TheComfortCorner | V.9

[mean&gay]

need some1 to pm me about this, w/ advice & theories rather than comfort (i'll find comfort through having an explanation for my feelings/behaviour, ya feel me)

[made it transparent because i'm embarrassed LMAO]

i'm finding myself getting worked up over really silly things. trouble is, i can't tell if it's specifically those things, or just that i'm so wound up in general that it only takes small things to set me off.

we're having takeaway from the kebab shop tonight. i normally get a large pizza & large fries for myself, because i like to have leftovers for the day after, and this has always been fine. but tonight my mum has said that she thinks that'll be too much (it never is) and she doesn't seem to recall me ever getting that particular order (i always do).

and i'm really upset by this. i feel like crying, my eyes are watering a little bit and i've got this pressure in my head from holding it in. and that seems silly. my mum won't let me get a large portion of chips. that's not a big deal, that's nothing. so why am i so upset by it.

i feel greedy, even though i've ordered that much food before and it's never been a problem and i've never wasted any. and i'm terrified of coming across as greedy if i try to explain that i like ordering larger portions so i have leftovers, even though i've done it plenty of times before.

basically, i need someone to explain to me why i'm so upset by this situation. i feel like i'm being childish. i don't understand why i'm making such a big deal out of this, but i am. it's highly likely that i have autism, anxiety and depression, although i'm currently unable to access an actual diagnosis. so i guess there's a starting point. i just feel stupid.

[JustLivinTheDream]

7 Types of people you can’t help.

This is a very interesting video. I would suggest watching it.

[halo7]

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[Banette~]

I noticed one of my fire-bellied toads, Bob, twitching yesterday. I'm not sure what's wrong with him, and the earliest I can get a vet appointment is in February. I honestly don't know if he'll last that long. I just feel so hopeless right now and can't stop thinking about him. I've had him for several years and he's a wonderful frog. I hope he makes it through this okay, and I have no clue what else I can do, but I can't help but feel like I'm failing him.

[mean&gay]

ohh looook i'm here again.
things got really bad tonight and i need to tell my counselor about it for my own safety, however in the morning i'll feel like it wasn't bad enough to warrant it. so, i need someone to pester me about it until i do. and i feel bad asking my friends to do it, so i'm here. idc really what u say, just tell me to tell him abt tonight. because i don't think i have the willpower to just do it, i need somebody to keep telling me to do it until i do it. i can't do it tonight but i need to do it soon but i won't want to do it. this is stupid.

[SitcomLaughTrack]

ohh looook i'm here again.
things got really bad tonight and i need to tell my counselor about it for my own safety, however in the morning i'll feel like it wasn't bad enough to warrant it. so, i need someone to pester me about it until i do. and i feel bad asking my friends to do it, so i'm here. idc really what u say, just tell me to tell him abt tonight. because i don't think i have the willpower to just do it, i need somebody to keep telling me to do it until i do it. i can't do it tonight but i need to do it soon but i won't want to do it. this is stupid.

If you need me to do it, just shoot me a message and let me know your time zone

[Requiem;]

Not really a big deal, but I’m training someone new tonight and I’m actually quite a bit nervous. I’ve trained four other gals, but I’ve either already known them from other departments or had someone else around to fill in for my painful awkwardness. I’m not a very good conversationalist, mostly just, strictly business. I’m worried she’ll get, idk, annoyed with me? We’re going to be by ourselves for the week. I’m relieved we have someone new I just always get a little antsy about entirely new people. Ah well, it will be what it will be.

[yharnam boy]

people keep mentioning this heavy trigger I have like it's nothing.
I feel like I'm not even allowed to mention this triggers me because then I'm "lazy" and this stuff is "normal" and "necessary". I get upset just from thinking about it. This thing is one of the main reasons why my state is just absolute crap since like 15 years. And yet I'm not supposed to get "upset" by it because it's so "normal".
Uuuuugh......

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[Requiem;]

Geez I’m the most awkward person alive. I cannot form a sentence without sounding like a know it all, or an idiot. There is literally no in between. I think I come off like a real stick in the mud but I really just want to give as much information as I can 😔