Long rant. =P
People stop telling me to stop feeling sorry for myself. I don't.
Stop telling me to stop thinking I have depression. I don't think nor do I have depression.
I'm not depressed I am SCARED.
I'm scared of things that are simple everyday things to others.
Sports. Sleepovers. Change.
Of course lots of people are nervous to do these things too but not for the same reason.
Sports I'm afraid of because I feel overweight and insecure at all times and I have no experience in any sports because I've been too afraid to try them and I think I let my team down and I'm a terrible player. Yet because of this I'll never get better.
Sleepovers. I don't get homesick. This I don't even fully understand.
I just... I don't know. I just hate it.
Change. I just want things to be the same forever. Who knows why. But things around me just keep changing and it's ruining me.
All of these things I could easily get over with pushing myself and a little courage but I am too scared to even try.
It seems like happiness is just beyond my fingertips and I cannot reach it. The sad part is I'm not even trying.
People stop telling me to stop feeling sorry for myself. I don't.
Stop telling me to stop thinking I have depression. I don't think nor do I have depression.
I'm not depressed I am SCARED.
I'm scared of things that are simple everyday things to others.
Sports. Sleepovers. Change.
Of course lots of people are nervous to do these things too but not for the same reason.
Sports I'm afraid of because I feel overweight and insecure at all times and I have no experience in any sports because I've been too afraid to try them and I think I let my team down and I'm a terrible player. Yet because of this I'll never get better.
Sleepovers. I don't get homesick. This I don't even fully understand.
I just... I don't know. I just hate it.
Change. I just want things to be the same forever. Who knows why. But things around me just keep changing and it's ruining me.
All of these things I could easily get over with pushing myself and a little courage but I am too scared to even try.
It seems like happiness is just beyond my fingertips and I cannot reach it. The sad part is I'm not even trying.