by caf. » Tue Oct 13, 2015 2:07 pm
i put a ton of effort into the paragraph i wrote for that project, and they really paraphrased it and put in a load of untrue bull? really? i did my research, i know this disorder like the back of my hand, and of course they're gonna say they know better, that i procrastinated, because i'm washed up, right? i was smart, but now i'm just a lazy, unmotivated idiot, right? now that i just magically developed these disorders that somehow didn't exist before, i'm not trustworthy enough to be left to do my work? if they're going to take out the words i used that you think i only used to sound 'advanced', they should at least take another look at the websites they did their research on and realize they just made us sound like middle-schoolers (no offense, just that this is kind of an advanced class)
if they're gonna obsess over me getting on for the fourteenth time today, they should at least give me a job to do and not offend me. because it's offensive, what they did; they told me my work wasn't enough, that they were just going to ignore what i explicitly laid out and do it 'their' way. i have a life, you know. i have a lease horse, i have math, i have anxiety attacks on a trice-weekly basis, i can't spend all of my time revising the project when they're just going to go back and dumb it down.
i'm absolutely tired of them. i thought they were my friends, i thought they were kind, i thought they were proud of me. but i guess not - because now that i go to a therapist, now that i'm getting help, i don't deserve any respect when i actually spend time on something and put passion into my work.
god, i'm tired
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