by apollo. » Fri Aug 01, 2014 1:26 pm
My mom is annoying me to death, along with the fact I feel like I can't do anything right any more.
One time when I was making my lunch for school she corrected me 5 times, and wouldn't just leave me alone, she always hovers over me and points out everything I do wrong.
I've told her that I felt like she was pointing everything I do wrong, and she yelled at me "would I rather she let me make mistakes etc. etc." in truth, yes I would really rather just figure everything out for myself, I'm independent, and always have been.
It's gotten to the point where I avoid her in the house, and if she's upstairs I'll put off making food, doing my hair or basically anything so she wont criticize me. I was on the computer, and she literally shoved her face in front of mine, and looked at what I was doing. It's not like I'm doing anything bad, but still I don't like her judging me.
Along with that, I have no real skills, and I just feel like I can't do anything right. Literally I tried for about a half an hour to do a messy bun. That's like the easiest thing ever, and I managed to mess it up. I can't do anything with my hair, I can't do my makeup, I'm not good at any sports, I'm not that smart in school, I'm lazy, and sarcastic and grumpy all the time and I mess up everything.
Lately I've gotten into hair and makeup, and girly things, when I used to be completely opposed to that stuff, and my family glares at me and judges me every time I do stuff like that, but I like it now, and I want to try it out. I wish they would just let me be me...