fletcher.io wrote:i can't tell if i'm depressed or not.
i'm not constantly sad, but when i am sad it gets really bad, and i find it hard to cheer myself up.
i get really bad thoughts, stuff i can't really talk about here.
but the trouble is, i can't get the help i need, can't find out if i actually have a problem because i just deny anything is wrong. i find it incredibly hard to talk to people verbally about my problems, but it's the only way i can really get help.
i hate myself, to be honest.
hey dude!
depression is difficult to understand. it's hard because it's a mental illness, so other people usually can't tell very well if you have it or not unless you tell them your symptoms. unlike physical illnesses, the symptoms aren't visible. it can get very very bad like you're describing, but it doesn't mean you are /constantly/ sad. there can be periods of months where you're feeling sad. but I'm not a doctor unfortunately and I can't tell you whether or not you are diagnosed with depression.
the first step is to tell someone. I know, that's so hard, and you don't have to read this and go out right away to tell someone. I suggest thinking about telling someone you are close to and have a good relationship with to start. if you're not comfortable with this, perhaps on your next doctor's appointment when your parents are out of the room, mention your symptoms to the doctor privately and see what they say. medication helps not to cure depression but to handle it with the help of coping techniques, and may be needed in your situation.
again, I'm obviously not a doctor or someone you know personally, so I can't tell you straight up whether or not you have it or if you need medication/doctor's help. the first step though, is opening up to someone. and I'm glad you were able to post about it on here -
that's a great first step. :> as someone who's been diagnosed for three years now and is on medication for it, you can always send me a pm if you have any cs safe questions. I'm super comfortable and open about my diagnosis and would love to help you out as much as I can during this. stay strong dude, I wish you all the best<3
