TheComfortCorner | V.8

[kxLJM]

honestly, i feel so lonely.
it'd really just be nice to have a friend.
like don't get me wrong, i have my boyfriend and i love spending time with him but it's like once he came into my life all my friends just cut me off.
it would be nice to have another person to talk to that i can trust, that won't talk bad about me behind my back like all my "best friend" did or won't gang up with my sister to verbally attack me/my boyfriend. and i honestly don't get what they have have against him bc even after being treated so badly by them, he tries so hard to get along with them and is nothing but nice to them.

& i technically do have more than just him to talk to,
his gaming friends pretty much accepted me as part of them without any hesitation but they're all guys, and idk, it would just be nice to have another girl to talk to? to do girl stuff with? and plus i rarely even have time to even play any of my games so my relationship w his friends isn't very strong other than with like 1 or 2 of them, and it sucks bc they all care about me more than my bestf ever did.

idk i just think too much and it makes me sad that i don't have any friends when it comes down to it and it would just be nice to have some else there when my boyfriend can't/doesnt understand and/or relate to my problems. like he tries his hardest to relate to and understand my problems but he just doesn't sometimes. i dunno, it would just be nice to have a girl that's a friend, that i could actually trust bc it seems like everyone ive ever befriended has just stabbed me in the back.

[Lush]

I told my friend that tracing art that isn't her's is not okay unless she gets permission from the original artist and she just yelled at me and is treating me like absolute garbage. Thanks, let's make my depression worse. I really need some comforting...

[Lies With Needs]

I feel gross all the time other than when I’m in very strange makeup or whatever that feels nice on me but everytime i show my s/o the looks they just laugh and I feel really ashamed.... and I just?? I have very low self-esteem.

[rover]

my family went to a restaurant today
grandpa was in a good mood for once (his mood is really up and down because he is senile)
he was smiling and laughing, which is rare
i was happy about it
but when he got up from his chair to go
he fell
i knew he was falling
i could see him slowly leaning backwards because he can’t balance himself anymore
i could have caught him, i really could have
or at least cushioned his fall with my own body
but i didn’t
i was frozen there
i’m so upset that i didn’t move
why didn’t i move?
i didn’t even make a sound
or yell out at my sisters to help catch him
i feel so much regret, i kept cursing myself on the way back home
that’s the second time he fell in front of me
his health is ailing, my grandpa seems so fragile
i wish i could have caught him
it made me upset that my family laughed secretly about it behind his back
and grandpa snapped at us, yelled the loudest i’ve heard him yell
my sisters didn’t bother to catch him either
even though they were the closest to him
not even 2 feet away
but they didn’t move either
they asked grandpa if he was okay
but
i could tell they were saying it just to be polite
i know their ways
they take advantage of our grandparents
to get what they want
money
clothes
items
everything they want
it makes me angry
i don’t want to blame them but a secret part of me does
i know he doesn’t have much time left
i want to at least help him have a better life
while he is here

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grandpa scares me
he yells a lot
and drinks, drinks so much
i’m scared to go against him
so i do what he wants, give him what he wants
i give him his drinks when he demands it, even though i know i shouldn’t
i’m scared of his cane, what if he hits me
he almost hit me once, it frightens me
he watches me do my work
one time he watched me for two hours
i’m scared to even erase
because he might yell at me, that i did it incorrectly
i’m scared to even, for a moment, stop writing/typing
so i pretend to write, i pretend to work while i’m actually thinking
i’m afraid to disappoint him
i sit in a posture that hurts my back terribly
because i don’t want him to get angry at me
for having bad posture
because he yelled at my sister for it
no, i don’t hate him
i never really knew him, i can’t say i love him either
he just scares me
that’s all

[shihara]

someone tell my racist trump supporting drug addict i'm forced to call mom that getting african style tribal cornrows, as a white person, at 50 is not a good idea and that people will generally be mad because she isn't listening and i'm losing my patience

[Kittycentral~]

another relapse. I feel so sick. and disappointed. and I can’t pinpoint why I’m posting. ;;
to those that stubble across this by chance: I hope things are going smoothly for you, and I hope have a wonderful day/night. <3

[Faker]

[caesou]

what if i'm too overwhelming?

[halo7]

my dad won't stop yelling.
he told my sister to shut up.
he called my mom annoying.
he keeps hitting my puppy.
he said i'm not his son.
and i don't have anyone to hold me
or tell me that it's okay
because i told all my friends i hate them.
i'm just like him.
i'm awful.
i can't even cry
or he'll call me a crybaby
and he'll tell me to shut up
and make fun of my crying voice
and my crying face.
it's all my fault.
i should've been a better kid for him.
i'm
sorry
dad.

[the folly of man]

school
is
not
okay


what am I even worried about?? it's really chill homeschool??
why am I rocking back and forth?????
it's
home
school
??

I need people to talk to so my anxiety doesn't kill me to death ;-;
please I'm lonely