by 5404 » Mon Feb 09, 2015 1:53 am
Dear *******,
I miss you. First time in years I again miss you. Why did you appear in my dream? I haven't seen you half of my life...
Oh, btw. - happy birthday. I haven't forgot, I'll always remember. Same birthday, that's all that is left of my memory of you.
I haven't visited you since... September. I can't bring myself to ask *** do take me with him. Looking at the empty, more empty now than in Sept, flat... I was a wreck back in Sept just before entering it, now I'm a wreck too, I hate recalling bad memories...
I don't really believe in afterlife, but I hope you and ******* are happy wherever you are or aren't at all.
I love you both.
OT: That moment when you think about a song, just a few verses of it, and it starts playing.
And you find out its first verses are just what describes your current situation...
The tears I cried for you that day
are like the tears I cry today
The pain I feel inside reminds me
that I'm living every day
Without a word I'm watching as my
life keeps passing by
(both quotes - Black Boart by nano)
Dear ***,
how it comes we started talking about passing time today? That you unintentionally reminded me about my dream just as *** returned home? He was... wait, no, he wasn't... or was he? He was there yesterday, today he just showed me a few things today which he found in the flat, right?
Nevertheless, the time is passing. You made me realize it's passing too quickly...
...I cannot continue, I don't know what to say, too many thoughts.