by ElevatingHearts » Sat Mar 03, 2012 8:15 am
Dear Mom,
Seriously? Why do you always want to rip my head off? Why do you always have to be on top of me with my schoolwork while you let Matt slack off and get out of everything? You hate what I'm into, when it's just Sonic and role playing! You don't like my friends and they're the only two I have, as well as them being the only good and clean kids in school! When I was being called a sl*t, b*tch, and a wh*re, you sure didn't care. The only thing you said to me was to get over it. Then I lost my best guy friend, and you didn't give a d**n about that. Seriously? What kind of mom doesn't care about her own daughter with a broken heart? You were barely showing any worry when I didn't want to eat or when I kept playing slow songs really loud in my room so I could cry. You didn't care that I wasn't talking much, and you didn't care about the fact that I didn't have any friends in school because everybody believed that I was pregnant. To be honest, I'm amazed you even paid the money for me to be home schooled! You say do all things in the glory of God to me, but you don't do that much yourself. The only thing you ever do is yell at Matt, and flip out on me if my school work still isn't done. Well, you know what? It's freaking Friday and three in the afternoon! Do you expect me to be focusing on schoolwork? NO! You know why I sit in my room all day with my door shut? Because I can't stand you. I can't stand how you want to turn me into a girly girl, I hate how you don't want me to like Sonic games, I hate how you say I'm a mean girl, I hate how you think you know everything, I hate how you decide everything you say is right, and more importatnly, I hate being your daughter half the time. You don't know how many times when I tell my best friend (she lives 2 days away) I wish we were sisters that I actually mean it. Sure her mom is over protective and really strict, but she sure is a better mom than you are at times. Maybe it's because her mom is actually married, and you aren't even trying anything to find a husband again. And those online dating e-mails you get that you say are spam, sometimes I wonder if you really are on one of those because nobody else gets those as spam, I'm just saying. So yeah, mom, I wish you could see this and see how much you annoy me so maybe, just maybe, you could try to be a little bit better. It doesn't make sense to me that you let Matthew slack off all the time, but you are always on top of me to stay on top of everything. I'm not f*cking perfect! I can't get all those d*mn straight A's you want me to have! I'm so freaking sorry that I can't be in sports because I have nerve damage in my leg and a in turned knee! God, why can't you just except that!? It's freaking annoying! I'm not going to be the perfect, sweet, innocent daughter you want me to be! I'm not going to be dresses and bright pink clothes. I'm not a happy person! Honestly, I'm almost a goth inside because I'm normally moody and I don't like being around people. I'm quiet and I don't like being around a lot of people. Ever since I was seven, I have considered running away and mom, I'm almost thirteen! You really need to see these things about me because truthfully, it isn't that hard to see. Do you know how much I envy the preps and any other kid that has a dad because they're happy? Half the time, I envy the kids who can play sports without their leg giving out on them or tripping over their own foot. Mom, this is everything I have to say. You want me to be perfect, and I'm sorry but I can't be perfect because of my leg and my hands swelling up when they get cold. One thing you don't know about me is that I feel like an outcast and the kid who's weird because she bounces in every step she takes. I feel left out of almost everything, and I'm still broken hearted from when I lost my best guy friend. Why can't you see that?
Click either picture to check out the Pokemon Fan Fiction I am writing! The account is just starting up so I would
love any support you can give!(: "Only You" involves a romance and "Snagged" is just simply an adventure to get a Pokemon back.
Chapter 1 to
Only You was published on
10/29/14 which is my
Latest update on it.
My
Latest Update for
"Snagged" was the
prologue, which was posted on
10/25/14.
Again, just click either cover picture to read the book! Any votes or comments would be greatly appreciated!(:
