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[abxy]

I have no motivation
I have nobody
I hate myself
And my dumb anxiety
And my problems.
And I have no way to get a social life without losing my few friends I have in real life

[Bella.]

Kind of a little bit ranty? Idk, thanks for listening <3

So lately I've been having trouble getting to sleep and I will keep waking up throughout the night really uncomfortable, my spine has always been a bit deformed and I think it may be kyphosis but it has never really bothered my too much to do anything about it. In fact, I didn't even notice I was any different to other people until a couple years back when my mum started pestering me to stand up straight. After I noticed I made an effort and did everything I could to stand straight but it obviously hasn't helped. So this morning I woke up and it was pretty painful. I mean, for a couple months I can feel a bit of dull pain on and off that just lingers, but it was bad today. Mum realised something was off and asked me what was wrong and I told her, she suggested dad take me to a doctor that could refer me to a specialist or chiropractor or something. I was happy about this, as I could finally get some answers! Not 5 minutes later, dad comes into my room and gives me a lecture on how the only reason is because I sit in bed all day on my laptop. Sure dad, my back that has been deformed for years is because I prop myself up straight in bed to work on an assignment. Of course I don't sit at my desk or anything / sarcasm. He is not around very much, always doing shift work so the only time he really does see me is when I sit in my bed. But hey, can't tell him otherwise/the truth now can I? He goes on about how I have to sit up straight and everything but I literally cannot straighten my spine, period.

It's actually affecting me now like, it's getting worse, I dont want to go out in public, I wear hooded jackets to try and hide how much my spine sticks out, I dont go running/jogging anymore because I look extremely awkward.... I just want to earn money for myself so I can take myself to the doctor -_-

[Thalassic]

You said you'd be home today but where are you?
I just wish you'd tell me if plans change or something, so I dont get my hopes up and end up disappointed. I've wanted to watch something with you for months now..

[trip ♡]

my university's homecoming was absolutely horrible today. our homecoming is our pride and joy, and we were devastated at the loss. a drunk driver drove through the crowd, killing 4 and injuring over 30. many are in critical condition. i am so upset and angry and ugh.

[Luzien]

sorry was posted two times...cant get it away^//^

[Luzien]

@ blueroan: wow, that is just terrible, i hope you where not hurt too! im sorry that People died and where hurt...i hope they got the drunk.
talk with the emergency councelor that they mostlikely bring in, tell them when you have Problems after seeing this, maybe talk with other that where there too, to stay together and give hold to each other, to be there for the families whose members where hurt or killed will help them...
good luck to you and them.

@ Bella: you may start with a new bed, back Problems are no light Thing, you Need to find the bed where you can sleep in the best!
then go see a doc, you are not at fault with your back, ist genetic!! so when they want to plame somebody then they should nock on there own door!!
to go to a doc and get it checked out fully and started Treatment is the most important Thing right now
pain, the back changing forms is no good sign, but you can do something against it getting worse, you may Need to wear a corset or when needed get a surgery but it will help and it depends on what it is it may be something not so bad and you only Need to wear it at home and/or over night...sometimes you Need to wear it for some years....but ist nothing against what can happen when ist not treated assap...pain is no fun...and should not be taken easy...

when they dont let you go to the doc go there on your own....

like i did say...the doc will do check ups, x-ray and Magnetic Resonance Imaging(Magnetresonanztomographie MRT ) , then may Need to get a corset for you, or start a pain med therapy or a therapy with massage and Special sports that will help you strenghten the back and Body....

when you have Problems sitting straight, hurt and spin changes forms...its a must do
but you Need to go now!!! go with your mom she sounds like the more open one


but dont worry, you can do something, and dont fear what other say dont hide, lot of People have the same Problem, or worse...you are not alone, and Special back Sport is really a nice help to what the doc lets you do..


@ ectoplasmatic tears: nahh...you are not alone, you only Need to Keep the eyes open, there are or will be People that like you
try to find something and when ist small that you like to do, to get your Spirit up....and when ist Walking in the forest-fields, Sport, drawing...
nothing is as bad as you may think now, heads up, and kick life, try to have fun


@ Lukas: what ƒ ℓ σ ω є я ѕ did write was not bad^^
talk with your mom, bad also take your brother with in this talk the one that was abused like your mom...

but
im very very unsure about giving your step-father a second change....maybe when he goes in anti Aggression theraphy or sees a psyvh. doc about his behavior....
but im mostly against trusting abbussive People....im not sure if he hit you too, but who knows if he will do it the next time ....
and he already did hit your true brother and mom....so be careful
talk it out in peace with your mom and the one brother
and when she really goes together with him, and there are Problems, go asap to a councelor in your school- or wherever and ask for a bit help....when your mom cant help herself against being hit and verbaly abused aswell as keeping her Kids save than you or your brother Need to get help...stay save, but dont worry to much, maybe ist really not so bad...and when he gets help wiith his aggressions Problem he may be changed....

the most importend Thing is relax, breath, calm down, nothing happened, she is not together with him, talk with your mom without shouting or crying....!

wish you luck, and when you need a ear write here or to me.

[neli]

Just when everything starts getting better, something happens so that I'm back at square one, back to the anxiety, bad to the crying every night, back to not wanting to talk to anybody ever again and wishing I didn't exist. Well, I guess I just can't count on life even,

[נוריאל]

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[MarkFangirl]

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[Irusu]

nvm.