TheComfortCorner | V.7

[galaxial]

i've been in this weird funk. i don't know how to describe it. i just. don't know?
just the feeling of being dead-weight. total dead-weight.
i mean, nobody expects anything spectacular of me. why do i get my hopes up ?
i'm just. i hate feeling 'sorry' for myself, i know i know. i should stop moping around.

i just. it's selfish feeling this way, selfish for wanting people to notice.
i kinda just want to have someone there.
it sometimes feels like nobody in this world will ever understand me.

i hate it all. i hate being judged. i really hate myself. i do.
pre-school jitters? ah. it's whatever.

i'm sorry for being a burden. my problems are trivial compared to everyone else's.
my pms are always open for those who need it. <3

have a good day.

[roccdog]

I wish, my one wish is that i always would have them next to me, always and forever

[yaksha.]

every bit of motivation has drained out of me and i have so
much to do but no drive to do it :') i have art things and
writing deadlines and roleplays to respond to and i just don't
have it in me anymore

[ashton.]

just having a really rotten day... and yuppp depression's back, dangit. guess it only let me have yesterday off....

entered my sweetheart lil chicken in the fair's poultry show, but she was disqualified because she's missing a particular feather in her wing. she's such a gorgeous bird, everything about her is absolutely perfect - except the missing feather. what a let-down, honestly. i had such high expectations, so when i found out about the dq, my mood just plummeted and i've been feeling really down in the dumps since. this probably seems a really stupid thing to be upset about compared to what others are going through, gosh....

then i had to be super duper nice and polite to people who are just downright jerks. they made fun of my bird and one stuck his hand in to pet her even though the show etiquette specifically says not to or you could be disqualified. even if there wasn't any specific rules, isn't it just common sense that if it's not yours, you don't touch it without the owner's permission? ugh. i'm so disgusted.

and then, to top it all off, my sister is being quite the jerk as well. why can't she understand that making rude comments and belittling people doesn't make you look cool?? she has legit said it's fun and that being nice is just so boring. jesus christ. when will someone knock some sense into her.

this all probably looks really silly and trivial.. i'm sorry...

i hope i'll feel better after the rodeo tonight, though i doubt it....

[vampz]

he asked for a little time apart, and that's okay. he has work and other things to focus on that
are really important. i don't mind giving him space or time at all.
but i fear this is going to turn into something worse. here's why.
we don't go to the same school. i went to attend one that i thought
was going to be really nice. turns out the workload is awful, it's
stressful and i find myself wanting to go home every day. i'm
making new friends, but i want my old ones. my best friend is still
here with me- she's a virtual student, though, so she's easier to
meet up with and see. my bf wants to be considered my best friend
too, though, so i guess i have two. although he doesn't keep in touch
as much, and he wants space right now. we haven't separated entirely.
although, because the departments are giving us a hard time about
switching to his school, the next meeting won't be for another month..
i don't want to wait or deal with this for that long. and since he's busy,
he doesn't have as much time for me as we're not seeing each other
every day, and the longer i wait the more chance there is of him cutting
it off completely.
there's an upcoming dance at his school. students from other schools are
allowed to attend, and my other friend helped me get in, although he's
likely not going. that's okay. he says he doesn't have anything to wear,
although... it's the other problem i'm worried about. he says two people
have already asked to go with him. he told them he'd think about it
because he didn't want to hurt their feelings. i get that, but... even if
we're taking a break, "i'll think about it" still means they might try to
go after him later on. what if i'm not there in time? what if he moves on
and sees more in one of them? i wouldn't force him to go to the dance.
i'm just... worried, if that makes any sense. i'm not hanging onto much
else but him because of my whole stressful situation.
i don't know what to do. i've started breaking down pretty bad again.
any help would really, really be appreciated... thank you.

[frozone]

dead

[Coraychi]

Uuuugh
I'm just feeling so bad lately.
Disconnected, overwhelmed, anxious, and hopeless.
One of my favorite sites got a server wipe recently, and for the time being i can't register so I've lost contact with a lot of people I care about. I don't talk to many of my friends anymore, and all the groups I'm currently in I feel scared to go back to just because I've been very absent from them and I always feel bad going back to groups after being gone awhile. >_> So I have all that going on, and feel like I have no one to talk to because of it. My RL anxiety is bad too but I don't wanna get into that...
Then I've got NaNoWriMo coming up, and I have no inspiration or ideas and I know it's 2 months away still but I wanted to get a headstart on planning sooo bad this year, because the last year was a pain (and i ended up needing to write 9k words in a single day to meet my goal) and I don't want that again! But again, no ideas or inspiration, so I'm stuck in a big way.

And now, someone I knew under an old internet alias that I abandoned in 2013 found me again and I really don't want to deal with that. I moved on from that for a reason. Reasons. Good reasons. I've grown a lot as a person since then but I don't want to look back on it and reconnect with those people really, I want to move on and forget about it.

I just feel so overwhelmed, and like I have no one I can turn to anymore. All my close friends I'm out of contact with, and my less close friends I feel like I can't just dump all this negativity on them.

Don't know what to do...

[Coco Bunny]

I received a letter today saying I've been denied councilling because apparently, my mental well-being isn't eroded enough for them to need an "intervention"

[v1s10ns]

aghh nostalgiaaaa
my favorite singer died a while back
and i just recently found outtttt mmmm

[godly]

time for another school year of self-control and self-loathing!
hoping for 80 by christmas lolol