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[connoisseur]

Please, please, please, pm me.

[abxy]

Maybe being pan is wrong.
Maybe I'm lying to myself to be different.

[starry palms]

im not eating enough
im not sleeping enough
i cry almost every night
im forgetting to shower again
i thought i'd pulled myself from this but i guess i was just pretending to myself
sigh
i hate this

[Thalassic]

I'm so pissed off.
I can't stand my dad, I hate him. He does not respect me AT ALL.
It's been over 15 minutes since this happened, and I'm still shaking and barely stopped crying.

He keeps taking and touching my stuff. Without my permission. While knowing perfectly well that I am NOT okay with this. MY stuff. Stuff that I buy with MY money. And keep in MY room.

I had built a still life set that I'll paint soon. It was pretty good and I was proud of it. This was hours ago. And suddenly he came in and just took a piece from it. I snapped, telling him to put it back and that I need it. He laughed and said I should have told him it was important. While he could have and SHOULD have asked before he just went and.. took something.

Hours later, I'm working on a different piece of homework, my still life set standing as it should be, when he comes into my room and starts moving pieces around. And not like accidentally, or looking at anything or just.. he just took some pieces, stacked them on top of eachother and watched it all fall apart.
I couldn't believe my eyes.
He KNEW this was important. HE KNEW IT. HE KNEW HE WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO TOUCH IT AND YET HE CAME IN HERE AND RUINED IT ALL AGAIN.
I snapped. Yelled at him. A lot. He was laughing at first, saying things like "oh thats actually mine so you have no say about it", and soon enough, he started saying things like "oh, so if I can't do this, then I won't give you any money the next time you ask for it" but??? what????
I ASK for money.
YOU JUST COME IN HERE AND TAKE WHATEVER YOU PLEASE.
HOW IS THAT SIMILAR IN ANY. WAY.
That would be like, me going into his room and just taking his money without asking. That's exactly what I told him, he got mad, slammed the door, and I could hear him yelling at mom about me.

I just know he's going to go and turn it all around, and I'll be the bad guy, like I always am.
I'm sure he's going to put me on some crappy meds that drain me of all energy and motivation, just cause I'm "snappy" or whatever. Just so he could do whatever the hell he pleases.

I can't keep living like this.
But I have no choice.. I can't leave. I have no job, nowhere near enough money for a place of my own, or even to live with someone. And I couldnt live with any of my friends. Not even my granny, as she has no hot water.
He's literally driving me crazy, I'd rather die than live with him any longer but theres literally nothing I can do.
Not like anyone would even believe if I told them. Everyone sees my family, my parents as perfect - they never get to see what they are really like. But when I do something wrong, my parents always tell everyone.
I'm the bad guy, it's all my fault.
They never wanted me to begin with, and now I'm sure they can't wait to get rid of me.
It's all hopeless.
Theres nothing I can do.

[Irusu]

So, I started my school day off just like any other day and I went to class.

This girl, let's just call her 'L', was doing her health homework in English class. The other girl, 'S', asked her something about the homework. I didn't realize that we needed to do that for homework, so I asked 'S' if we did, just to double check and she totally flipped out on me. She just started screaming at me and saying 'yes, we did. i'm sure.' I got so mad! I don't know what her problem even is! I'm sorry that I asked you a question, no need to get angry.

Then, a few minutes after that, I got called to the disciplinary guy in school during English class! They said that I never turned in my excuse for one of the days that I was absent after I sprained my ankle. I told him that I did turn it in and he said that we would have to go talk to the lady who's in charge of student attendance. So, I had to wait for him to talk to everyone else. Then, we went back and the lady treated me like I was stupid and I never turned it in. She sat there and pulled out a bunch of unorganized folders and started trying to look for my excuse that I supposedly never turned in. She just kept acting like I was lying about it, even though she was the one who collected it! Hah, she eventually found it in a folder that was labeled with the wrong date. The guy apologized and the woman did too, but she was reluctant and you could tell that she just said it so that she didn't look stupid. So, to sum it up they took me out of class to ask me about why I didn't have an excuse for time that I missed class and wasted my class time because they had it anyways. :L

After that I went to math. My math teacher said that I supposedly didn't turn in a paper, but I was there when we did it and I was there when we turned it in. I had it done. My friend, 'D' watched me turn it in and she even said that she saw it and I had it done. The math teacher lost my paper and now I have to do it all over again because she was unresponsible!

Eventually, I went to lunch and 'L', 'S', and 'A' moved to a different lunch table to sit, even though they didn't even move there to sit with other people. They were snubbing me and I know that it was 'S's fault. I should have never have been nice and let her sit with me and my friends. I'm sure that this was her idea. She turned them against me. I don't know if they thought this was some kind of joke, but I don't care. I'm disgusted. I'm done with them. I had to go over to sit with my other friends and I'm reluctant to sit with them. 'L', 'A', and 'S' sat their and turned around and smiled and laughed. Yeah, turn around one more time. We'll see if you still think it's funny when you have a face full of cherry yogurt that I flung at you. Anyways, that made me super upset.

Then, I was in chorus later and I had to sit by people that I'm not used to because we had to sit in soprano, bass, and alto sections. Between that and everything else that happened that day, I had an anxiety attack. I started having hot flashes and shaking really badly. I'm pretty sure that quite a few people notice. You could even hear the shaking in my voice while I sang.

Now, I have to sit with 'S' and 'L', who snubbed me, in English. Either that, or I have to sit with kids that aren't fond of me and I don't know really well, so I'm super nervous to talk to them. I don't know what to do. My 'best friend', who isn't really my best friend anymore sits at our table, but we're not close anymore. She'll be friends with me when I'm looking and whisper behind my back. I don't know what to do. My Mom says that I should ask them what their problem is, but I don't like facing conflict.

I'm panicking. I have so much homework to do. Life's throwing so many obstacles in my way. I know that life isn't fair, but these past four weeks have been beyond unfair. I don't know what to do. I feel like crying, but I don't want anyone to see me cry. I wish that something would just go right for once. Everything's falling to pieces. I feel so anxious. Please pm me.

[Lyren]

I have classwork that I got part done. It was partner work and my classmate did her work on my laptop. (IDK why) I tried to email my teacher but I think I messed up the email because he won't respond. I'm nervous.

[Montgomery Gator]

So, I started my school day off just like any other day and I went to class.

This girl, let's just call her 'L', was doing her health homework in English class. The other girl, 'S', asked her something about the homework. I didn't realize that we needed to do that for homework, so I asked 'S' if we did, just to double check and she totally flipped out on me. She just started screaming at me and saying 'yes, we did. i'm sure.' I got so mad! I don't know what her problem even is! I'm sorry that I asked you a question, no need to get angry.

Then, a few minutes after that, I got called to the disciplinary guy in school during English class! They said that I never turned in my excuse for one of the days that I was absent after I sprained my ankle. I told him that I did turn it in and he said that we would have to go talk to the lady who's in charge of student attendance. So, I had to wait for him to talk to everyone else. Then, we went back and the lady treated me like I was stupid and I never turned it in. She sat there and pulled out a bunch of unorganized folders and started trying to look for my excuse that I supposedly never turned in. She just kept acting like I was lying about it, even though she was the one who collected it! Hah, she eventually found it in a folder that was labeled with the wrong date. The guy apologized and the woman did too, but she was reluctant and you could tell that she just said it so that she didn't look stupid. So, to sum it up they took me out of class to ask me about why I didn't have an excuse for time that I missed class and wasted my class time because they had it anyways. :L

After that I went to math. My math teacher said that I supposedly didn't turn in a paper, but I was there when we did it and I was there when we turned it in. I had it done. My friend, 'D' watched me turn it in and she even said that she saw it and I had it done. The math teacher lost my paper and now I have to do it all over again because she was unresponsible!

Eventually, I went to lunch and 'L', 'S', and 'A' moved to a different lunch table to sit, even though they didn't even move there to sit with other people. They were snubbing me and I know that it was 'S's fault. I should have never have been nice and let her sit with me and my friends. I'm sure that this was her idea. She turned them against me. I don't know if they thought this was some kind of joke, but I don't care. I'm disgusted. I'm done with them. I had to go over to sit with my other friends and I'm reluctant to sit with them. 'L', 'A', and 'S' sat their and turned around and smiled and laughed. Yeah, turn around one more time. We'll see if you still think it's funny when you have a face full of cherry yogurt that I flung at you. Anyways, that made me super upset.

Then, I was in chorus later and I had to sit by people that I'm not used to because we had to sit in soprano, bass, and alto sections. Between that and everything else that happened that day, I had an anxiety attack. I started having hot flashes and shaking really badly. I'm pretty sure that quite a few people notice. You could even hear the shaking in my voice while I sang.

Now, I have to sit with 'S' and 'L', who snubbed me, in English. Either that, or I have to sit with kids that aren't fond of me and I don't know really well, so I'm super nervous to talk to them. I don't know what to do. My 'best friend', who isn't really my best friend anymore sits at our table, but we're not close anymore. She'll be friends with me when I'm looking and whisper behind my back. I don't know what to do. My Mom says that I should ask them what their problem is, but I don't like facing conflict.

I'm panicking. I have so much homework to do. Life's throwing so many obstacles in my way. I know that life isn't fair, but these past four weeks have been beyond unfair. I don't know what to do. I feel like crying, but I don't want anyone to see me cry. I wish that something would just go right for once. Everything's falling to pieces. I feel so anxious. Please pm me.

Ah I hate those days and people, you simply tap them on the shoulder and they whip around and act like you punched em'.
It will all pay off, keep going, The ones without common sense will fail, you will succeed.
I have to sit next to kids on the bus who talk about bad things, your not alone.
But when I feel like everything is falling apart , I vent, To my mom, dad or sibling.
try venting and if you cry during dont worry it helps. If you need to talk you can Pm me or Unity she is a great person and so are you

Stay Strong

[MarkFangirl]

Maybe being pan is wrong.
Maybe I'm lying to myself to be different.

It is certainly not wrong! ♥
why would you lie yo yourself? what do you have to gain by doing so? nothing I assume. The world is a messed up place but don't let it get yo you! you are amazing, and just ugh! Being different isn't wrong, people don't accept you? oh well forget them :3 The Cs community definitely will ♥ I know I don't offer much help but don't ever forget you are amzing and so strong and don't let anyone drag you down.

[Montgomery Gator]

I'm so pissed off.
I can't stand my dad, I hate him. He does not respect me AT ALL.
It's been over 15 minutes since this happened, and I'm still shaking and barely stopped crying.

He keeps taking and touching my stuff. Without my permission. While knowing perfectly well that I am NOT okay with this. MY stuff. Stuff that I buy with MY money. And keep in MY room.

I had built a still life set that I'll paint soon. It was pretty good and I was proud of it. This was hours ago. And suddenly he came in and just took a piece from it. I snapped, telling him to put it back and that I need it. He laughed and said I should have told him it was important. While he could have and SHOULD have asked before he just went and.. took something.

Hours later, I'm working on a different piece of homework, my still life set standing as it should be, when he comes into my room and starts moving pieces around. And not like accidentally, or looking at anything or just.. he just took some pieces, stacked them on top of eachother and watched it all fall apart.
I couldn't believe my eyes.
He KNEW this was important. HE KNEW IT. HE KNEW HE WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO TOUCH IT AND YET HE CAME IN HERE AND RUINED IT ALL AGAIN.
I snapped. Yelled at him. A lot. He was laughing at first, saying things like "oh thats actually mine so you have no say about it", and soon enough, he started saying things like "oh, so if I can't do this, then I won't give you any money the next time you ask for it" but??? what????
I ASK for money.
YOU JUST COME IN HERE AND TAKE WHATEVER YOU PLEASE.
HOW IS THAT SIMILAR IN ANY. WAY.
That would be like, me going into his room and just taking his money without asking. That's exactly what I told him, he got mad, slammed the door, and I could hear him yelling at mom about me.

I just know he's going to go and turn it all around, and I'll be the bad guy, like I always am.
I'm sure he's going to put me on some crappy meds that drain me of all energy and motivation, just cause I'm "snappy" or whatever. Just so he could do whatever the hell he pleases.

I can't keep living like this.
But I have no choice.. I can't leave. I have no job, nowhere near enough money for a place of my own, or even to live with someone. And I couldnt live with any of my friends. Not even my granny, as she has no hot water.
He's literally driving me crazy, I'd rather die than live with him any longer but theres literally nothing I can do.
Not like anyone would even believe if I told them. Everyone sees my family, my parents as perfect - they never get to see what they are really like. But when I do something wrong, my parents always tell everyone.
I'm the bad guy, it's all my fault.
They never wanted me to begin with, and now I'm sure they can't wait to get rid of me.
It's all hopeless.
Theres nothing I can do.

Its not hopeless. Please don't feel that way, It will pay off, all your hard work and staying strong will bring happiness, I promise.
Its not your fault. Its your fathers for thinking taking his grown daughters things and moving it.
Put your important things possibly in a chest with a lock like a 2 foot box. That is what I do and it helps.
Try venting to a friend or Aunt or grandparent, they will understand. If you cry its fine! crying helps
let it out. If you every need to, Pm me or Unity

Stay Strong

[Thalassic]

Its not hopeless. Please don't feel that way, It will pay off, all your hard work and staying strong will bring happiness, I promise.
Its not your fault. Its your fathers for thinking taking his grown daughters things and moving it.
Put your important things possibly in a chest with a lock like a 2 foot box. That is what I do and it helps.
Try venting to a friend or Aunt or grandparent, they will understand. If you cry its fine! crying helps
let it out. If you every need to, Pm me or Unity

Stay Strong

could you please not call me a daughter
I don't have a chest like that though, and I'm broke..
I tried talking to my friends but they arent replying to me
and theres no one in my family I can talk to about this
they all already see me as the bad guy