by toast, » Sun May 19, 2013 8:03 pm
Dear mom.
>> why. why must you do this to me? you never answer my texts. you never answer my calls. I know your little 'trick' to look like
you didnt decline it. and then you pretend your phone was off. if it was off, why did it ring, huh? why was the message bubble
still blue, intead of green, huh? right. you dont know. you always talk to me so rudely, and I am tired. i didnt even do anything.
you just tell me to shut up. and I have to listen to you, right? well, you already shut my phone off, so the computer is the only
thing I have now. dont you know im sensitive? right, you dont. in fact, you barley know me, because you never even care to
listen to me in the first place. your always on 'match.com' or 'facebook', but you make and excuse and say its work. mom, im
not stupid, i know what facebook looks like. you always dump me to go on dates. every night. every day, every week. i just reply
'its alright', because thats who i am. even if i say no, youre still going to go. you dont give a darn about my opinions. and im sure
you never did. i texted you, hmm, one hour and thrity mintutes ago, asking if you would be home soon. and you said yes, i will be
home shortly/soon/in a little bit. i said i love you, but of corurse you dont respond to that. its okay, go have fun partying with
all these men while i lay awake, typing my feelings onto this computer, waiting for you to get home. sometimes you say you'll
be coming home tonight, but you lie. alot. I stay awake until one o'clock to one thirty, and then my eyes are to heavy to open.
maybe if you'd keep your promises, id have better trust issues.