I know it may sound like I broke up with M for A, but I didn't. I had quite a few very legit reasons, like the fact that we don't really talk anymore. And he agreed, and we both decided that taking a break was the best thing. He was upset about it and so I was, it was probably one of the hardest things I've ever done, but I told him I had to sort some stuff out, which I do. My feelings for A. Honestly, I can't date someone if I have feelings for someone else that I hang out with a lot. It makes me feel guilty, almost like I'm cheating when I'm not, and I can't stand it. So that's one of the main reasons; It may sound like it's for A, but it's not. It's because I feel guilty knowing that I have quite strong feelings for A, and I'm with him a lot, and M doesn't know.
And also, the day after at school (which was yesterday) A asked me out. Please don't anybody say that it's trampy to say yes like I did and start dating someone right after you break up with someone, because I know, and I'm not exactly proud. But honestly, if the guy of your dreams that you've liked since you first met him finally asks you out (and in person!), would you not say yes even if you had just gotten out of a relationship? I mean, that may have been the only time he would've done it, and I could be left not getting a chance with him all because I didn't want to seem a little bit trampy.
He asked me out during the break before the last class before lunch, which was Science. I had to go fast so I answered him at lunch. I walked by his classroom, and he just popped right up out of his seat and ran up to me at the doorway. I said yes, and he literally ran back into his classroom exclaiming, "She said yes, guys!" and everybody just laughed and his friends all clapped and congratulated him xD.
We hung out at the forty-five-minute-long lunch break like we always do, but for the first time as boyfriend and girlfriend. K kept chasing after him whenever he said something that was making fun of her, which was often. The first time, she chased him down and pushed him, and he apparently got a bruise on his arm that was completely invisible to everyone but him and insisted he needed a hug from me to make it all better. Then she pressure-pointed him in his neck, which he hurt playing baseball a while ago, so he ran over to me. I was sitting in the grass, he was standing, and I held my arms out. He practically tackled me, in a hug, causing us both to fall over and end up laying in the grass beside each other. Then he got a tiny little cut from the fence on his hand and asked if I'd kiss it better. So I just smiled and did, and then he was all, "I think I cut my lips, too. Can you kiss them better?" and the whole group, including me, laughed :3
We hung out after school. I was walking home with him, AL, and AL's friend J. AL is the guy who has had a crush on me since like first grade, kissed me a couple times which resulted in him getting slapped, and has asked me out literally over a bajillion times. The last time we hung out we were pretty intensely flirting with each other, hugging while walking down the street since it was cold, sharing ice cream, and he tackled his friend because he took my phone, and then gave me my phone back. He was flirting with me when we were hanging out - I'm assuming he hadn't heard that A and I were dating, or he just didn't care - and he was being super uber sweet again. Like I'd start walking too fast and then he'd gently grab my arm and pull me back because he insisted that, "You have to be right by my side at ALL TIMES." (literal quote from him).
I don't like him in that way anymore, but I wasn't really bugged by his flirting. A didn't say anything specifically about it, but he'd glance at AL all dude-don't-you-dare style, and everytime AL would start talking to me in a sweet way A would interrupt and start talking to him, or tell him to come look at something. I later asked A if that was on purpose, and he just immediately said, "Yup. He'd better back off my girl." And I was all OMIGOSH HE CALLED ME HIS GIRL <3 on the inside but on the outside I was like, "Aww :3 -hug-".
Then the best part of the WHOLE DAY was when we went back to my house. We were jumping on my trampoline and he kept grabbing my phone and then he'd put it on my trampoline and start bouncing and he wouldn't give it back. So he put it in the middle, stood on one side while I stood on the other, and told me to go for it. I took one step, and so did he, so with a smile I was all like, "Don't you dare move! Stay!" and he just laughed. I went for it, and so did he. We got to my phone at the same time, so I put my hand on his chest and pushed him backwards so that he ran into the net, laughing, and I grabbed it. He tried to grab it from me and we ended up wrestling on my trampoline for my phone, laughing and pushing each other. I always managed to get it from him at the end (he said that he was letting me win, but I didn't believe him). Once we were standing up, both of our hands wrapped around my phone. I was wearing his hat since he put it on me a while before that and we were like super close. We just both paused and we were talking to each other with that stubborn challengingness that we both possess, with that taunting tone that you use when you're up against somebody trying to win, and then he kept getting even closer, like as if he was leaning in to kiss me. It was pretty intense though. I usually have trouble keeping eye contact for a long time, but with him, I didn't. We just stared all deeply into each other's eyes (he has such beautiful eyes, they're like a perfectly clear, light blue<3 and mine are blue-green but darker, a "deep, soulful" *as my best friend says* dark teal that everybody says is super gorgeous, though I don't really see it) and we were super close, like close enough that if I were to lean forward an inch or two, I could kiss him.
And he kept getting close like that, all the time, as we were fighting. Then he finally just took my phone and put it in his shoe on the ground. Then he told me to stand in the middle across from him, so I did. And then he asked if I was ready. I asked for what, and he said that the first one to tap out wins the ten dollars he had in his pocket. I told him I didn't want his money, so he said, "Fine, if you win, you get your phone." then I asked what he got if he wins and he said, "Well, you do owe me something." and I was like, "Oh?" so he said, "Yeah. You owe me a kiss." and I just laughed and told him all tauntingly that I didn't owe him anything. He make a psshhh noise and rolled his eyes and said, "If I win, you have to kiss me." so I agreed and we just kinda stood there. He insisted that ladies go first, but I said I wasn't going to tackle him. We argued about who was going first, and he complained that he didn't know where to grab me (xD, so funny) so I should go first. After about twenty minutes of arguing, then ten minutes of fighting, his mom came to pick him up for baseball. At his last baseball game I talked to his mom for the whole time while I watched, waved, and cheered for him, and his mom and I get along very well. Turns out, his mom and my mom used to be like BEST FRIENDS and they hung out ALL THE TIME. And, his auntie used to live in the exact same house that I live in now. AND, during the summer, we go with our dad's to the same place at the SAME TIME. Weird, right? It's almost like fate xD. So then he still had my phone and he was all, "You didn't give me that kiss yet." and I just grinned and said, "You didn't win." so he tried to take my phone, then I said that I couldn't text him if he had it, and he just paused for a second then said all quietly, "I'm weak... I can't not text you. I'll miss you too much." and gave my phone back.
[Sorry for posting so much. xD
Nobody has to read all that, just needed to express all this and tell somebody and none of my friends would understand and would think I'm weird if I went all deep like this so yeah XD.]