ProudHufflepuff wrote:I want to leave. I want to run away and go stay with my bf. I'm only ever happy now when I'm with him or on Skype with him
My friends are all rude to me and I just want to avoid them all but I am terrified of being alone and doing things alone and I don't fit in with anyone else...so all I have are the people that upset me. I don't want to go back to school.
My Internet friends have all left me so I have like one good friend on here I talk to alot.
My family drives me crazy. They make me come downstairs and poke me and throw socks and stuff like that at me and make fun of me and don't stop. My mom gets mad at me for everything I do. My dad flips out and screams over everything. My younger sister makes fun of me and the things I love, her favorite thing to insult is One Direction. She doesn't understand what they've done for me and how much they mean to me. I hate it when people insult them and when she starts insulting them I just ignore her and pretend like I'm not listening so I don't lose it and scream at her. Then she just says it louder and louder and then I get mad and scream at her then I get in trouble. And then if I tease her about something small and she knows I don't mean it she flips and starts smacking me then I yell at her and I get in trouble. And we share a room and the door doesn't lock so I can't get away from her
I just wanna go away. No one here cares about me. I wanna be with my bf because I actually feel loved...
I just don't know what to do...
Smile and tell yourself to wait it out, you can do this. A few more years, and you can get an apartment together, you can get jobs in the city and everything will work out.
You'll find someone else, new kids, or kids that are willing to work around you. Do something different, join a club or a sports team, and you can make friends there. You'll find people that aren't rude to you, maybe even try talking to old friends again, and telling them that your miss hanging out with them, and that your other friends are ignoring you.
Try messaging them again, when my internet friends stop talking to me it's because they're busy, or just don't feel like making small talk. Talk about stuff that interests them or you, and they'll reply. Sometimes people just loose touch.
I feel exactly like that (but instead of a sister I have a brother)
But a couple days ago my mom started screaming at me and I just completely broke down in tears. We had a chance to talk out everything and she said that her job stresses her out and she has high expectations for me so she pushes me harder. I'm sure something like that is going in with her, can you talk to her? Just talk openly about your feelings and she might try to change things.
Siblings are jerks, and the one thing I've learned over the years of slaps, mean comments, and generally hating on me is there really is no way to avoid it with a guy like him. I basically ignore him and if he starts bothering me I'll glare at him and walk away. Maybe with your sister you could talk to her though?
People care about you, I promise. Tell your family you feel like this, and I'm almost positive they will change or at least try to be more considerate. Things will all work out ok, but in the mean time stay focused on the future, when that will happen.
wolfsong-mapleflame wrote:wolfsong-mapleflame wrote:This depression is overwhelming, but I'm scared, it's starting to show. I'm more irritable, and often just walk off from our group table to sit in the corner. Even my roleplay charries are getting depressed. I can't tell anyone in real life. They will say I'm overreacting, that I'm looking for attention. I can't even email my friend, because the school emails are monitored.
Maybe sending the e mail wouldn't be a bad idea... I mean it's a way to tell them without telling them.
Someone told our principal that a kid was extremely depressed and she actually forced the kid to go to a therapy session. If you seriously need help then you need to tell someone.... A close rl friend would understand, and realize that when you leave them you don't just not like them, you want to be alone. They'll stand by you. You can't take this alone, you have to tell someone, or try to get some help so you'll feel better
