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also just saying this is a long story and i give props to anybody who reads this whole thing lol
so in feb i started dating this guy - lets call him jake - i hardly met; dumb decision, don't come at me. we were friends for a couple of weeks and he asked to go out with me on valentines day, i said yes. we went on a date that weekend and it was amazing, i thought he was perfect.
nearing 2 weeks into the relationship he begun to get really clingy and kissing me all the time and my friends were noticing it too. i waited a bit because i really liked this boy. but it got too much for me in the end. at school, a month after we started dating aka the day before my birthday i broke it off. i told him i wasn't ready for a relationship and he said he understood, so that was the end of that. or at least that was what i thought.
jake and i stopped talking after that for a while but we eventually became friends and then stopped talking - it was an on and off thing, but let me just spoil something - we aren't friends now.
i went to a party on the 24th of march, i think it was? and it was good, there was food and drinks and i was having heaps of fun. my guy friend - lets call him kyle - was there with me and we just talked for half the time because we were both exhausted from partying and screaming. we were sitting together on the couch at the host's house, and we were pretty close. everyone was saying "ooooh amy and kyle would be such a cute couple!!" and kyle and i would both say "no, we're just friends" but that wouldn't stop anybody. then the party ended and kyle and i walked out together and said bye, and that we'd see each other on monday at school.
a couple of days after the party i was on facetime with my best friend - lets call her millie - and out of nowhere millie said "hey amy, if kyle asked you out what would you say?" that question kind of confused me and i said "uuuh why" and she was just like "just wondering" and so i keep saying stuff like "um i dunno" and "why would it matter? he doesn't like me" and stuff like that but i lowkey liked him but i hadn't told anyone. and so millie eventually gets my answer which was me yelling into my phone "fine, millie! i'd say yes, ok?!"
millie literally starts screaming and i'm overwhelmed, i'm like "woah millie whats up woman" and she just screams "i'm gonna tell daisy!" (we'll call her that, daisy was one of millie's friends) and i'm like uh please don't but i said to her "why?" and she's like "omgogmgokgmokgmkogkmkgjm" she's having a spaz attack and i'm so so confused and it was weird
that weekend kyle asked if i wanted to go to the mall - i guess you could call it? we don't say that in australia lol but whatever - which is where everyone hung out and still do, i go there all the time and since kyle and i were close friends we went there together quite often so i said yes because i had nothing else to do that day, excluding homework because i'm a proud procrastinator.
we meet at donut king about an hour after we talked about meeting up and everything was fine, we sat down, ate, talked, laughed, and we kind of flirted a bit. when we were walking out about 3 hours later, he says to me "hey so um amy i actually like you a lot and i was wondering if you wanted to go out with me?"
my heart literally flies out of my chest and i'm trying to keep my cool and so i just smile and i obviously said yes. then we hugged and stuff and like went our ways home.
on monday it was a bit awkward because that's normal in relationships (it was like that with jake too eeW) and so yeah nothing happened that day but i would say on wednesday we started like being okay again and flirting and it was a very lowkey relationship, we hadn't told anyone but millie because she was the one who got us together
on thursday i think it was, was house sports, so our campus went to an athletics track for sports and stuff, yeah i don't like exercise and literally no one in our group of like 10 people did the sport even though half of them were in sports academy lol, anyway so we're blasting cupcakKe and it was a great time you know? so kyle puts his hand on mine and no one saw and it was really cute like honestly i couldn't have been happier. a couple days after this we told everyone about our relationship so ye
jake being the swine he is found out and got REALLY REALLY jealous, he tried getting with my best friend, putting his arm around a bunch of girls everyday and looking at me while i was with kyle - it was bad. but everyone thinks hes gay sO
kyle would call me for about 2 hours a night and he was always really sweet and supportive. i have depression, insomnia and an eating disorder and he always tried to help me get enough sleep, trying to make me happy everyday and buying me food and he was just the best. we went on dates and flirted and laughed and we nearly kissed once but we didn't.
we were good for about a month but now here's where kyle's and i relationship got a little bit rocky, he was always playing fortnite (yo we're on this fortnite grind but man don't ignore your girlfriend for it) and he was always with his friend let's call him mason
so at lunch and break and stuff everyone was like to me "oi amy where's your man at" and i'm like either shrugging or saying "probably with mason" and everyone found that weird.
so nearly 2 months into dating is where it all went down. on monday after school everyone had already left. i was about to ask kyle if he was walking our way (i walk with my best guy friend, let's call him noah, millie, my other best friend, let's call her kayla, and my other friend, let's call him ben) and he suddenly says "hey i need to talk to you" and so i'm like well shoot this isn't gonna be good
he brings me over to this grassy area outside the lockers and he says "hey so i don't think this is working out, i'm really sorry but i think we're better off as just friends" my heart d r o p s and i get a huge lump in my throat. funny thing is, when i was in english class that day i was actually thinking maybe this isn't working out, we're probably going to break up soon and boy was i right.
i agreed with him and i genuinely do, but i was so so sad. it was working out for a while. he asks me if we could still be friends and i say of course. he smiles and hugs me but then says he had to go, so he walked away. and obviously no, he wasn't going to be walking with noah millie kayla ben and i. i try not to cry and so i walk back into the locker area and walk up to millie and kayla. i tell them i need to tell them something. i bring them over to a quieter place because noah and ben are being idiots as per usual and i whisper "kyle just broke up with me" millie, being the overprotective best friend she is, drops all of her books and screams, she runs outside to slap kyle and kayla's comforting me and all of that made me start to cry. noah starts to get worried and maybe ben did too and so noah asks me what's wrong and kayla says "kyle broke up with amy" and noah and ben were really surprised and noah put his arm around me as i kind of quietly cried.
the following days were really sad for me and i was already being shipped with noah and this other guy but he is irrelevant to this whole thing
now i'm feeling better but i'm so stuck on what to do, it's so awkward between kyle and i and i want to be friends again
PLEASE HELP I'M ACTUALLY DYING SLOWLY
thanks to anybody who read that whole thing and bonus points to you if you help me i will love you forever