all hate me and I can't stop crying. I trusted them, and... now it's all gone. They were the best parts of me, the good parts... and now... it's all done. I... cant. I've been sobbing for hours, and I can barely see to type. They were my everything. Goodbye, my loves - Chessy, Hazzy, Judie, Night, Hawky, Del, Sal, Pia, Brit, Gray, Greeny, Holls, Cloudy, Rae, addie, sev... I'm sorry. So... sorry. Sorry that I can't contact you to tell you this, that I messed it all up... It's all my fault.

*hugs* it's okay. Do you want to pm?