Dear ________,
I'm going to let it gush.
I really hate when you moved to that other lunch table. Was it because of me,or ____? She kinda tags along with me,and I don't mind. She's deaf though. Does that bother you?
Anyways back to the lunch table.
You and ----- and ------ are all sitting and laughing and having an excellent time. And here I am,sitting with ____ the food stealer and ---- the deaf and ---- and ------ and ---- who loves me and ***** who smells. You're so happy. Your table is too crowded. Now,I sit alone. At the loser's table. No one likes me. Yes. Ignore the short girl who was the maturity level of about a six year old. I feel horrible,left out,and alone.
At Movie Night. You ignored me. I was two feet away,and asked you a question. You pretended I wan't even there. We used to be such good friends. I don't really have friends,who invite me to do stuff,hang out with me. That's my mom. No one else. Not me. Why do you ignore me? Now that you want to date -----,I'm literally nothing. You have 0 competition to get him. I don't want to date him. We're not acquaintances,but not friends either. So what am I? A roadblock in the boulevard of love?
You hurt me so much. I don't have anyone I can trust with ANYTHING. ___ would tell. ______ would laugh. ________ would make duck noises. I am truly friendless. I don't want to talk to ____. She's nice and we hang out and stuff,but she doesn't seem interested in what I do. I can't trust my parents or anyone. No one. Anyone I know who I would tell my secret to would take me to a counselor,and run.
Here's a poem I wrote a long time ago about my emotions.
You made me burn,down the the last glowing ember.
Hide in what I've got.
And you stood there.
And turned away.
You made me cry all my last tears until I burned again.
I will never go back into a full flame.
Roaring,hissing,and leaping higher and higher.
And again,you turned away.
I am gone now.
Lost in this horrible place we call earth.
Many boots tread upon me.
And I am nothing left but a wisp of smoke,rising to the heavens.
That's how I feel.
Horrible.
Ignored.
Unimportant.
Sad.
Dead.
Heartless.
Friendless.
Maybe not your friend anymore,
~E