Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[Cerberussi]

did not age well, give me my money back for the wedding that never happened !

[LittleZanyBug]

I hope that you needed that money. I hope that you stole that money from me because you needed it. That you had no other option but to turn to stealing. I hope that it isn't your idea of fun, but a means to survive, because really there is no other acceptable excuse. I'm glad that I had enough, to afford what I need and then some, I'm glad that you stole from me and not another struggling person. But that's the thing, you couldn't have known - whether I was well off or dirt poor you didn't know, and that's what makes it so horrible. You could have been taking someone's last cent, you could have been shutting off a families power during winter. But you weren't this time, and so you will never learn. You'll keep stealing and scamming because you dont understand the effect your actions have on other people. You made me feel stupid, but at least i can justify it by saying, I hope you desperately, desperately needed that money and it wasn't just about greed.

[coffee.berry]

Hello, it's me.

Can you tell me what's going on, S? You've been ignoring my messages on Messenger the last week. What is going on?!
S, you have me worried sick about you and we've always been best friends, so why are you doing this? Do you think I can't see that you saw the messages, that you're some kind of stealthy ninja?

It's not funny, really. You're always responding to O, but not to me. You make me think that you've been kidnapped, someone stole your phone, but that's not true. You still respond to O. Why?

Please tell me if you don't want to be friends anymore. You're scaring me.
[insert my name here]

[bubbaberriboo]

tomorrow will be four years. i miss you every single day. loosing you was one of the worst pains i’ve ever experienced and my life hasn’t been the same since. so much has happened. i miss you and i love you. you were a great dog. i hope you are resting well

[eden;]

I think I am a terrible person and I am sorry for making you think otherwise

[Javin]

Dear younger me - (and any other artist who needs to hear this)

Trust your judgement, believe in yourself. You're a fabulous, gifted, talented artist.
Don't listen to people who tell you that an art career is hard to get into, or that there's so much competition so you might as well just keep art as a hobby, and 'get a proper job'. Remember the following exchange:

'Hi David, Happy Birthday! Isnt it about time you got a proper job?' - Signed Ricky Gervais, commedian.
'Hi Ricky, Thanks - I do have a proper job' - signed David Bowie, rock god.

It says everything about the modern world, that two celebrities, at the absolute peak of their careers, made this joke. Nobody values artists, musicians, actors, or takes them seriously, especilly when they're first starting out... but EVERYBODY enjoys what they do.
What I'm trying to say is - the world would be a much duller place without creatives. Don't let non-creative folk attempt to make you fit in a convenient box. Society is geared up to ensure that you have to somehow hide your talents, or try to fit in, but you don't and will never ever fit into the boxes they try to force you into.

REMEMBER NOBODY ELSE CAN DO WHAT YOU DO IN YOUR UNIQUE STYLE.

Get out there and show the world how amazing you are.

Sincerely, Your future self, looking back at countless missed opportunities because you didn't believe you were good enough.

p.s. don't worry, I'm quite happy with the way things turned out in the end, I have no real regrets - but perhaps I could have saved myself 20 years of struggle, if I hadn't tried so damn hard to fit in with other people's ideas about who I should be, back when I was just starting out. xx

[Onion_707]

dear A,

I have been meaning to say this for a while... I'm not really sure how to explain this... But... Whenever I think about you, my heart skips a beat. I know you probably don't feel the same for me, but I just wanted to let my feelings out one way or another. Its ok if you just throw this letter out the second you read it. I would also feel uncomfortable if I just pictured me as a friend. Its ok if you dont really want to be more than bffs, and even though its most probable that you just feel like my friend, Im willing to take the rish of asking you this big question... A, will you be my valentine?

Love,
me <3

[vicasterology]

bro i am really trying to say a formal goodbye to you and our friendship bc i keep telling myself you deserve that but you are making it so hard for me😭😭😭stop digging yourself into a deeper hole pls

[shinx.]

6 weeks.

it’s been 6 weeks since you’ve disappeared without a word now. i can’t even say i’m mad at you, i’m just worried out of my mind that somethings happened to you. i truly don’t think you’re going to come back at this point and that’s the worst part of it all. i’m never going to know if you’ll come back or if you’re okay or what even happened unless you come back, but i don’t think you are):

i know it’s dumb and senseless to hold you to your word when you said you’d never leave me and you’d always come back, but you promised and for the first time in years i thought this would be different and i trusted you but you’re gone again and it hurts so much and i miss you so so so much):

i just want you to come back, i miss talking to you over everything and nothing, i have so many updates for you and you’d be so proud and happy for me. things have happened that you wouldn’t believe were happening and truthfully i hate how they’re happening when you’re not there. i wanted you to be at my side whenever big things happened, or at least not far from it. i wanted you to be able to celebrate with me. i wanted you to be there with me but you’re not :’).

i can’t even do anything to make you come back or just know that you’re okay. i know you’ve said before that you disappearing is normal and you’ve disappeared from irl friends for months but that doesn’t help. your irl friends still definitely have some way of making sure you’re okay, and you saying that you can disappear for months makes me scared that this is going to become regular. i know this is part of you and i’m trying so desperately hard to deal with it because i don’t want to lose you, i just wish you would communicate more with me over this stuff but i know you won’t because you’re very closed off.

i know my attachment issues and abandonment issues are my issues and mine alone to deal with, but i thought we reached a middle ground where we both were happy. i mean, literally before you disappeared you said you’d try to be alone so we could watch something together and then you went radio silent which is what’s making me so scared because you usually come back a few days later to apologise for it, or you don’t disappear for 6 weeks and no sign of coming back.

i know writing this out is pointless, you’re probably not coming back at this point, but i still hope you are. you promised we would do so much together and that you’d be there to see me become happy and that i’d be there to see you become happy. i don’t want to do any of that stuff without you now): please, come back soon and please just be okay. i need you more than anything. i don’t know what to do without you): and there’s nothing to ease my anxiety over this.

did i do something wrong? was it me that made you disappear for this long? i’m really really sorry if i did, but i just wish you would talk to me.

i miss you so insanely much and i’m literally begging you to come back soon and just be okay, please):

[Fishkin]

I think so much about you, from the moment you showed me what you looked like I knew I really liked you. But at the same time I knew that I was never going to be lucky enough to have you. I’m not what you look for in a guy- because I barely am one. But god waking up every morning just waiting for a text. A good morning. A how are you. A ‘hey look what I drew’ I can’t help but feel fuzzy. I stare at photos you send me and wonder if those black hearts aren’t meant for me. It’s unfair. We talk every day every hour all the time whenever one of us is free and yet it seems like there’s a wall. I know it’s me. I feel like a Lego, trying to put the pieces together but every time I try there’s a slip, just unable to connect those dots- maybe I was made wrong at the factory. I don’t even think I could be deserving of your love anyway, I am leagues beneath your. You’re gorgeous,,, your smile gives me butterflies. I look back at every selfie or photo fit you send and blush because god how could someone look so nice? It’s a crime. Truly. And it’s a matter of time before you get bored and we move on because I fail to be interesting. But that little thing inside me hopes that somehow when I go away on this trip in spring I could. See you. The same theme park you want to go to too. I haven’t even shown you my face. You don’t know what I look like. You don’t feel the same and I know it but oh how badly I wish you did. I wish you’d talk about me the way you talk about that other guy. It’s unfair,,some days I wish I’d skipped you on that website just so I didn’t go through this aching longing that one day you’d feel the same. I was going to. I was so close. But I didn’t. I could have turned you down on talking on Instagram. But I didn’t. And now I look forward to your messages, I rely on you all too much for someone I just met a few weeks ago. I wonder if you send those TikTok’s to other people or if you give them the same music recommendations or if you write these stories with other people. Or is it just me? I long for it to be just me. I wish for once someone would feel the same way about me that I feel about them but I am not someone who’s destined to be happy. My purpose is to make others happy. But you make me happy. Or at least you make me laugh and I think that’s the next best thing.