TheComfortCorner | v.6

[starlette]

I'd appreciate a PM.

[vaska]

So there's this guy I'm friends with, and we're really close and I've been told we were "made for each other" because we're so alike conversational wise and a lot of my friends know I've grown to like him as more than a friend, but I'm just working on making our friendship strong. Our friendship is the most important thing to me. But, on a group chat, a girl, who I am friends with, but am very easily irritated with because she has betrayed my trust before and so I'm just cautious about telling her things... Anyways, she's tried really hard to seek my friend(lets call him C), C's approval that its just really annoying. I mean, she gets so touchy about anything. They were talking about movies and she wouldn't drop the fact that they had different opinions on Marvel and DC, and she was just really hoping it didn't do anything to their friendship. I mean, I wouldn't care if they were friends before, but the way she does it, and the fact that she didn't choose to become C's "best friend" until I started liking him and getting closer to him. I guess I'm jealous. I hate it. I'm not saying anything about it, but it is really frustrating because I don't see the need for her to be so persistant. He's really hard to hang out with via text, and they just don't seem like compatible friends. She has a friend she likes, so I don't think, or, I hope its not the fact that she likes him. Eh, ignore me., I just needed to let this out. Haha!

[leebee]

-- sorry if this is long, omg.
kinda need to just rant/vent, also lowkey looking for advice. anyway, I
only really have 2 friends at the moment. one (I'll just call her A) has been
my friend for ~12 years now, since we used to be neighbors, and the other
(call her M) has been my friend for almost 3 years. I'm horrible at making
friends due to my crippling social anxiety and the fact I don't go to public
school anymore and rarely get any social interaction besides those 2 friends
I have and occasionally my family.

A is 2 years older than me, one grade above me. We aren't too different
personallity wise besides the face I'm an extreme introvert and she's a
huge extrovert. She also is kinda "boy-crazy", aka has a different relation-
ship type thing every week it seems like. And I really don't like those types
of people, I have never had a serious relationship, barely even a not-serious
one. She always pesters me about it or wants to hook me up with somebody,
but I am not about blind dates or anything like that at all. We also have
complete different definitions of attractive and a "good personality", so even
if I agreed to her little matchmaking it wouldn't fit me whatsoever.

M is my age, and we have too much in common I feel like. We're both introverts
with social anxiety and love video games/the internet/etc. She also takes everything
wayy to seriously, and gets offended so easily... She didn't talk to me all summer
of 2015 for no apparent reason, then we ended up become friends again after
she randomly texted me in september or something. but on serious topics, we do
not agree on anything. not going into detail, but she... in my standards would be
considered a bad person and someone I would typically hate. She also ditches on
most of the plans she makes, which is extremely frustrating considering I
rarely go out and getting prepared to do something social takes a lot of emotion
effort for me.

Basically. I do not like either of my friends, and I don't know how to make friends on
the internet or even in real life (or how to get in contact with the people I hung out
with when I was in school, like, how to start a conversation and become friends with
them again. Because there are some people I would like to talk to again and maybe
hang out with, but I don't even know how to have a conversation with people I'm not
really comfortable with) Don't get me wrong, sometimes my friends are great, but
sometimes... they're just a little too much. bleh I don't know haha, but really just lost.

[trans]

i dont know why but lately i've become extremely sensitive to any noises
yesterday my parents told me they were gonna move us all together so i agreed bc i was feeling lonely (even if i like having my own room) but the noises coming from my two sisters combined is hard to handle and im about ready to tell them and ask if i can have my own room again bc i cant stand it. like i literally cannot handle it at all and they both talk to their friends everyday so it's annoying and loud and it hurts my ears so bad :']

[Jelly.]

oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh
as im getting better
she's gets a fever
oh my gosh
this is all my fault.

[serik]

I give up, I just give up. Everything I do is "wrong" or "incorrect" pfft no wonder I lost my friends, all they care about is boys. I care about my GCSE'S more than anything else, then they're calling me the nerd and getting all wooey wooey about it, well I'm sorry but I just wanna get a good job. I just can't stand it anymore and I'm just angry and augggghhhhhh

Just had to let out a rant

[Velveteen Hound.]

So I have an odd, kind of pointless rant
But it is something I need to get off of my chest.

In general I honestly and truthfully loathe group work in school settings.
I understand that they are trying to promote the 'work place' atmosphere ...
But when students aren't getting paid they really don't care -
So more often than not (9/10 times\s from experience) most of the work gets dumped on one person.

Recently I have found myself in a very functional group.
For the first time in years. It was so refreshing for the first week or so (And it still is, but....)

But now I find myself in the position of not being that one person in the group that carries the burden,
and that alone is odd, but I am likely not even the 'alpha dog' of the group -if there were one- which is a totally new thing for me ...
and I kind of miss it. I have never been the popular person, or the first person picked for any sports activity -
but In the group setting, I have always been the person , people look to be be the 'dependable' leader, the one people finally turn to when they realize they need help.
Have I really let myself slip that much, that I am not the 'smart' one any more?
Or am I just actually in a group that really works, for the first time ever.


Have I given enough contradictions yet? lol
I just needed to rant a bit.
I am sure the next group I have to be in will be awful, and I can resume my role.
For now I will have to leave that position to someone else.

[- ; bonk!]

february is a tough month for me, having lost both my grandfather, and my auntie's rottweiler in the month of february since 2012.
in five days, it will be exactly three years since my grandpa died.
in twelve, it will be the fourth year since Kona's (my auntie's rottie, I loved that dog. I'll have to dig up the photos of me playing with her, I know I have them in a photo album somewhere) death.
it's just really weighing me down and I need a hug and maybe a gentle reminder I can survive another february.

[notactive]

I've gotten myself buried under so much crap because I made the stupid choice to lie and make stupid excuses. Now I've got a project I need to finish in a day but I know I can't and I'm not able to tell anyone because of everything I've done, I'll just make everything worse and I'll once again sound like I'm making stupid excuses. I don't even deserve this mark anymore, this project would've been done if I wasnt screwing around and being irresponsible.

And don't give me the "don't blame yourself, it's not your fault" crap, because it is my fault. I'm old enough to know to get work done but I didn't.

i just needed to vent. I'm so stressed and way past my breaking point.

[groenii]

I am so so stupid