| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[- ; bonk!]

I'm just so tired of everything. Tired of being picked on, tired of being mocked, tired of being insulted, tired of fighting with these people. I'm just done.

[Uchuujin]

I have been finding happiness and peace in my life by cutting ties with my mother.

But I remember how much I loved her as a child. I remember thinking she was so beautiful and smart. I wanted to be just like her when I grew up.

She abandoned me when I was a toddler so she was always this distant figure to be idolized and dreamed about.

But as an adult she is trying to get involved in my life again for the wrong reasons and I realize how selfish and cowardly she was to leave me like she did. She uses her fanatical religion to hurt me. Everything she does makes me hate her more.

The final straw was when, about six months ago, she told me that I was wasting time by going to college because no one would ever hire me. I wasnt smart enough or good enough at anything to be worthy.

So I stopped talking to her. It makes me feel so indescribably lonely but I am so free and comfortable at the same time.

And then I'm overwhelmed by grief and guilt because I want my life to be better WITH her. Not without her.

Is it weird to need comforting because you're happy?

Ugh. Things were simpler when I was just miserable all the time hahaha

[Irusu]

I have to keep going to the doctors and hospital to get x-rays and stuff on my ankle. They found out that there's a loose bone fragment from the talus. The teachers keep complaining because I'm absent to go to the hospital, even though my grades are good and I've been getting all of my work done except for maybe one paper in math class. I feel really reluctant to go sit in a room with teacher who I know were complaining about me because I'm absent to go the the hospital. Seriously? The school called my Mom to ask why I was absent today. I'm going to the orthopedist to see what we're going to do about the bone fragment and I just can't seem to catch a break with anyone.
My 'friends' who I sit with at lunch are just being mean. The one keeps making mean 'jokes' and then says how she's 'just joking' at the end and how I'm her 'best friend.' Saying those after you said something mean to me? No, that doesn't make it alright! Everybody's been telling me how I've been short tempered lately, but I'm having my own issues and I'm just not going to let them walk all over me like I usually do. I'm sick of people thinking that they can just sit there and walk all over me. Yes, I'm a nice person and when I'm in a good mood I try to put up with it, but I'm just not going to put up with it right now. I'm sorry if you're surprised that I'm not going to put up with your malarkey!
This other girl who used to be my best friend started hanging out with me and my 'friends'. We were nice to her and let her sit with us, since she apparently doesn't have anyone else to sit with. Oh, but don't worry, when she has somebody better to sit with that she's not fighting with, she'll leave in a heartbeat. Anyways, I don't know what her problem is, but she's being short tempered and aggressive with me for absolutely no reason! Our friendship didn't end on a good note, but I was being nice when I welcomed her to sit near me. Now she's trying to kick me out of my lunch table with my 'friends'!
My 'best friend' is friends with a girl that I really don't like and she even defended her when I said something about her because she was picking on me. She pretends to still be my friend when it's convenient and she tries to make me talk to her if she thinks I'm mad at her. She also gets jealous when I talk to my other friends instead of her, but any time the I try to hang out with her she doesn't want to really talk to me. To make matters worse, she stopped sitting with me at lunch last year because of the first friend that I talked about, but she sits with her during chorus and talks to her about 'best friend stuff.' And then she tells me that she would tell me, but I would hold it over her head! The whole time that we were friends, she would hold embarrassing things over my head, not the other way around. She acts like all of my other friends are 'losers', but they're better friends to me than she will ever be. Haha, she also sits with the first girl I talked about during English honors and she took my seat at the table, so now I have to sit in a different spot at the table with hostile 'friends.' Granted, she has stuck up for me when I wasn't there. Tbh, I do miss being best friends with her, but I'm just sick of this. And all of my friends seem to have friends that they're closer with than they are to me. And everybody acts like I'm being mean to my sister when I talk to her, but I'm not. WE'RE JUST SISTERS AND THAT'S HOW WE TALK TO EACH OTHER. No, she doesn't care if I tease her a tiny bit about stuff, she's my sister and she teases me too. It's how we show our sisterly love.
I don't know why everything seems to be going wrong right now. I feel sick to my stomach and I just want to become a recluse in my room and never have to deal with any of this. I would miss my friends if I was a recluse, but right now I just don't want to deal with this stuff. Maybe I am overreacting, but I don't feel like I am. I feel like this would be the reaction of any normal person. Just yesterday, I was fantasizing about becoming a veterinarian, a doctor, or helping to find a cure for cancer. Doing something super important in my life and feeling all dandy, but today I just feel sad and I'm pretty sure that my anxiety is acting up pretty good.
I'm just going to listen to some Taylor Swift and try to feel better.

[incandescence,]

I have to keep going to the doctors and hospital to get x-rays and stuff on my ankle. They found out that there's a loose bone fragment from the talus. The teachers keep complaining because I'm absent to go to the hospital, even though my grades are good and I've been getting all of my work done except for maybe one paper in math class. I feel really reluctant to go sit in a room with teacher who I know were complaining about me because I'm absent to go the the hospital. Seriously? The school called my Mom to ask why I was absent today. I'm going to the orthopedist to see what we're going to do about the bone fragment and I just can't seem to catch a break with anyone.
My 'friends' who I sit with at lunch are just being mean. The one keeps making mean 'jokes' and then says how she's 'just joking' at the end and how I'm her 'best friend.' Saying those after you said something mean to me? No, that doesn't make it alright! Everybody's been telling me how I've been short tempered lately, but I'm having my own issues and I'm just not going to let them walk all over me like I usually do. I'm sick of people thinking that they can just sit there and walk all over me. Yes, I'm a nice person and when I'm in a good mood I try to put up with it, but I'm just not going to put up with it right now. I'm sorry if you're surprised that I'm not going to put up with your malarkey!
This other girl who used to be my best friend started hanging out with me and my 'friends'. We were nice to her and let her sit with us, since she apparently doesn't have anyone else to sit with. Oh, but don't worry, when she has somebody better to sit with that she's not fighting with, she'll leave in a heartbeat. Anyways, I don't know what her problem is, but she's being short tempered and aggressive with me for absolutely no reason! Our friendship didn't end on a good note, but I was being nice when I welcomed her to sit near me. Now she's trying to kick me out of my lunch table with my 'friends'!
My 'best friend' is friends with a girl that I really don't like and she even defended her when I said something about her because she was picking on me. She pretends to still be my friend when it's convenient and she tries to make me talk to her if she thinks I'm mad at her. She also gets jealous when I talk to my other friends instead of her, but any time the I try to hang out with her she doesn't want to really talk to me. To make matters worse, she stopped sitting with me at lunch last year because of the first friend that I talked about, but she sits with her during chorus and talks to her about 'best friend stuff.' And then she tells me that she would tell me, but I would hold it over her head! The whole time that we were friends, she would hold embarrassing things over my head, not the other way around. She acts like all of my other friends are 'losers', but they're better friends to me than she will ever be. Haha, she also sits with the first girl I talked about during English honors and she took my seat at the table, so now I have to sit in a different spot at the table with hostile 'friends.' Granted, she has stuck up for me when I wasn't there. Tbh, I do miss being best friends with her, but I'm just sick of this. And all of my friends seem to have friends that they're closer with than they are to me. And everybody acts like I'm being mean to my sister when I talk to her, but I'm not. WE'RE JUST SISTERS AND THAT'S HOW WE TALK TO EACH OTHER. No, she doesn't care if I tease her a tiny bit about stuff, she's my sister and she teases me too. It's how we show our sisterly love.
I don't know why everything seems to be going wrong right now. I feel sick to my stomach and I just want to become a recluse in my room and never have to deal with any of this. I would miss my friends if I was a recluse, but right now I just don't want to deal with this stuff. Maybe I am overreacting, but I don't feel like I am. I feel like this would be the reaction of any normal person. Just yesterday, I was fantasizing about becoming a veterinarian, a doctor, or helping to find a cure for cancer. Doing something super important in my life and feeling all dandy, but today I just feel sad and I'm pretty sure that my anxiety is acting up pretty good.
I'm just going to listen to some Taylor Swift and try to feel better.

It's not cool that your friends treat you that way! There supposed to be you friends!
They shouldn't leave you like that! Just do what makes you happy, and act like you, and your sure to find more friends. In the meantime, you should try and spend some time with your sister, although you may not get along, your sure to share some similarities.
I hope your ankle gets better!
Big Hugs!

[the force awakens.]

I have been finding happiness and peace in my life by cutting ties with my mother.

But I remember how much I loved her as a child. I remember thinking she was so beautiful and smart. I wanted to be just like her when I grew up.

She abandoned me when I was a toddler so she was always this distant figure to be idolized and dreamed about.

But as an adult she is trying to get involved in my life again for the wrong reasons and I realize how selfish and cowardly she was to leave me like she did. She uses her fanatical religion to hurt me. Everything she does makes me hate her more.

The final straw was when, about six months ago, she told me that I was wasting time by going to college because no one would ever hire me. I wasnt smart enough or good enough at anything to be worthy.

So I stopped talking to her. It makes me feel so indescribably lonely but I am so free and comfortable at the same time.

And then I'm overwhelmed by grief and guilt because I want my life to be better WITH her. Not without her.

Is it weird to need comforting because you're happy?

Ugh. Things were simpler when I was just miserable all the time hahaha

It's okay to remember the old, kind memories with your mother, but the old memories shouldn't be as easily remembered. You should be grateful for cutting ties with such a harmful figure, and I'm quite proud of you for finally cutting ties; happiness should be key.

I'm just so tired of everything. Tired of being picked on, tired of being mocked, tired of being insulted, tired of fighting with these people. I'm just done.

As cliche as these little sayings might be, it does get better. I've dealt with the same crap in a sense, I have had my battle days where I couldn't win at all (and yet again, I still have those days once in a while). The sun must set to rise, and I'm quite sure the tunnel you are in is about to be over, and you'll find the light <3

I'm crying right now, and it's f or a stupid reason.




My computer is broken and all of my friends are probably looking for me, it's not been responding for 2 days .-.

If you have other means of communication, at least send them a message of some kind mentioning how your computer isn't working, and hopefully they will understand. If there isn't any other way, just tell them once things get back to normal what exactly happened.
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And let me just tell you something, fire drills absolutely seem to hate me.

[♥kittyfaith2210♥]

Really depressed right now
School was horrible and my stomach hurt all day
I was bullied, again...
I hate it
What did I do?
Nothing, I just am not good enough :C

[majima]

sometime sill see black specks out of the corner of my right eye (sometimes a few little blue specks are missed in) its happened before and it hasnt happened in a couple of days but it came back
ive looked it up alot and most of what i saw said they went to a nunch of eye doctors and they said it was nothing and i believe them i'm just worried

[radiantly]

I am honestly so worried about the rest of my life. I want to move and get a job and have good friends and a boyfriend but idk I'm not really popular and I am depressed and I dont see myself having a happy future. My only escape is in music or writing but even that is not working. I wish somebody loved me and would show it. I really just want to cuddle and kiss and watch movies together and be stupid together but I dont see myself being happy.

I just see myself being lonely and sad and anxious and ultimately destroying myself. I just wish I was different. Maybe older, maybe prettier or skinnier or cooler. I love my friends, I really do but... I dont feel as if they are enough for me rn.

Sorry for using so much space.

[chooch]

i miss you mom.

[Princess Taozi]

...I'm so conflicted right now
I was going to go see one of my favorite KPOP groups on Saturday...I had been waiting for over 60 days (it was to see BTS) and I literally planned everything out but...
A friend of mine her mom died and the funeral is on Saturday, and my mom has to attend, and my friend I was going to go with (we bought the tickets together) has decided to not go since she's going to go to the funeral. I would feel terrible to be that person who just skipped out on someones funeral because I was going to see BTS, but I'm literally crying my eyes out right now...since I've sort of been looking forward to this for like 60 days now. I'm sort of also afraid that my friend will get mad at me if I went to the concert myself too, while she skipped out for respect...I know there will be more, and my mom promised that the next tour/concert any Kpop group that I like has in America she'll buy me tickets..but y'know that will probably not happen in like MONTHS. Besides that this is about the only time a Kpop group has ever come anywhere CLOSE to where I live, and the concert is still 3 hours away in Atlanta. I'd feel terrible going to the concert but I'd feel terrible staying too...well basically that's like $70 down the drain, I guess we can try and cancel the tickets...or maybe I can get my other friend (she is still going because she doesn't know the family) to at least pick up the t shirt for me...oh wait never mind it'd probably require picture ID so yep...basically $70 wasted. I'm trying to find some bright side to all of this but so far I feel like utter trash...