TheComfortCorner | V.10

[♥ mizu]

Every single time I think I have a good day I come home to find things have gotten worse. I feel so violated. I am so angry and upset and uncomfortable. This is one of my biggest fears and it happened. I am so incredibly mortified. I hate my life I wish I didn't wake up here I wish I didn't live with these people I wish I had normal parents I wish my life werent such a living hell. Why do my parents enjoy the fact that they've violated my privacy. Why is it so funny to them that all of these old men were looking around my stuff. What the actual hell I think I'm going to break down when I get home. I have so many things I don't want anyone to ever see. So many tears so much pain. Things I've kept from the worst parts of my life. They likely would've seen them.

I am so humiliated. I feel so violated. I can never trust my parents to do anything. They thought this whole thing was so funny. I want to cry. Im going to cry


update; ok things seem ok at my room. it was a mess, a catastrophe. what i feared was, in fact, there, but i doubt they looked too closely anyway and probably just thought it was junk. it's super personal though so i'm glad it's ok. i still feel incredibly violated and my sister agrees with me.

however. now im not going to have my room for a month which is very stressful for me. my room is my safe space and it's the only place i feel fully comfortable so this is super distressing. feels like ripping my memories apart T.T but at least i will be able to renovate and fully customize my room. i guess.

'nother issue. i have to clean everything out still. and i have a presentation due tomorrow, and i have to finish the presentation still. iam going to be up so late tonight. this is so incredibly stressful i cannot stress enough how tired i am. i want to take a nap but i cant. this is hell why is my life getting worse on the daily

[_SmollJellyfish_]

Since I was little I have understood,and I know that I am a useless human being.
I can't take any more of anything

[arcadia.]

aaaaa
one of the minor things but my employer keeps texting me during class and because im a good student i keep my phone on silent and don’t check it until after school and now im stressed and i feel bad and idk what to d

haha

[eden;]

it's never been this bad before, feel like everything's bubbling over

[mushroomish]

aaaaa
one of the minor things but my employer keeps texting me during class and because im a good student i keep my phone on silent and don’t check it until after school and now im stressed and i feel bad and idk what to d

haha

Your employer doesn't have a right to your time outside of work hours. I know it can be difficult to not feel guilty and feel like you have to be obligated to them, but when you're off the clock, you're off the clock. Don't give away your time for free, you're doing nothing wrong!

[mushroomish]

I hate being an people pleaser while having the lowest self-esteem known to man.
I hate it because if I do one thing wrong that somebody doesn't like I immediately feel useless and stupid.
I called my friend by their real life name online and they freaked out.
They posted a whole thing on dont call them by their real name if you know them in real life, which didn't do too bad just made me feel a bit bad.
That was intill they said.
"Arkaane has a problem."
"why?" - Other user
"Arkaane has a problem for calling people by their real names."

I Know I shouldnt care about such a simple thing. But now I dont want to see my friend because Im scared they'll yell at me or get angry.
But at the same time I know if I don't I might make them sad or mad, which makes me go bonkers.
They're already trying to end it and I'm stressing over that, and they pull this which makes me even more stressed. What do I do?
im scared that if i do something about it and say something, they'll post our convo and I'll get attacked.
Maybe its just anxiety or something but im still stressed.

It doesn't sound like your friend is treating you very nicely. I'm not surprised you're feeling anxious when your friend has a history of yelling at you when you're scared and posting your private conversations online to punish you, that is really inappropriate and unkind. You are not a bad person for making a mistake. You clearly didn't mean to share their name, and whilst they may feel upset by this it is doesn't give them the right to treat you in this way.

It sounds like you're wanting to talk to them about it and address it, I think it would be good to acknowledge the mistake and apologise. However, I also think if and when you feel able, that talking to them about their behaviour might be a good idea. If your friend is threatening to post your conversations to stop you criticising their behaviour, that is not a healthy way to conduct a friendship and you deserve better than that.

[DuckquackQUACK]

why why why

[Moiraine]

This will probably sound a lot more dramatic than I really want it to, because I'm actually fine, just-

You never realise how 'not over it' you are until you're confronted with the thing again. A lot of bad memories surrounding a certain location for me, which I never really paid too much mind to, until suddenly I was back there and it was practically 'black and white flashbacks' like in the war movies. I had to go outside. It's been well over a decade. I thought I was over it. I am not

[yves]

it's my birthday in less than half an hour and i'm going into the day knowing it's not the day i've been excited for weeks, even months now. having my favourite football team's match postponed not even a week before due to scheduling conflicts was a hard pill to swallow. weirdly enough it has made me realise just how lonely i am/will be. and another year getting older is never easy. oh well. here's to hoping the day isn't entirely sucky.

[marciplier]

am i just stupid. like genuinely. why do little things bother me