by CatGracelyn » Sun Mar 25, 2012 8:25 am
Dear Gracelyn,
I watched as the rain came. I watched as the pain came. I watched as the rain went, and I waited for the pain to do the same. But no, the pain stayed. They said it would get easier, that the pain would start to ease off, that we would move on. They lied. It's been a three months since the accident, and the pain still remains. Lingering in the air, lurking in the shadows. Waiting, just waiting, for my weakest moments, where it sweeps in to break me down and swallow up my life. Like an overwhelming black wave it crashes down on me. I am overwhelmed. But the worst part is that I am alone, though I still find myself calling her phone when I need a ride only to be reminded that it was disconnected. I find myself calling out to her in the dark when I wake from another restless sleep," Gracie? Grace?" Only for it to echo back to me in the dark. So no it doesn't get easier, those liars. You weren’t supposed to go yet and I hate you for it. But not for leaving. No, I hate you for leaving me behind. I mean what the heck was that all about, what’s your problem. You abandoned me, just like mom. You promised me you would never be like mom, ever! You lied to me. And the worst part is; I think you lied about other things too, but I love you and would forgive everything if you would come back. I love you, I hate you
I am Lost without you,
C.B