Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[cad bane]

i didnt mean it

[Mooshidog]

d,

i like you ;;

[Loxo]

Dear D,

I really miss you. We decorated for Christmas and all it did was bring back bittersweet memories. Of course, as I’ve mentioned before, my family keeps bringing you up. I don’t know how they can do it without feeling like they’re getting stabbed.
They’ll say things like, “Hey, remember how much D and S loved the tree?”
They expect me to comment happily, to laugh with them and remember “The Good Times,” but I never can.
I just picture you ailing, in pain, and trying to hide it from us. Those last few days were so rough on me, but they must have been a thousand times harder for you.
I miss you with all my heart, D.
Christmas will never be the same.

[Homecoming King]

dear z,
i really miss being best friends with you. i miss you in general. we were friends for a long time and then we had a really awful falling out. anyway, i miss you, i forgive you, and i love you.

[<<3]

Dear B,
I miss you. I wish you were still alive and were still with me. I miss having fun times with you. I still think about you almost every day even though its been almost 4 years now. I have a bear made for your memory and it helps me cope with everything. Anyway I miss you and I wish you were still here.

[serenitymontaza]

yikes

[Atlas ♥]

Dear Self,

To lose a battle, to lose a war.. is a terrible thing.
But to lose yourself, if you really lose yourself..
you are gone forever.

[poppins]

dear c,

i think this is, like, the fifth consecutive letter i've sent to you on this thread. ig it's a reflection of how much you're on my mind.
but uh, wow. i just... i cannot fathom the fact that we actually broke up. and when i think about all of the plans we had with newly lost potential-- the "big surprise" you had planned for our next anniversary, me lighting a candle at your party, our new years kiss, our valentines day plans... the list goes on-- i break down all over again. like you said on the phone yesterday, this one thing was burdening us; keeping us from having a perfect relationship. and i think for the rest of my life, i'll beat myself up for manifesting it to the point where you couldn't handle it anymore. i'm so, so sorry. i wish i could change. i also know that, through gasps and cries, i told you the same thing, and you repeatedly told me that you didn't want me to change, and that i'm perfect the way i am. but i disagree.
because gosh, C. if it wasn't for this stupid thing that our entire relationship became contingent upon ubeknownst to me, i wonder how different everything would be right now.
i keep thinking about you telling me, "when i hang up the phone, our relationship is over," and both of us holding on for five more minutes in a continual cycle that lasted another hour, because neither of us wanted to let go. i keep thinking about how you had to repeat the same sentence six times for me because you kept breaking down into tears halfway through. i keep thinking about how you told me you'd never get over me, how you'd never stop loving me, how i'd always be on your mind. and i keep thinking about how my tears are still stained on the carpet on my garage floor from the minute we finally said goodbye and hung up the phone.

i can now admit that i've been periodically working on your birthday card since june, adding onto it for many months to make it absolutely perfect. it's, like, really long. i know you don't appreciate superfluous writing, but i couldn't help myself. but i don't know if i should still give it to you. i don't want to just let it all go. but i feel like it'll be too hard to read for both of us.
ultimately, this is still all so surreal. i keep thinking i'm gonna wake up from this nightmare in a few hours, my heart racing and breathing heavy, confused on how my mind managed to conjure up such a vivid display of my worst fear. but i also know that this is my new reality. so, i guess ill leave you with this: thank you for the best year of my life. please don't forget about me. i know i won't forget about you.

-a

dear mom,
i keep reliving the moment you found me, bawling on the garage floor, twenty minutes after the breakup, and how you wouldn't let me go until i told you what had made me so upset, so i was subsequently forced to tell you. you blamed my feelings for C on electronics and the influence of my friends. you said i was confused, and too young to comprehend the true idea of love. you dismissed our whole relationship as fabricated. i was too broken to argue. i still am. yet, you managed to comfort me the best way you knew how. somehow you were fine in that moment. but i see your perpetually red eyes and dull face. you're not okay with it. you're not okay with me. i want you to know that i empathize with your fear, and denial, and confusion. but despite what you may believe, this isn't going to change about me. and i'm sorry if you really do think that.

-a

[taichi]

hey l,
i'm sad - sad again.
why can't i ever stop this? big things happen, good things happen to me. so i don't understand why i should be sad?
the fear burrows within my bones, my worries fluctuate with no reason to.
after the fall, it all smoothes out like and glides like a kite through the air.
there's some things we need to talk about, and i can't stay no more.
to be blatant, i always think about how i feel about you.
from the times we spent days together, to now, where we speak little throughout the day.
i have to wonder, is it me? not only you, but others too. it always happens this way. what is it that i do that makes everything go wrong?

you took a piece of my heart, cut it in half and made it all your own.
you stole my negative thoughts and threw them away.
all you had became, all you were. my safe haven

now, now, it's all the same.
it's like you never existed.
goodbye

[i<3 wolves678]

wow
am i not even second best for you anymore???
let’s get real i don’t even feel like last resort at this point.
you say i’m your friend and yet the moment she doesn’t show up you ditch me

you ditch me knowing how stressful it is for me to be alone
knowing the things i’ve done because i can’t stand the feeling
yeah, i know i’m too clingy to C, but that’s because at this point i feel like she’s honestly all I have left
i want to change my ways but i just don’t know how

and yet you do it anyway
you don’t think of anyone but yourself tbh
we aren’t allowed to do anything without you, but you can just prance off whenever you feel like it???

i’m sorry, but that’s not on.

also i hear you like overwatch. Surprised you don’t main Tracer tbh because that’s all you do with your art.
yeah, you heard me, don’t think I don’t know.
smh

i’m trying to be patient and give you room to change, but my tether is wearing thin
and i’m honestly just sick of it