TheComfortCorner | V.9

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i wanna go to sleep and never wake up again

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[venti]

dear everyone,
sometimes life is tiring and you just want to block out all the hate, and you know what? that's just fine.
take long, nice naps, take your time, and take long breaks. it doesn't matter how much work you do, as you can
always resume it the next day. if you energy is drained, just do something to regain it. just please, do
not burn yourself out on work. you might have a deadline, and that's fine, but please, just
remember, don't waste all your time on it.
if you ever need someone to lean on, feel free to dm me <3
- element

[viles]

• wow, good job, milo. it's been thirteen hours of your "break", and you're already back to come crying to the comfort corner...god, i'm pathetic.
  i'm fragile; everyone knows it. my therapist knows it, my parents know it, hell, even people who i've never even spoken with know it. so when i get rejected, i handle it in one of two ways. the first is that i get angry. i yell and scream and do other heinous things i'm too embarrassed to admit on a kid's pet collecting website. the point is, everyone knows to stay out of my way. the second is that i give up. i just,, stop trying. most of the time this involves leaning on the one friend who has stuck with me through every angry outburst and every depressive episode: my bed. god, when the screams of rejection are ringing in your ears, there's nothing quite like pulling the covers up to your chin and turning your back to the world. this time, i've definitely given up. sure, today isn't over yet; there's still a (albeit small) chance that i could get it at some point before midnight tonight. however, there's this feeling in my bones, the kind that tells you to board up your windows when the sky's just barely turning grey. i can feel the hurricane coming, and i'm doing what i need to do to survive. the hurricane isn't the problem; it's what i do after. the thought of trying this process all over again, of suffering through the anxiety and the pain only to get hit by another storm, just seems pointless and cruel. but what am i supposed to do? do nothing with my life and fully become the person my family knows me to be? i want to be better, to be someone i can be proud of, but being better is just too damn hard.

[Moth Monarch]

whoo, not me at 5:45am trying to fall asleep on the floor in a face mask in my grandmas room because I had a fever cause of a breakdown and my parents are treating me like i have the virus now.
Meanwhile I dont even have a bedroom rn so im forced to stay in the floor in my grandma's room cause it the only place i can sleep. I'm not even sure if this is safe for me cause I already have breathing problems (severe asthma) so that's not gonna help much. (I know the masks don't really impair breathing normally but i'm just worried cause i dont think you're supposed to sleep in them.) I've already had the virus once, and i feel nothing like I did then. I understand that they're just trying to make sure everyone's safe, but c'mon, im sleeping on the floor in a face mask.

Wish me luck

[fika.]

a gentle reminder of a post i saw and reblogged on tumblr:

you are allowed to experience emotions
you are allowed to express emotions
you are allowed to experience big and loud and overwhelming emotions
you are allowed to express those too, in healthy ways
you are allowed to cry. i mean it. no matter what anyone has ever told you, you are allowed to cry. its healthy to cry
you are allowed to be mad, and to express that you're mad, in healthy ways
you are allowed to have big reactions to things like anxiety and fear and sadness and happiness and excitement, and you're allowed to have them without shame or fear
you are allowed to take care of yourself and you are allowed to be kind and patient and gentle with yourself. you dont have to earn the right to function or nourish yourself or clean yourself or even give yourself a treat. ‘unimportant’ joys like snacks and games and things like that are still just as important for your mental health
you are allowed to rest. listen to me: YOU'RE ALLOWED TO REST. you are allowed to and you should take breaks and recharge when you need to, listen to your body and your mind and let yourself rest please

Sometimes I feel like I cry over the stupidest things. When my mom shouts at me, I cry. One time when a balloon escaped and flew off, I cried. I cried when I couldn’t go onto Township (an app) one time because I would loose my 83 day streak. Why do I cry so much, I feel like such a baby.

that's not over stupid things. everyone has this idea that it's stupid. but it's just not. have you ever looked into being 'highly sensitive'? nothing to be ashamed of! in fact, its something to embrace. you feel emotions so deeply, and afterall you're only human. i used to think i was highly sensitive as i would cry over good stuff and bad stuff. heck, last night i thought of something my mom did for me and it made me burst into tears with gratitude so sometimes i think i am highly sensitive. plus all my brother does is say i'm overly sensitive so there we have it.

don't feel like a baby. honestly, read into that article and do a bit more research. i wouldn't say it's a self-diagnosis, but moreso of a "you are not alone" type of situation, which is always lush just to have that comfort of a community. i hope you're okay ♡

i wanna go to sleep and never wake up again

wanting to go to sleep, fair enough. wanting to never wake up again? take a step back, pidge. whatever you're going through now, is temporary. it'll help build your strong character in the future. i know things seem tough at the moment :( and honestly i can understand why you want to give up. i'm not really sure how to offer words of 'advice', as after all, i don't know your situation and i don't want to assume. but what i can offer you is a comforting inbox to message. i'm here for you, whether it's for a general conversation or a rant or ramble. i don't want you to go through whatever you're going through alone, even if i don't know the situation and you don't want me to know. i'm here if you need me ♡

Being overwhelmed by fear, making the wrong choices and then feeling tired all over. I know, I know I shouldn't. I just can feel the breath of my enemies on the back of my neck and when I dream, it all comes back, every time. I just want to be safely away. I guess all my frantic efforts to do that really are just me taking one step forward and two steps backwards. Can you blame me? I'm afraid. I feel like this temporary bliss is fragile. I'm prone to catastrophic thinking.
I know how much can change within a week, so I shouldn't be thinking so far into the future. I think I should cling onto the other dream that I had and trust it will all work out.

nah, don't go into it with the mindset of you shouldn't be feeling these things. that is not the right way to approach emotions and you're only disregarding yourself. it does often feel like it's one step forward and two steps backwards, but one day you'll do a leap and be so proud of yourself. you can't plan the future, you can't expect anything from the future. i watched this one video of jessie j and it honestly shook me to the core; she was basically saying your life is already written out for you. you can't change what happens in the future because it's already planned. you can't control it. but what you can control is how you react to the situation.

take every day as it comes. the famous saying "it is what it is" is popular for a reason. it's so difficult, and one hundred percent easier said than done. however, approaching situations with a different mindset can help you confront some situations easier and take it as a learning lesson. your life is controlled by your mindset. so... for example, say your day is going awful and you ripped your favourite jumper. you just want to cry or scream or just punch something. instead of doing all that, you can just take a step back, breath and think "this is a minor setback. i can stitch my jumper or buy a new one, but as long as i am grounded and safe, then this does not define my day to be bad in the future." or something like that. or, if you feel yourself feeling negative, think of ten things you can see, five things you can touch, three things you are grateful for, and one thing you can smell. this can help ground you if you're ever feeling depressed or need a slap in the face. you're more than welcome to message me anytime you need to ♡

i'm so tired. so tired of being here. i'm sick and tired of my mom trying to control my life.
i'm sick of her constantly pointing out all of my flaws and insecurities. i'm sick of my whole family treating me like crap for my entire life.
i just want to get out of here. i need to leave this place. but i can't do it on my own. i can't do anything on my own.
if i at least had a job, then maybe i could get out of here. my anxiety makes that impossible though.
i need someone to come and rescue me, to take me somewhere quiet where i can actually feel safe for once.
but instead i just sit here in my room all day every day, alone. that's how it's been for years now. i'm so touch-starved and desperate to be held.
i'm so alone, and there's nothing i can do about it. i never even get the chance to interact with anyone who isn't family.
the few times that i have had the opportunity to make friends, they all ended up leaving. i know it must be my fault.
now even if i got the chance to make new friends, i'd never be able to trust them.
online friendships are difficult for me too. when i meet someone who actually makes me feel safe and loved, they always end up being driven away by my clinginess.
i always try so hard to just. be normal. and have normal social interactions. but i can't do it. i can't change myself.
on top of that, i've been rejected by every crush i've ever had, and nobody's ever had feelings for me (to my knowledge). which makes me feel like a total loser.
since i have no luck with friendships or romantic relationships, and i also need something to distract myself from my god awful family, i mostly just spend all of my time daydreaming
about fictional characters to make myself feel less lonely. it doesn't really help, but i like to pretend that it does.
i don't want to live this way forever. unfortunately, no matter how hard i try, nothing ever changes. i don't know what to do anymore.
i'd give anything for someone to just save me from this place and take my pain away. i want to feel loved and cared for. i want to feel safe.
i have nothing to live for. i have nobody to live for. i want this to be over.

hiya, firstly i just want to say i'm so sorry your mom continuously puts you down and comments on your insecurities. there is no excuse for people like that except for the fact they are unhappy with their own lives. right, your anxiety doesn't make it impossible. you're allowing your anxiety to make it impossible. there are plenty of jobs out there that can either a) help your anxiety or b) put you in situations where you don't have to really communicate with people. dog walking, mowing lawns, or even better: working in a library. you may feel like its boring.. but a library. seriously? it's a place you're not really meant to talk. the worst conversation is someone asking where a specific book genre is.

friends leaving is no ones fault. friends are either permanent or temporary, and you can't tell which one they are until it happens. friends come and go in our lives to teach us a lesson. they are there to help us grow and show us those good people are out there. do not put the blame on yourself; it's not a healthy mindset. you can think back and ponder, but also remember the good times and take note of them. take them as a learning lesson.

you don't need to change yourself, and it hurts knowing that that is how you think situations need to be approached. you aren't a total loser either. half the time, people keep their crushes secret. this isn't the third grade, this is real life. relationships often times just come natural, and if you shut people out it won't come naturally. the only time i know relationships to not be natural is when they occur from online dating apps as you're purposefully on there for a reason.

you say no matter how hard you try, but what i've read is that you're shutting down every possible reason with just 'failing' and staying in your room. you need to get out there. if you have a dog, walk him/her. that's sometimes a great way to meet new people. if you really want a job, apply. you never know your ability until it's happened. i can help you loads with anxiety tips (this is coming from someone that had panic attacks daily, to the point i was throwing up uncontrollably). it can be overcome, it takes a lot of patience and strength and i'd love to help you out. i'm obviously not a professional or a doctor or whatever, but from my past experiences i can help. i'm not sure which country you're based in, but rescue remedy is an amazing anxiety remedy that i used to use. it may be good for you to use.

it's a dog eat dog world out there. to have people love and care for you, you need to love and care for yourself. you can't expect someone to love you when all you do is talk negatively about yourself. talking negatively attracts negativity. reading back on this response, i'm not sure if any of it seemed harsh but as much as i love responding to people, there's no point 'beating round the bush' and offering advice and words that won't help. i know no one asks for my help, but also i don't want people to feel as though they're alone. you're more than welcome to contact me through cs, through discord (fika.#0420) or through my tumblr (linked at the bottom of this post). i'm here for you ♡

• wow, good job, milo. it's been thirteen hours of your "break", and you're already back to come crying to the comfort corner...god, i'm pathetic.
  i'm fragile; everyone knows it. my therapist knows it, my parents know it, hell, even people who i've never even spoken with know it. so when i get rejected, i handle it in one of two ways. the first is that i get angry. i yell and scream and do other heinous things i'm too embarrassed to admit on a kid's pet collecting website. the point is, everyone knows to stay out of my way. the second is that i give up. i just,, stop trying. most of the time this involves leaning on the one friend who has stuck with me through every angry outburst and every depressive episode: my bed. god, when the screams of rejection are ringing in your ears, there's nothing quite like pulling the covers up to your chin and turning your back to the world. this time, i've definitely given up. sure, today isn't over yet; there's still a (albeit small) chance that i could get it at some point before midnight tonight. however, there's this feeling in my bones, the kind that tells you to board up your windows when the sky's just barely turning grey. i can feel the hurricane coming, and i'm doing what i need to do to survive. the hurricane isn't the problem; it's what i do after. the thought of trying this process all over again, of suffering through the anxiety and the pain only to get hit by another storm, just seems pointless and cruel. but what am i supposed to do? do nothing with my life and fully become the person my family knows me to be? i want to be better, to be someone i can be proud of, but being better is just too damn hard.

nope, not pathetic. you're human. rejection is just a natural way of life, and being sensitive is a completely normal way of life (in fact i discussed something earlier to tokoyami if you wanna read that response!). i don't think your reaction is unnatural or strange or pathetic. life is throwing everything wrong at us at the moment, but at the end of the day we will come out of it stronger than ever. i think you need to be proud of you, yourself and who you are. at the end of the day, it is you that is consistently by your side throughout your entire life.

message me on discord (fika.#0420) or on chicken smoothie if you want, i'm here for you. take each rejection as a learning lesson. it's easier said than done, and i feel like a priest constantly grinding this in every response, but mindset is everything. you're automatically allowed to feel angry and sad and annoyed and want to shut yourself off from the world. but when you feel like that, ground yourself. think of ten things you can see, five things you can touch, three things you are grateful for, and one thing you can smell. this can help ground you if you're ever feeling depressed or need a slap in the face.

start asking yourself questions. why have you actually acted this way? sure, you've been rejected, but what are you gaining from this reaction apart from temporary relief? how can you change your mindset to see this as a learning curve? if you're in a depressive episode, ask yourself this question: what is one thing that will make my environment more comfortable? if you want to stay in your room, do that boo. it won't cure your mental health, of course it won't. however, it'll help you feel more in control of your feelings and you'll feel more comfortable in your surroundings.

i'm here for you, please don't ever forget that ♡

whoo, not me at 5:45am trying to fall asleep on the floor in a face mask in my grandmas room because I had a fever cause of a breakdown and my parents are treating me like i have the virus now.
Meanwhile I dont even have a bedroom rn so im forced to stay in the floor in my grandma's room cause it the only place i can sleep. I'm not even sure if this is safe for me cause I already have breathing problems (severe asthma) so that's not gonna help much. (I know the masks don't really impair breathing normally but i'm just worried cause i dont think you're supposed to sleep in them.) I've already had the virus once, and i feel nothing like I did then. I understand that they're just trying to make sure everyone's safe, but c'mon, im sleeping on the floor in a face mask.

Wish me luck

your parents are taking the best precaution and to be honest i can't say that i blame them. although, they could definitely treat you more like a human. and if you're the only person in the room, can you not take the mask off? the virus if you have had it previously has helped build antibodies to fight it; just because you don't feel nearly as bad doesn't mean you don't have it. my brothers girlfriends father had the virus once, and he was in hospital with it. he's an NHS worker in a care home so has regular tests. last month he got tested again and he had it for the second time round, but he had absolutely zero symptoms. just because you don't feel as bad, doesn't mean it won't affect someone else.

at least it's a temporary thing : ( i hope you're doing okay and get some sleep eventually. sending you all my luck ♡

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if you ever feel down or need a shoulder to cry on, my inbox is open. i have gathered links to help everyone when they need a distraction or are feeling low:

to help you smile:
list of little things - list of little things to help make you smile and be happy
smile things - cute colours and tumblr page to help you out
adorable - basically another tumblr that does the same as the ones above

to help you with anything else / distractions:
emergency compliments - if you ever feel poo, and nothing seems to cheer you up, this site is full of 'emergency compliments' which can make you laugh at how ridiculously brilliant they are.
casanova - where you stretch the giraffes neck to kiss other giraffes - like a soothing video game.
thunderstorms - control them!<3
how to change your life - just read it. it's amazing. too good.
player two - if you're feeling hurt or upset, visit here. it's a game. it's good.
koalas - if you're in need of a distraction that lasts a good five minutes, play this. it's fun, and if you love koalas it's even better!
stick man game - good distraction with a hopefuly message i made at the end!
random acts of kindness (video) - may make you feel all warm and gooey at how kind people are
list of things for those having a bad day!
quiet place project - one of my favourite places <3
comfort box - i highly recommend looking at this because it's the most amazing idea i've ever seen
ground box - similar to the one above

to help you with panic attacks:
i have loads of things that can help with your anxiety and panic attacks.

facts !!!!:
what not to say !!! - to someone who is having a panic attack, do not say these things

HERE IS SOME UPLIFTING NEWS IN THE TIMES OF THE BAD
'karunavirus'
'reddit'
'positivenews'
'huffpost'
'culture'


TUMBLR
i made a tumblr a few years ago, but just recently remembered my log in details. i hope to start using it again.

[grey matter]

• wow, good job, milo. it's been thirteen hours of your "break", and you're already back to come crying to the comfort corner...god, i'm pathetic.
  i'm fragile; everyone knows it. my therapist knows it, my parents know it, hell, even people who i've never even spoken with know it. so when i get rejected, i handle it in one of two ways. the first is that i get angry. i yell and scream and do other heinous things i'm too embarrassed to admit on a kid's pet collecting website. the point is, everyone knows to stay out of my way. the second is that i give up. i just,, stop trying. most of the time this involves leaning on the one friend who has stuck with me through every angry outburst and every depressive episode: my bed. god, when the screams of rejection are ringing in your ears, there's nothing quite like pulling the covers up to your chin and turning your back to the world. this time, i've definitely given up. sure, today isn't over yet; there's still a (albeit small) chance that i could get it at some point before midnight tonight. however, there's this feeling in my bones, the kind that tells you to board up your windows when the sky's just barely turning grey. i can feel the hurricane coming, and i'm doing what i need to do to survive. the hurricane isn't the problem; it's what i do after. the thought of trying this process all over again, of suffering through the anxiety and the pain only to get hit by another storm, just seems pointless and cruel. but what am i supposed to do? do nothing with my life and fully become the person my family knows me to be? i want to be better, to be someone i can be proud of, but being better is just too damn hard.

hey, milo. i would've responded over pm but this brought something to my attention and i thought i should bring it up - have you considered it could be Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (unrelated to any form of gender dysphoria)? It's common in ADHD people, but this sounds like it's awfully similar. It's also apparently common in other groups of people, so I'll just drop this link here. See if this resonates with you, and maybe bring it up with your therapist by name? It might get you somewhere.
I wish you luck, dear companion. Don't think I'm diagnosing you, but finding something that resonates could help you make progress.
https://www.webmd.com/add-adhd/rejectio ... -dysphoria

[yharnam boy]

• wow, good job, milo. it's been thirteen hours of your "break", and you're already back to come crying to the comfort corner...god, i'm pathetic.
  i'm fragile; everyone knows it. my therapist knows it, my parents know it, hell, even people who i've never even spoken with know it. so when i get rejected, i handle it in one of two ways. the first is that i get angry. i yell and scream and do other heinous things i'm too embarrassed to admit on a kid's pet collecting website. the point is, everyone knows to stay out of my way. the second is that i give up. i just,, stop trying. most of the time this involves leaning on the one friend who has stuck with me through every angry outburst and every depressive episode: my bed. god, when the screams of rejection are ringing in your ears, there's nothing quite like pulling the covers up to your chin and turning your back to the world. this time, i've definitely given up. sure, today isn't over yet; there's still a (albeit small) chance that i could get it at some point before midnight tonight. however, there's this feeling in my bones, the kind that tells you to board up your windows when the sky's just barely turning grey. i can feel the hurricane coming, and i'm doing what i need to do to survive. the hurricane isn't the problem; it's what i do after. the thought of trying this process all over again, of suffering through the anxiety and the pain only to get hit by another storm, just seems pointless and cruel. but what am i supposed to do? do nothing with my life and fully become the person my family knows me to be? i want to be better, to be someone i can be proud of, but being better is just too damn hard.

hey, milo. i would've responded over pm but this brought something to my attention and i thought i should bring it up - have you considered it could be Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (unrelated to any form of gender dysphoria)? It's common in ADHD people, but this sounds like it's awfully similar. It's also apparently common in other groups of people, so I'll just drop this link here. See if this resonates with you, and maybe bring it up with your therapist by name? It might get you somewhere.
I wish you luck, dear companion. Don't think I'm diagnosing you, but finding something that resonates could help you make progress.
https://www.webmd.com/add-adhd/rejectio ... -dysphoria

I have that, pretty severely, so I can agree on that it very much sounds like that.

[☠puppy gutz!☠]

my boyfriend insists hes not abusing me and that im the bad guy and im scared because hes acting like im a monster for not trusting him anymore. he even admitted abuse by neglect is real and thats what i feel like hes doing but he denied it. and said im the monster. for being cold because i feel abused.

[darkravenrose]

Having covid sucks. Thankfully I only got mild symptoms but I've been sick since my birthday which was January 1st and I lost my voice. Plus I'm quarantined in a large house by myself. I feel stir crazy and I can't talk to anyone because I sound like a dog toy. Like c'mon 2021...
Thanks for listening! 😊💞✌