Write a Letter You Cannot Send

[waitingonhope]

Dear ______,
You said that you truly loved me. Now you've moved on to another girl. You said you stole my heart, you really did. I hope you're happy. I'll never be happy again. Nick truly loves me now. I'm doing the best I can to move on. Just remember that when you go to hell.
-Your future torturer

Dear Lucy,
I can't do anything without your comforting, why did you have to commit suicide because of him? You should have told me, I would have happily died with you. Don't worry, I love you sis. I'll meet you in heaven.
-Little sis by just a bit

Yup, I have a pretty sad life. I have way more, but either they're too painful for me to type, or they're too inappropriate..
I have 2 last ones though.

Dear Nick,
Thank you for your understanding. You know I will love you much more than _____. I knew you were the one for me since the beginning, but ____ had to show up and **** ** *** **** ***. (sorry... painful barrier there). Please forgive me.
-Your true lover

and last but not least....

Dear Kony,
Please glue your butt on a huge blinking bright sign so we can find you and pull out your too-red eyeballs.
Thank you
-Peacekeeper

I would appreciate if you guys wouldn't pm me to grieve for me... I am trying so hard to FORGET!

[Mudwiggles]

To Myself.

Stop being so ridiculous. You're allowed to wallow in your own insignificant teenage problems from time to time. Most people do it in public, or constantly over FB. You don't normally, so do it here. In the comfort of strangers, strangers with problems that might be along the lines of yours.
So...
Do you want this or not? Stop being so indesicive, stop screwing around, and get your head straight.
Do you want this? This is your choice. Stop answering questions from other people, stop dithering around. Chances are, no matter what you do here, you're gonna hurt someone. Either yourself or someone who possibly loves you. You can't do anything about that.
Or maybe not? Maybe this will all work out nicely for a while? Who knows.
But seriously, get it together. That's what you tell everyone else. So do it yourself, for once? Stop being so stupid, so ridiculously teenager-ey stupid and get it together.
Do you want this or not? Do what R___ did.
Try it out. Try it out, and if you don't like it, it's easy to get out. Just say no, don't plot intricate plans, etc.

Lots of luck and love, from N___.

(Oh, and by the way, if you do want this - don't let S_____a get in the way. Let nobody get in the way, but be especially wary of her. She's obviously going to try 'help out.'
Don't let her. This is YOUR thing, not hers, no matter how much she thinks it is. You know what she did last time and you know what she's like. Don't let her take this over, under all circumstances.
Oh, and do your Japanese homework. Sitting here isn't memorizing your speech, N.)

[chewnicorn]

Dear Life,

I feel like I'm being left out of these big bubble of secrets
Lies
And much more
Though it's not always best to have one of those
It doesn't feel right
I know two people on the verge of cutting themselves
and know 2 others who do
After everyone else found out.
I mean, _____ told Al___ R____ As___ and a bunch of other people
And they have been whispering about it everywhere at anytime
Why?
I will rant on this more later...

Rocky158

[bearcups]

Dear Marouk,

I don't know why I wouldn't send this to you. I suppose it's because everyone, and I mean everyone, on here that I get close to, that I give my most valuable things to, that I get attached to, leaves me at some point and I don't want to scare you away early.

I love you. I wish I had paid more attention to what you were doing - I could of literally given you an entire 2011 collection. Lord knows I don't collect anymore - I'm trying to get dream pets now, complete my dream goal, then I'll be satisfied.

You don't know this, but when I'm feeling particularly down, when I've forgotten to take my antidepressants of they're wearing off but it's not quite time to take another, I almost always message you. Other times I resort to less...happy measures, but most of the time I talk to you. I don't know what it is about you that makes me so happy, you just do.

Could be how you've never judged me, or how you've never taken advantage of our friendship. Maybe because you've not left me alone, waiting to talk. Maybe it's your bubbly personality. You always sound so happy - how do you do it? Even when you're sad there's still an element of happiness / humour in your words.

Honestly, you're one of the best things that's happened to me on here. I don't care about my Sunjewel, noncoon, or my BA. I had to work hard for them and I still regret (I love them, but y'know.) giving up stupid things for them. I didn't have to give up anything to speak with you.

I dont know. Maybe I'm just being weird and sentimental, maybe I'm hormonal or maybe Im just so glad we're friends. <3

Yours,

aeiou.

>> ps; when I said I'd miss you this weekend, I will. Next week, too. <<

[black.wolf]

Hey Bastian,
it is more than three months now since you died. somtimes I still get very sad, when I have to pass the place where the acident happened this night or when I watch TV and they show pictures of car accidents, the day before yesterday Inearla cried. Sometimes it´s just there without warning- then I feel the pain, my heart hurts. But all in all it´s ok now... somebody said, you´ll never understand it, but you´ll accept it. Nothing could bring you back. But the worst thing is that I always imagine, what it wuld feel like, if a friend of mine died, I mean, I didn´t really know you, and even for you, nearly a stranger, I´m crying at night and spending a lot time of thinking about death. But what would I do, if my best freind, my stepsister or my father died, could I take this?

I don´t know. That´s the point. That´s what´s keeping me busy thinking about it. One time, days will come when I have to manage these things, there´s no living without dying.

elena

[flutterby.]

Dear 'friends' (classenemies, not classmates)

You've been talking behind my back for two years now. You finally made me realise what you are today, though, you remember? When you called me all those things? Yes?

I can't say I'm sorry that I shouted at you in form time, made mental notes to myself saying 'I can't slap her, I'll look bad'. You make me feel like dirt everyday, can't you let me do that to you for one day, one minute even?

I didn't write any of your names on the 'I'd like to be with you...' form for our classes this year. I wrote Sessle* and Mimage*. I'm not ashamed to say that, the opposite in fact. I hate you. I actually hate you.

From ~ b e r t l e ~, your much emotionally-abused friend person.
{* codewords - they know who they are}

[meowool]

dear demented ginger carrot

stop making mountains out of molehills.
danke und haben eine gute Östern!

the spasticated chicken.

[Sansa Stark]

Dear ___,

I feel like were not as good of firends anymore, and that your always ignoring me. I remember when we would laugh and have fun all the time, what happened? You never laugh around me anymore, your always pointing out things I do wrong, and making me feel bad. You talk behind my back, and I know you do. Do you know I've cried? I've cried a lot. It would make me really happy if you'd stop ignoring me, or are you ditching me because I'm not as popular?

The very sad and confused,

Butter

[azazel.]

Dear Catie,

You need to stop blaming yourself for my problems, my little love. I'm fine. I'm just going through some stuff. My arm's condition has nothing to do with you, nor how you treat me, which is so much better than I diserve. You're so sweet to me, and just the thought of you makes my heart race. I feel us drifting a little though... In this short time. I will fix this. Because I love you too much to have this end now.

Brooklynn.

[chewnicorn]

Dear ______,

Woah
Split-personalities much?
You rant on about how much you hate that ___B__ tells everyone everything about you
When ___B___ had the exact same situation with her because of you
Then you ask to help ___B____?
How does that process in your brain?
No offense, of course
It's just you are kind of being a hypocrite
Now it's time for you to get the short end of the stick
To feel the heat...
To step into the fire
Can you make it out of the flames?

Rocky158