by Ljubica » Sat Sep 12, 2015 3:55 pm
My social anxiety has gotten so much worse recently. I even get nervous talking to my best friends, and I'm thinking about dropping college courses because I just get so freaking scared sitting next to people.
Bullies, how could you do this to me?!
I wasn't like this until the middle of high school. I wont go into detail, but I was bullied pretty harshly. Or perhaps I'm just really weak, who knows? I'm too scared to talk about it to anyone. Before the bullies, I was confident, I was happy (happy enough, at least) and I was alive.
I am still alive, in the sense that I am still breathing in and out. But otherwise...
I just miss who I once was, but perhaps it's too late to reclaim my old self, since I have already been drowned in this endless fear for so long. Now I only feel comfortable talking to people on the internet, but due to a cyber bullying issue, that is already starting to change.
Therapy wont help (since I'm too weak and afraid to speak to a therapist), so maybe, if you don't mind, could someone tell me how to reclaim my life back if it isn't too late?
My Flightrising username is Ljubi, user ID 68498 c:
