Write a Letter You Cannot Send

[RequiemMass]

Dear Little 'Sister'

I know how much you hate the nickname even though you are a guy and the nickname really doesn't suit but its my little special way to let you know I care for you. You are one of my favorite guy friends out of a handful, so please feel special when I call you my Little 'Sister' instead of 'Brother'. I guess this letter that I will never send to you is trying to explain my reason why I left again. Its cause of her. Part of it has to do with the past but mostly it has to do with now. She hasn't changed from a year, I know, I watch. What you have told me before I left lets me know deep down my thoughts on her are leading to be correct. Not only that but when I saw her with you at the restaurant you were quiet and meek. That isn't like you. WHY CAN' YOU SEE THAT!? You know everyone that sees you in town with her calls her a W*****? Oh wait, you do know cause I had to tell you. Yet you wish you didn't hear it cause as you say 'Ignorance is Bliss'. Is that so? Fine. Believe what you want but fecal matter is going to hit the ceiling appliance if you don't break up with her soon. I left again because that was the best thing I can do for you. You had a fight with her because she wouldn't allow you hang out with me? She was afraid I was going to be a home-wrecker? I have my own boyfriend thank you very much. I wouldn't stoop so low to get back at her, besides, what karma has in stored for her will be ten times worse then anything I can think of. My Little Sister, please see this action as to being the best friend as I can be. If it makes you happy to be with her despite what everyone else says around you? Fine. Go ahead. If it makes you less stress if your girlfriend is not freaking about me? Fine, I'll leave once more. I am so sorry it had to come to this. I know you can make your own choices but I couldn't bare you pick her over me. I was your friend before she was even your girlfriend. Does the memories we have together matter at all to you? I guess not. I hope your happy with your choice and with mine. Lets see what the outcome has in store for us.

Love
Your Big Sister|Best Friend|The Sacrifice




Dear Boyfriend

Man, I love you a lot but really!? I was having a bad day telling you why I had to cut ties with my Little Sister once more and all you can do was dispute my choice? I came to you thinking you would listen. I guess not. I got upset with you cause you wouldn't listen and you got upset with me cause I wouldn't listen. Its a vicious cycle and I broke it by saying I was sorry and telling you I still loved you regardless of our petty differences on the matter. Your response? A feebly 'Night' and nothing more. How. Dare. You.
By the way the text asking 'If you want to still be with me' is making me lose hope in this relationship. I have been with you for a year and still you have not learned that I still want to be with you regardless if I get mad or not. Despite the good times and the bad. I love you but why do I have this fear that if I fight with you, you're going to break up with me? This isn't right.

Love
Your Girlfriend?

[JerseyDusk]

Boy,

We are growing apart. One year difference and it feels like you've changed so much. I feel like you think you know me soooo well. But I'm not sure that's the case. If you knew me super well you would know that I like my space, to have time by myself or with my girls. But I also like time with you, just talking catching up on our different ends of the world. And you would know that despite the space I want, I also want someone to catch me before I fall, to be there, to even look at me everyday. Now I really don't know about us, I believe I learned the hard way not to throw 'I love you' around. I don't know if I should break us off or not, I don't know if after this minor storm cloud clears up that maybe I'll need you. Right now, breaking it off seems a good answer and the right one?

-The girl your dating. You know the one who's locker you walk past everyday between 5&6 hour?

C,

I'm confused. I'm dating but I think I'm starting to like you, more than a friend. But I don't know if it's just because he won't even seem to look at me. And what he told me last night, I'm finding it hard to get past that. PLease stay smart and stay my friend. And I'm still sorry that I don't think I would date you in the near future. I don't want to risk our friendship. <33

-The girl who sits in front of you in English, and who considers you a very good friend <33

[RequiemMass]

Dear Cancer

I was hesitant to come over your new place cause of a few reasons. 1. You are dating my ex best-friend which by the way, you helped in destroying that relationship cause of jealously and I don't want to be there if she is there. 2. Your pet is coming over and I honestly don't want to cause the roommates discomfort when they see us in a fist fight. 3. Your a jerk when there people around.
I knew deep down I shouldn't have visited after you harassed me and was being mean to me. I can take the jokes, I can take having pillows thrown at me and also I can take being thrown across your shoulders to show off your strength. I tell you to stop but you always respond with 'You secretly like it'. No, I do not. Maybe at one point in time I put up with it cause we were best friends as well as girlfriend & boyfriend but not anymore. I am through with that. However you always prove me wrong in the end. When we were in your bedroom just chatting while you play on your PS3, you showed me some affection like the hug & the small kiss on the forehead. Something I have missed a long time ago. Even still, I am never coming over when your there. I love you as a friend but I draw the line to when you do those mean things to me.

Love,
Requiem


Dear My Malchik gay

I came over to the house where Cancer was so I could see you. Yeah you. I know I told you weeks before he was going to be your room-mate that I was never coming over but I broke that promise. I should have told you. I miss you a lot. I miss how you use to come over and we would fill the house with our singing and our laughter. I miss how in the summer I would always stop by your house and we would watch movies and talk or we go to the Cafe to grab a bite to eat. I guess that all changed when that one night I had to help you escape your parents house. Then you had to live in his place. I remember you told me you would never go back to himbut look, your in a relationship with him again. It hurts when you tell me that you care for me and you tell me that you miss me but then he comes around you guys go off and do what you guys do. Please, stop kissing in front of me. Please, stop telling me you love me when you obviously don't. Please, just stop. I love you a little more than a friend should and I hate it. I am with my boyfriend for a reason. Stop causing these conflicting emotions within me. I hate|love the fact you listen to me. I hate|love the fact we sing amazing together. I hate|love the fact when we are alone & talk about in-depth things. I hate|love the fact you tell me you thought we wouldn't see eachother due to Cancer's move. Just...please stop...

Love
Your Conflicted Friend.

[Temperance.]

Dear Boy,

Why? I've never been able to get you out of my head. Not since we were little kids, barreling about when we went camping together, sharing our secrets, becoming friends, and talking about relationships. Then that summer....when you looked at me differently and I knew it was right and yet wrong. Right because it just seemed we were meant for each other, but wrong because I know how you are with girls. And I'm not going to be the temporary girlfriend, the one who clings pathetically to you, even when you move on within a week. So I pretended not to notice, barely talked about my feelings. And eventually hid them away out of sight. Now I don't know anymore, you still invade my head, still make my heart jump, but what I feel for you...could it be the beginnings of love? Affection yes, deep respect yes, but love? I just don't know, don't WANT to know. Because what if it is? What if you never get your head out of the sand and see how perfect we are for each other? And the Missions trip we're both going on.....I don't want to be distracted by you, I NEED this resolved before July.....but I'm scared, scared to talk and lose everything. Because I'm fairly happy right now. There's even another guy I get along with well who might suit me, so why can't I do anything about it? Why does all of it feel like I'm betraying you somehow? When I know all the girls you've had as "girlfriends". I just don't know. Don't know what to do, and my heart is locked up tight, not helping me either. I guess all I can do is pray you see the light, or that I get the bravery I need to talk with you.

Love, the girl who can't get you out of my head.

[rennix velire]

Dear... You,

You drive me crazy every time you open your mouth. Good crazy, bad crazy. I watch you all day long, I listen to your conversations, I live in your closet and watch you sleep~... *ahem* The point is, I can't get enough of you. And in two days, poor me, will be without you, the guy I've spoken to very rarely in the last six months, but still somehow loves you.

How do you expect me to ask you to even hang out? It's horrible, because we're both introverts. But once again, I am forced to step up. Last time I invited you to the movies, it took me half the class to get up the nerve to speak, and then get my head out of the clouds and start writing that poem!

Oh, and while we're on the subject of poems, I dedicated a song to you. Yeah, that's right. I'm just that awesome.

Love,
Sciklla

[ChocolateFate]

Dear My Most Hated Person On Earth,

Shadow and Silhouette. Remember?
Does that ring a bell?

I cannot control what I cannot control.
So stop hating me for that. Stop hurting me for that. Oh, you didn't know I tried to take my own life? You didn't know I cried myself to sleep for months? You didn't know I know have depression, anxiety, and paranoia? You don't know I'm practically a social recluse? Well know you do.

From, ChocolateFate

[meulin7]

Dear boy,

stop being confusing.

Love,
me.

[SexyAsYourMom]

Dear Q,
Please, start a conversation with me first. I'm too nervous to talk to you. But, the thing is, I can never get you out of my head. And I see you talking to people and think Why can't that be me? Please talk to me. But, you never do. I just need the courage to talk to you. About normal things... Not the weird things my friends come up with when I'm attempting to talk.
~B

[lonely lover]

Dear _________,
I let you read that story. That was the first step... I basically summarized the past night into that. It really surprised me when you said you almost cried.. I didn't think it was that sad, but maybe it was. I can't believe that you would be... THAT understanding. I mean most guys wouldn't be about that. Actually, most people wouldn't be like that. Most people would walk away, or yell, or spread rumors and ignore me. But you're different. You are so nice and sweet and understanding. I just love you to pieces. Never change. <3


~kiwifruit

[oh bother.]

Dear Eggy,
You'll never know how crazy I am for you. I nearly faint each time I see you. I try to make you notice me, but never seem to catch your eye. Everyday you walk down the hallway with me, and all you think is that we're friends. But my heart yearns for so much more.
With Love,
Your Secret Amour.