TheComfortCorner | V.10

[Saiun]

Things are just terrible at the moment. Well, it could be worse, but my heart is dealing poorly with this stress.

[stardustreserve]

i just want to escape the cycle of eternal torment, or at least avoid it
it’s like my mind is a prison sometimes, and i don’t know how to get myself out of it
ugh it’d be great if there was an undo button on things in real life, maybe i could have avoided so many of the unnecessary events and people in general that have caused me more suffering

i wonder what my life would be like if i could’ve known better
could’ve avoided it all
would i be happier?
would i have less issues than i do now?
almost anything would be better than this
is there an end to my regrets?

[demodog]

i feel like im freaking out i hate being left in silence and it makes me look so clingy but i just fear for him

[♥ mizu]

ok so! i was FINALLY able to meet one of my online classmates, she's come to the physical school now. and i'm THRILLED. i am so happy guys!!

her english is so good, and she has a genuine passion for learning the language. she is self taught and she honestly seems native. she's asked me so many questions about the language. i'm just so flattered. i have not had any classmates who genuinely seem to want to learn english, and she is so friendly.

i missed having people that could communicate fluently and natively in english. is that wrong? i absolutely adore my friends, they are my very best friends. i didn't even realise how much i've missed just being able to. SAY. things. without having to simplify them. i can discuss topics with her without a translator, and even when i miscommunicate her english is good enough that she understands my explanations very well.

i can just yammer away in my canadian accent and speak at a comfortable, quick pace like a native speaker can. i don't have to slow down or have somebody translate my words into mandarin. i can just TALK to her. and she talks to me too!!!!!!! she tells me SO many interesting things!!!!!!!!!! OMG guys she is so nice!!

she's just so kind. she is so positive and friendly and happy and i am so happy she is finally here!!! i am SO happy.

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side vent, more negative lol.

my dad is not helping me at all. this is a bit too personal to share online but he's making the process so much worse. he does not know what he's doing and is overwhelmingly negative.

also, i need to get my grades up. midterm report card marks close on november 8th. like, this is SERIOUS. i need grades in the 90s. my math is in the 70s i believe, but i NEED 90s. my other classes are fine, it's just math. i am stressed out about this. it's really hit me now. like this isn't funny, this isn't a joke. i need to crack down on this. it's my future i need to worry about. i need to understand this math and i need to be able to use it. i need to understand piecewise functions and polynomials and all that junk. i'm improving, my teacher says he's very impressed. but it's not enough. i need higher grades.

it's just so hard. coming home is exhausting. i do not feel rested when i get home. dad is constantly angry and he expresses it in very bad ways. i wish my biggest stressor was school but it's not. living with mom and dad is hell.

[Jarex]

I wish I could disappear

[♥ mizu]

I feel so unloved and like I won't accomplish anything. My dad even tells others I can't do anything. I'm doing the best I ever have at school and yet I feel like things are getting bad again. I don't hate myself but I can't help but cry

[crashedOut]

post-con blues... i had such a blast and met so many people i formerly only knew online and now i have to wait an entire year to even have a CHANCE at going again plzzz whyyyyy

[♥ mizu]

hate my life

[marciplier]

genuinely frustrated like what did i even do to piss her off this time. its not that serious. and then the passive aggressive text.

like. let me get this straight. you leave your jacket to dry on my chair, the one for my desk, leave it there for 3 days without bothering to get it back and get mad at me when its on my bed. i took it off because i actually sit in that chair! and you get an attitude when i tell you to just hold on a second! cant stand her not everything is some personal attack against you specifically

[crashedOut]

its been seven months, why do you insist on manipulating your way into making all of my friends hate me? im not the one that'll ruin lives like you claim, because im not the one going to the friends of the person i dont like and manipulating them into hating the person in question unlike you! you're a grown man, even older than i am, you should know better than to do something like this.

especially using screenshots of our status when we were literally begging for help against us... not a good look! mental health support until the mental is unhealthy or whatever lol what a joke. we were at our absolute worst and instead of helping you screenshot our suffering to make fun of us and then cut us off? and you think we'll "admit we made [having did] all up" for a second chance of being your friend? i literally want nothing to do with you, you're actually vile, we have a diagnosis so idk what you mean by making things up ^_^

ive moved on but youre hung up on someone you havent spoken to in months so i think i know who the bigger person is here (hint: it isn't you)
im glad my friends saw through you and your vitriol towards anyone you even remotely dislike lol. we literally proved all of your slander against me wrong, you probably feel pretty stupid now, huh? you're lucky im too broke to sue for damages with how you're trying to destroy my reputation accusing me of the things YOU did

this isnt about anybody here of course, and im glad its not, stay out of my safe spaces you freak