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[sillies]

why is anything i say not believable

no i did not leave work early because i wanted to see my boyfriend, i left when it was time for me to clock out.
yes I love my boyfriend, but he would never tell me to leave work early just to spend more time with him. I left
work today when i was supposed to. no sooner. yes i went to see my boyfriend and spend time with him but again,
i would never leave early.

but alas, why would you believe me?

[Atlas ♥]

Not too sure where to begin.. This may sound doltish and a waste of time to read, so feel free to skip past it.

I’ve been watching a lot of movies and documentaries based around war and crime and it’s genuinely so heart-rending? Seeing people go through certain situations is tremendously awful. I understand these movies are not real but most of them are based on true stories, which makes it sadder.

I wish our world would just stop for one minute and reflect.. We don’t need war, we need peace. Violence is never going to solve anything, it’s just going to seperate us even more and fill people with hated. We need to learn to accept others no matter gender, religion, and race.

It not only makes me depressed but indignant. Why our world is like this? I wish it would stop. I wish I could rewind time and see where things went wrong.. This isn’t fair on the people who are trying to ameliorate the world (despite how unpleasant everything has become).

One day we will all look back and regret everything.
Ugh, I’m such a deep thinker.. Ignore my rambling.

[coppercanary]

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I had four teeth taken out two days ago and my mouth still hurts. Two more teeth are being taken out on Wednesday, two other teeth are impacted, and another two teeth might have to be taken out via surgery. I never knew that getting braces could be so painful- the anaesthetic jabs really hurt.
My x-ray also showed that I have wisdom teeth growing through, so they will most likely have to be taken out as well.
So many teeth...

[cornspurrd.]

hey i'm that dumb kid who can't handle living so i walk around with a dog everywhere! So pathetic i Know :))) Wish I could FRREAKING FunCTION NORmALLY to all you idiots who bring their dogs in fake service dog vests everywhere for fun
ITS NOT FUN HAVING A DOG GLUED TO YOUR SIDE
but I can't change that because he gives me my independence.
I love him
But i wish i didn't need him.

[cherrykun]

I really like this one guy called Ben, so I told my friend about it. Teachers and parents and preachers always, uh, preach, the same thing -- friends listen to what you have to say and they don't spread rumors or embarrass you. Not in this case. 5 days ago at lunch my and my friends were sitting together. Ben and his gang were at the table in front of us. My friend screamed at him, BEN!!! AG HAS SOMETHING TO SAY TO YOU!!! and I was sitting there like, wut?? Ben turned around and stared at me like I was an idiot. My friend then whispered in a sugar-coated tone, go say hi! I looked at Ben and waved. Putting an annoyed look on his face, Ben turned around back to his table. His friends acted like nothing had happened.

Now, i'm just really depressed. I ask to go to the nurse's office just to lay down and not see anyone's face. The nurse assistant, whom desk faces the window unveiling the cot room, is nervous about my mentality. She sees me karate-chopping the air while staring into space. It's because I control myself that way. Hitting thin air. While (I think) nobody is looking. When someone is looking, I flinch briskly. My head pounds, and I don't know what to do. Please save me,

[Silverfang]

I have other far more negative things happening but I'm just angry at myself right now on CS. I see I have trades but I'm too anxious to look at them. It's stupid i know... happens with emails too. Anxiety is absurd and I hate how it controls my internet life too. Makes me look like I'm ignoring others.

[Guest]

just tired of boys.

and people.

[onion]

got denied for social security benefits for the second time :) yay :) haha :)

[connoisseur]

My head is pounding.

I've been struggling with my lack of focus and attention. I'm known to have a short attention span in my family and basically where ever I go. I can't fully focus on something unless it requires me to engage in it. That's why I'm always playing stupid rhytmn games or reading things on my laptop or phone. Or at times I get too invested into my schoolwork that I end up being late to other classes for not noticing time passing. Even during lectures, I space out. I know that's generally normal for everyone, but I don't WANT to space out. My vision gets blurry and my focus is gone, and I try to rapidly blink, and when my eyesight adjusts everything tunes out again, my hearing goes muffled and I have to put my head down so I don't look weird during an episode. This doesn't just happen during class either. It happens when people are talking to me and even me trying to talk to someone. When people ask if I was listening I joke around and say something stupid like "Sorry I heard God's call, Jesus speaks to me," and they laugh it off. But I feel awful afterwards and it's basically a struggle to not... like.. drift away from reality. When I study, it takes me hours because for every four minutes I spent looking at a chemistry equation, I spend fifteen doing something totally unrelated just because my head aches for those four minutes of paying attention. And of course, when people explain something to me and they ask if I understand, and I say my head hurts they think I'm joking. Probably because I joke about these things alot.

I want to talk to my legal guardian about it, but I feel like she wouldn't take me seriously. She'd just say something to dismiss it and I know I'll feel even more worse than I already do now. I've told my mother before about my issues and she promised to take me to a doctor or something, but that was... three or four years ago? Things have gotten so much worse since then.

[2246]

what have i done